Their Precious Flower (not edited & its complete)

19

I can't believe that I'm carrying boys. I mean I figured it be twins but when I learned that they are boys I was in shock. I thought that I'd be like my mom and carry girls that it was something that was like a tradition of sorts.

Since going on maternity leave things seemed so different. I mean I have more time on my hands I have so much to prep for or make sure was already ready to go for when lil Tragger and lil Telford arrived.

I had gone over the overnight bag making sure everything that was needed was packed. half the time I unpacked it and then repacked it multiple times.

Now here I am sitting in the nursery folding and refolding clothes and putting them away as I sit on the rocking chair.

"what are you doing love? those were already folded" Chibs questions as he walked into the nursery with Tigger following suit.

"I had nothing else to do so I figured I'd make sure things were ready for our boys who we've yet to name" I replied

"well let's go and pick names," Tigger says

I put the closes aside and slowly got up before placing my hands on my lower back and following them out. 

We headed to the living room where I sat between the two of them.

"Alright, so what're some of your options?" I asked them

"Kade Braxley Telford or Filip Bryden Telford," Chibs says

I nodded my head

"What about you Tigger?" I asked

"I like Arkin Cayson Tragger or Blade Braylon Tragger" he replied

"How bout you loue?"

"Well I like your twos name choices quite well so I was thinking maybe Filip Kade Telford & Cayson Blade Tragger," I tell them

They thought about it for a bit before nodding their heads.

"its both the two we like in one" Tigger says

 "right so that both your two's picks are together" I tell him

"Wait instead of blade why not name him Alex Cason Tragger so that he's got your first name like kade has mine. and we could call him Cayson?" Chibs asked

"not a bad idea but it's up to Alex cause I want what he likes and he didn't have his name as part of the pick" I replied

"Alex is such a boring name" Tigger says

"says who?" I asked

"a lot of people," Tigger says

"but it means defender of men or helper. and you've done just that baby" I tell him

he sighed and I knew he was unhappy.

"Alright fine we'll name him Alex Cayson Tragger" he says

I sighed 

"No we won't you don't like it and your son won't be named that. he will be named Cayson Blad Tragger." I say

"you would do practically anything to please us wouldn't you?" Chibs asked as he looked at me

"I don't want one of you upset over something that was a simple suggestion. so if it means naming  our son something that doesn't have any part of your name in it then I will be happy with it just so you are happy with it" I replied

"but what about you. you're their mother?" Tigger asked

I was feeling overwhelmed and it sucked that I felt as if no matter what way I picked or what I said things weren't settled. which sucks cause a great majority of the time I get really frustrated and start tearing up.

"Excuse me," I say as I slowly get up and make my way out of the room before I start to cry.

"Wait darling what's wrong?" Tigger asked as he and Chibs followed.

"I just need some time please" I replied before I headed to the front porch and sat down in the porch swing and closed my eyes trying to relax and stop crying but I couldn't.

After a few moments, they came out and sat on either side of me.

"We know you want us to have our say in our son's name and be happy  but we want you to be happy as well," Tigger says

"It's not that I'm not happy with the names I'm just frustrated about things being unsettled. I get that you don't like your name. and you know that I do. but I won't name our son something you don't like at all and want to all but avoid being called yourself." 

We talked it over and we fully settled on Tigger's and my son's name which is the name he picked.

"Now are you sure you're fine with is name being what I picked"

"Tigger baby he could be named Pooh bear and I'd still love it," I tell him 

he smiled and nodded before we all headed back inside spending some quality time together.