**TW this story has *MAJOR mentions of SELF HARM, BLOOD, HEARTBREAK* i suppose, scattered *SEXUAL ASSAULT* and other things i will specifically say during insert chapter. you've been warned.** i always have written what i vented into my notes. i can be a very angry, sad person. i always had people who have stumbled upon my notes or asked to see say that my writing is beautifully "composed"? i thought it was strange but it feels open to let my thoughts flow through the web anonymously, maybe someone feels the same way as i once have. you're love, forever and always