It isn't something that just happens. Right? Well It's kind of convoluted, but I believe I understand it now. How the feeling of loneliness disappears whenever he's around. How I don't need to put on a mask to make as if I am someone I am not, just to please him. I can be me and he enjoys it! He enjoys me... But then why, still, do I feel this emptiness in me. It's because I know the truth. I know that in reality, he'll never see me the way I see him and I've come to accept that truth. It hurts, yes, to know I never will, again get to experience what true happiness is, but just for another minute or two, I want to enjoy this dream, this happiness.