Be My Daddy

Twenty Nine

Chapter Twenty Nine

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Tinaas ko ang aking dalawang kamay, dinadama ang marahas na paghampas ng hangin. Mula rito, ang pagbaba ng araw ay tanaw na tanaw at ang ingay ng siyudad ay napapawi ng marahang huni ng mga ibon, lagaslas ng dahon at ang mumunting paghinga namin. Napili ko ang bulubundukin na ito dahil tahimik, payapa at kalmado.

Hindi kalayuan dito ay ang kampo kung saan naroon ang mga missionaries na partner ng mental health institute na pinagtatrabahuhan ni Heaven.

We're doing this therapy to connect again with nature and clear my mind. I'm still working in the institute but I'm working from home or from wherever I am residing as I continue meditating and healing.

"You cannot give what you don't have so it's important to make sure that what you're trying to give to anyone is right there with you."

"Nice insight." Heaven commented, putting down the vintage paper I preferred to write on.

I smiled proudly at her. After every meditation outside, she wants me to put my insights and my thoughts or even simply what I feel after having all the time with myself.

Ms. Selene is with us too. Kaya lang, abala pa ito sa ginagawang analysis ng nauna kong talk therapy. Dra. del Real on the other hand, asked Heaven to look after me for awhile, she's assisting Ms. Selene.

"How are you?" Ngumiti si Ms. Selene sa akin matapos kong kausapin si Heaven at sabihin ang insights ko.

"Ayos naman..." I answered.

It is one of our many session. I just finished meditating with nature and preparing my tea. And after handing her my insight, I got on the phone with Alder and checked how he's doing.

"Miss me so much, huh?" Rinig ko ang pagtawag niya.

Umupo ako sa rattan couch na mayroon ang cabin na tinutuluyan namin ni Heaven ngayon. Mula rito ay tanaw na tanaw ko ang mga bulubundukin at mga karatig na nayon, na pawang mga nasa tagong lugar ang bayan at mga kabahayan.

"Oo..."

"Patience, right?"

"Hmm, what are you doing?"

"Just finishing some reports. Magkikita kami ni Papa mamaya."

"Send my regards to him."

"I will, Cadi. How's life there?"

"Malapit na akong matuyo."

"Hmm," I can imagine his playful eyes, trying to do its trick on me.

"But I have to be patient... At isa pa, mayroon ako ngayon kaya kahit andito ka, we cannot make love."

"Really?" He chuckled.

"Really. Tsk."

"Bukas ba uuwi na kayo?"

"Sa isang araw pa. I still need to have a one whole day off from my phone so I won't be able to call you or text you. Huwag kang magtampo ha."

"I understand you, Cadi. And I know how this works. I'm being patient and even if I have to wait years just so you can heal and get better, I'd do it."

That's so sweet of him. This is one of the things I learned to adore and admire about him. He's understanding. He's so mature as well and even though there's a lot going on, he doesn't even have to re-assure me everytime that he won't leave me and I won't have to worry about whether he'll get tired of it. Because he shows how dedicated he is. He shows me that his love, his strong love can conquer everything that what may come between us, even if it is my own demons.