War with a Tease ONGOING

Tip 14: Reality Check

Those eyes, his beguiling eyes. They were so beautiful, so very expressive, it could make me melt. I chuckled dryly to myself as I realized that his eyes weren't the only things that were liable to make me melt - Chase was absolutely gorgeous.

With his tall, lean, slightly muscular body, his messy black hair, and the famous smirk on his face, he looked as though he could be plastered across the pages of a magazine, I had to resist the urge to run unto his arms, grab his face and kiss him until I couldn't breathe.

We had only kissed thrice and he said he wanted me, but that morning, that one dreary Saturday morning, the morning that almost changed my life. The morning I almost lost what could very possibly be the man I wanted in my life. The last thing I said to him before I sent him out of my apartment... were hurtful.

"Kotang-kota ka ngayon Guevara. Sayo halos nakatingin si Alonzo." I heard Matt say while laughing as he tapped Chase's shoulders.

Malayo ako sa kanila pero naririnig ko pa rin ang kanilang usapan. I knew Matt was just joking around but it didn't help my current situation. I felt unhappy. I felt alone. I felt... strangely not much at all. I felt empty, hollow even, like I was all alone.

Naglalakad ako mag-isa patungo sa cafeteria habang nakatingin sa kanilang direksyon. Nakaupo sila sa open study area malapit sa cafeteria na masayang nagtatawanan at nagbibiruan.

I perfectly knew Chase heard what Matt had said because he laughed at it but he didn't seem to care. He just shrugged it off. He didn't even look up and I couldn't help but feel a very sudden pang in my stomach; a part of me had hoped Chase would look up at my direction and go with me, but I knew it was silly to think that, after what I had done two days ago.

I was now standing just outside the cafeteria door but I was still looking at their direction, specifically at Chase's, thinking of our moments together especially those kisses, those three amazing kisses. How our lips moving so sweetly on each other, our tongues, doing the dance of passion and... lust.

Then my mind floated to the dance when I noticed the dark-haired familiar slutty looking girl curled up in Chase's arms. Ito ang babaeng nakita ko na kasama noon ni Chase na papasok sa cafeteria. I was suddenly overcome by guilt, anger, and pain. I felt like my insides have just been torn apart.

I wanted Chase. There, I've said it again. I wanted to run into his arms and tell him that I wanted him too, but I couldn't because apparently, he was not into me now, he was done chasing me now, for I wasn't the girl he was holding in his arms right now.

I quickly turned away as I swallowed a lump in my throat before opening the cafeteria door and walked in, trying to ignore Chase's sweetness towards the slutty girl. Hindi ang tipo ni Chase ang sumasama sa iisang babae lang at pangalawang beses ko nang nakita ito sa piling ng babaeng iyon. Seryoso na ba si Chase dito?

Hindi ko inaasahang pagkatapos ng nangyari sa aking apartment dalawang araw na ang nakalilipas ay tuluyan na ngang natapos ang lahat sa amin ni Chase. Kahit anong pilit kong kalimutan ito, hindi ko kaya.

Hindi na nito ako sinusundan o kahit pa ang makipag-usap sa akin mapa sa bar man iyan, o kahit pa dito sa university. Kinausap ko si Veance tungkol dito at sinabi nitong kapag ako ang kanilang pag-uusapan ay kaswal lang si Chase kung sumagot at tila ba walang nangyaring kumprontasyon sa pagitan naming dalawa. Tama naman ang aking naging desisyon, hindi ba?