Coldest War (War Series #2)

Chapter 4

Chapter 4

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First love. 

I don't know how or when does a person start to fall in love with another person. Sa mga librong nabasa ko at sa mga palabas na napanuod ko, sabi nila, titibok nang mabilis ang puso mo. From what I've observed from my classmates and friends, it's when you start to feel shy around a specific person.

Hindi mo kayang tumitig nang matagal sa tuwing nakatingin s'ya pero gusto mo pa rin s'yang tingnan. Gusto mong iwasan kung nasaan s'ya pero gusto mo ring nando'n ka sa lugar kung nasaan s'ya.

Two different things but it make total sense. Somehow, it makes sense.

You'd always think about him--daydream about him. You'd hate it because it's too troublesome to think about him all the time and because you feel hurt for giving him this much space in your mind even when you are not sure if he likes you back. 

Yet, at the same time, you still love thinking about him because he makes your heart flutter. 

"Hi, Rinnah," bati ni Martin nang dumaan s'ya sa klase namin isang hapon pagkatapos ng lunch break. 

Narinig ko ang hagikgikan ng mga kaibigan n'ya sa likuran n'ya at nakita ko ang lalong paglawak ng ngiti ni Martin, nakatingin pa rin sa'kin.

"Hello," I stuttered a bit and my cheeks heated up because of embarrassment. 

His hair is styled today. He looks so neat especially that his hair is brushed back. Kitang-kita ang ganda ng noo n'ya, kilay, at mga mata. His Asian eyes are so attractive especially when he looks at me. Para kasing may sinasabi ang mga mata n'ya sa akin na kahit hindi ko naman naiintindihan, pakiramdam ko, alam ko kung ano 'yon.

I suddenly felt shy now that he's in front of me. Shy. I'm not usually shy! I'm friendly. I don't make things awkward. Pero ngayong nasa harapan ko si Martin, I can't help but feel embarrassed. Embarrassed of what?

Pero kahit na nahihiya, ibinalik ko ang malawak na ngiti n'ya. Ah. . .I wonder if this was what my friends were talking about. 'Yon bang parang kinakabahan ako sa tuwing babati s'ya at sa tuwing titingin s'ya sa'kin. 

Oh god, he's handsome too. And he looks really kind! Look at that sweet and friendly smile. Who wouldn't like him?

There are times when I'd find myself thinking about him and how he gives me so much attention. He's known to be friendly. . .pero ako lang yata ang tinatrato n'ya nang ganito.

I don't want to assume things. . .but I can't help it especially when he's this obvious. 

Yet, despite noticing how I've started developing interest in him, I tried to act calm around him. Kapag babati s'ya, babati lang din ako pabalik. Sa tuwing kakausapin n'ya ako, I would answer politely. 

Martin:
Hi. It's Martin. :)

Uminit ang mga pisngi ko at napanguso nang mabasa ang text n'ya para sa'kin. Uso kasi sa amin ang magpasahan ng mga number. . .I just recently got his number from a random plug. I saved it. Nang numero ko naman ang naipa-ikot, mukhang sinave n'ya ang number ko at nag-text na nga sa'kin.

I pursed my lips and I unconsciously tucked some hair strands behind my ear while staring at his message for me. What should I say?

"Hi?"

"Hey?"

Or should I add a smiley to it?

Mahahalata n'ya ba kung gano'n ang reply ko?