Me & You

The Little Things That You Don't Always Notice Until It's Too Late

I have been with Justin and Monty for what seemed like forever, even though that it has roughly been only five or so months of the three of us being together. Like I said, they are my safe places, they are the ones that make me feel calm but also on edge all the time and I love that. They always bring something to the table that isn't always what you think you have signed up for. For instance, Justin always played it rough. He would take the three of us on hikes on these intense trails, like one slip and you will fall off the trail into a ravine or a lake, plus the fact that he drives 90 miles an hour plus on highway, bobbing in between cars at any open chance that he can get. He drinks and drives at least twice a week even though I tell him to stop because of the fear that I get regarding his life. Monty is kind of the same, but almost like me. He doesn't take shit from other people or even us after a certain point. He would kind of blow up which makes it awkward and making us not wanting to speak for a while when he's with us. 

I know, this might sound like a toxic relationship, but it gave me life. With the way that they are personally, and how we interact with each other, we know that we wouldn't do anything to hurt each other. Or so I thought

Little by little, I would see Justin take out his phone and snap some people. At first, I didn't question it because why would I, we all snap someone at all times of the day. But it got worse over a month or so. Every time that we would hang out, there he was, on his phone. However, it seems like he's smile has gotten huger and huger, like how we would when we were first texting. Since we are in a three way relationship, I thought that it was just monty that he was texting. I eventually learned that it wasn't because monty was noticing the same thing as I was. 

We didn't want to be too nosey about it, so we led into the topic slowly:

"Hey Justin, both me and Monty have realized that you aren't the same around us. You barely talk to us when we're with you lately, and you're always on your phone now. Is there anything that we should know?"

"I have no idea what you guys are talking about. I mean ya, I may be on my phone, but it's not to be doing other things. I think you guys are being crazy."

(when Justin caught on to what we were trying to talk to him about and becoming very defensive on what he was saying to us, it proves that he was guilty of having some kind of relationship with who knows how many there people. )

"What do you mean we're crazy? we both notice that you are always on your phone, you don't talk to us, you don't even hold eye contact with us. not to mention, you are always smiling on that phone like the way that you would smile when you were out with us before!"

"you may think that we're going crazy, but you're on snap like there's no tomorrow. You also told us that you have your snap notifications off, but we see the icon on your screen when you do. The fact that you're lying to us right now, is something that me and monty will not stand for."

"Again, I have no relocation of what you guys are saying. I don't think the way you guys are ganging up on me is fair. and what do you mean, my snap notifications are off, you guys will say anything to the point where both of you are going to believe it."

"Then prove it us. Prove it to both me and Alex that we're your only ones. Show us your snap, prove that this is all a big misunderstanding. Or just admit to it, admit that you are talking to other people because the way that you have ben treating the both of us is sickening".

Without him even saying on word to us, he put his phone down and got up. Monty could tell that there was something that was going to go down and he left the house, got in his car, and left. Me believing that Justin wouldn't do anything to me, I stayed in the room with him, trying to calm him down even though that both me and monty were the ones in the right here. 

Justin has a pissed off look on his face, walks up to me, and pushes me to the floor. He yells and yells that he is innocent and that he wouldn't do anything to hurt both me and monty. He kept on saying that he would never cheat on us, or on ME since we've been together the longest. 

I get off the floor, just brushing it off as if nothing happened. Justin finally calmed down and I apologized for the way that I was acting.

"I didn't know what came over me" he said. " I'm really sorry that I pushed you and that I raised my voice at the two of you. Can you please not tell monty what happened here tonight? I genuinely care for the both of you guys and I don't want him thinking that I would actually hurt you guys over something like this".

I told him not to worry and that this whole thing would stay between us.

That was the biggest mistake that I should've never made.