Who needs friends? Not me.

Stupid Lamp post

I guess last night wasn't a total train wreck, I did manage to apologise to Colton.

I just wanted him to know that I don't hate him and hopefully we can be friends, even though he's my mate and he's dating my best friend, I don't understand why I even bother.

Oh well, I guess it's kind of my fault that I'm not with him, I was being stubborn and I held that grudge against him for so long and it's been slowly eating away at me. Sometimes I really hate myself for it.

My mum's gone to supermarket and I can't really tell Anna about how I feel so I have absolutely no one to talk to.

I need to stop wallowing away in self pity and get out of this stupid house.

I got dressed and slumped out of the front door and let my feet take me wherever they wanted, I ended up outside sweet freak.

I prayed that he wouldn't walk out of the back when the little bell chimed as I pushed open the door. To my delight Colton's Nan came out instead, thank god.

"Hello my love, how may I help you?"

"Can you fill up a bag for me with an assortment of sweets please?"

"Anything for my granddaughter in-law"

She smiled at me then turned and opened some jars, I just stood there confused.

"So, how's Colton"

How would I know? And why would I care? Oh who am I kidding, I do care.

"I don't know"

"Well you're his mate aren't you?"

"How..? How did you know?"

"I might be old, but I'm not stupid"

I laughed,

"Well, I think the better person to ask would be his girlfriend"

She stopped what she was doing and turned around, she held a scoop tightly in her right hand that was filled with millions.

"His what? I thought that you were his mate"

"Erm no, I uh, rejected him"

I looked down at the floor embarrassed with myself,

"But.. why? You seem perfect for each other. The way he looked at you the last time you were in here, I haven't seen that kind of love in a long time, why did you reject him?"

"Do you remember when Colton and I used to date?"

She nodded her head then turned and continued with the sweets,

"He never told me how you two broke up though"

"Well, I thought that everything was going fine until he dumped me because I wouldn't sleep with him, I was waiting for my mate you see, then he went round the whole school telling everybody all these rumours about how I slept with 4 different boys when we were dating and telling them all this stuff that I apparently said about them, even though that not a single word of it was true. Then everyone turned on me I had no friends, It was horrible"

Tears started to spill out of my eyes as I remembered all the horrible things everyone said to me, what Colton said to me.

"I am going to kill him the next time I see him, how dare he! His own mate! But honey, even though what he did to you was terrible you shouldn't hold a grudge. It changes a person, I've watched people slowly deteriorate and turn into such bitter people. Don't let that happen to you"

I nodded,

"I guess it doesn't matter anymore, I've messed things up, He has a girlfriend now and I just don't know what to do, I should have just slept with him and I wouldn't be in this mess"

A whole new flood of tears came through, Colton's Nan came rushing over to me from behind the counter and pulled me into a hug.

"Don't you say that. You have morals and you stuck to them and that's a good trait to have. And don't worry about it, he will come to his senses soon and when he does you'll be together, I promise and if you ever need anyone to talk to, you know where my shop is"

I smiled at her then hugged her tightly. I don't know how long I stood there hugging her for, she probably though I was insane, I just needed someone to comfort me.

The little bell dinged signalling someone had entered the shop.

"Nan I got them large scoopers you wanted- Kim, whats wrong"

Oh god, this is the second time Colton has seen me crying.

"I think I'll just buy them sweets now"

I paid for the sweets and hastily left the shop,

"Kim! Kim wait!"

I started to run, I really didn't want to face him now with my face all red and blotchy. I bet this is a sight to see for anyone driving past, a girl crying and a boy frantically chasing after her.

"Kim please stop!"

I turned around to look at him, big mistake.

Because of my un-godly coordination I ran headfirst into a lamp post and fell flat on my arse.

"Oh for fuck sake"

I lifted my hand up to rub my head and the lowered the other to rub my arse at the same time.

"Shit Kim are you alright?"

Colton bent down and put a hand on my forehead, like he was inspecting it.

"Yeah I'm fine"

I went to stand up but he pushed me back down,

"Are you sure? You could have concussion, maybe we should take you to the hospital-"

"Colton really, I'm fine"

I just wanted him to leave me alone I was so embarrassed; I should have never left the house, whose brilliant idea was that? Oh yeah, mine.

"You really banged your head, the bruise is already starting to show"

I winced as he touched my head again.

I looked up at him and our eyes connected, my insides turned into jelly at the sight of him.

He looked so worried and cute at the same time. He was perfect, His blonde hair messy like he had just got out of bed yet it was stylish and his cheeks held a tint of red from where he had been running, his full red lips parted slightly as he was trying to catch his breath, and his glistening blue eyes filled with so much emotion, locked on mine.

I couldn't resist anymore and I lifted my hand up and tangled it up in his hair, he rested his hand lightly on my shoulder then softly lowering it down my arm. I leaned my head forward and he met me halfway, for a kiss.

The best kiss I have ever had in my whole life.