"It was just a crush
But wild and dangerous
You and I were out too late
Started in my car
Might have gone too far
But we were down to make mistakes
Bad, bad, bad, we're in trouble now"
(LANY)
----journal style writing----
Something in Esther changed over the course of her senior year in high school.
Once a classic "good girl," Esther began finding herself getting mixed in with an unfamiliar crowd as her parents left her living by herself in a small apartment just outside of Saint Paul, MN. From meeting Uriah, the bad boy, to meeting a host of stoners, party kids, drug dealers and more; Esther finds herself not really knowing how she became, well, her.
Written as a memoir, this fictional story comes from Esther's perspective as she remembers the past and tries to understand how she went from "girl next door" to utterly "bad, bad, bad."
Below is an excerpt from the novel:
"You would think I was like anyone else at the ultra-strict, conservative Christian college I attended. Chapels three times a week, scholarly papers written from a Biblical point of view, good grades, and good relationships with professors and peers - but I had a secret to keep: I wasn't like anyone else there at all, and I prided myself for it.
It never ceases to amaze me how I could pretend so well. But, then again, I had pretended I was this way to my own self for years at that point. I was so good at pretending, I hardly knew where the line was between the real me and the "make 'em happy" me. What is it they say? The world's one big stage, right? I guess we're all fakers really."Todos los derechos reservados