Grumpy female lead & sunshine male lead; HEA
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I have to study. I have to work. I have to remember, it's all for my parents.
The eldest daughter, my sister, and my role model, left us. It was simple. Stuck under the deepest illusion of love, we were simply forgotten. Such a wicked spell she was cast under.
I can't help, but to wonder on some occasions, were we not people she loved? The laughter, sadness, and painful memories we shared... were they not enough throughout the years we spent together? The questions of, "why, why, why" echoed in my thoughts.
"Why did you leave me with a cornered future?" But the confusion was soon lost into something I no longer cared about. Why should I care about a question that is never going to be answered?
I couldn't understand it, and I didn't want to. That was until you gently guided me to face what I feared the most. The beautiful side of life I constantly refused to see when there was the dullness I forced myself to deal with. You gave me the answers without needing to directly tell me anything, and it gave me this warmth I felt unfamiliar with. It was scary. Everything with you was scary, but it was so new for me. Wasn't it natural for me to be scared? You taught me that I can fall into the pits of the unknown, and that you'd grab me before I'd fall too deep. Maybe even hurt yourself by breaking my fall. It was all for me to love myself.
And for that, I wish I could tell you, "I'm grateful for everything you've done for me. I truly, truly loved you with all my heart, and I'm sorry."
Maybe next time, in this life or another, we could meet under a different circumstance and lead each other into love's suffocating addiction like we once promised.
But right now, I'm just happy that I left to buy red paint that day. Even if it wasn't the red I was expecting, even if I didn't know what I was feeling, it led to me being filled with hopes of meeting you again.
- Faith KensingVšetky práva vyhradené