it was a monday afternoon and i was sat in my living room, over the past two days since jjs release party i haven't felt like myself, i felt lonely.
i somehow kept blaming it all on jamie, even though i wasn't myself whenever i was with him but i loved the fact he would want to be with me in the public eye. not a rebound or a 2 month trial. even though he did cheat on me more than once.
the atmosphere with the group obviously wasn't the best, me and harry hadn't spoken about that night since i had woken up at his flat and we barely spoke about what happened between us that night as well.
i feel like everyone is walking on eggshells around me slightly, as i have went MIA twice and have attempted to one time as well but that just makes me feel even worse about the whole thing.
although, one of the only people who has been real with me is calfreezy. he always kind of has been though, even though harry is one of this best friends, he has always had my side when it comes to things like this. like when harry bring katie on a night out, he tried to make me feel better about the whole thing and even talked shit about katie to me
speaking of him, he is going to be at my flat in a few minutes to film a video for his channel. 'truth or drink' and of course he was bringing callux to be the host as he always is for they videos.
and he's tried to make me film my first video for my channel but i'm still unsure if i even want to do it yet, even though he is positive he will convince me.
as i was scrolling through my socials i heard the door knock and it open, and immediately i heard boys voice laughing about something.
"EMILIA" i heard one of the cals shout
"i'm through here" i shouted back, letting them know i was in the living room already prepared for them coming
the door opened and in walked calfreezy, i greeted him and then callux but someone else followed in behind them.
"hey emilia" harry awkwardly said
"hiya bog" i said back being nice
i quickly turned around to face freezy and talk about the video
"so i've set up where we are sitting i just need you to get the camera then we are ready to go" i said proudly
"great great, i'll get that up the now. lux come help me with the lighting of it" he said getting the camera from out his bag
"you sound like a proper youtuber you know" i heard harry say from behind me
"oh shut up, i just know because i'm always with you guys if i wasn't i wouldn't have a clue what i'd be doing" i rolled my eyes and laughed
"yeah suuuure" he giggled to himself and i slightly pushed him
"right emilia, let's go" freezy said rubbing his hands together
i sat down at the table opposite him, while lux was in the middle with the vodka and sambuca bottles in his hands.
we were sat at the window so behind the camera harry was on my couch, not actually in the video.
"right so, basically lux will ask you something and if you don't want to answer it you take a shot. simple" cal quickly explained as he was about to press record
"got it" i nodded my head and quickly fixed my hair to be on camera
cal pressed record and clapped before starting.
"alright, welcome to another episode of truth or drink. TODAY we have the one and only emilia hayden" cal announced
they started clapping and harry whistled from behind the camera making me laugh
cal explained to the camera what he just explained to me except he had more energy and was basically shouting towards it
"so emilia, are you ready" cal said rubbing his hands together, i nervously nodded and lux got out the first question
"so this one is for both of you, who is your favourite person out of the troops groupchat" lux asked, harry silently laughed from the back
"oooh nelly" i said and dropped my head into my hands
"that, my friend, would be you" freezy said and slapped lux on the knee
"wait what the fuck" harry shouted, we all turned to face him and he looked so offended. i burst out laughing and both the boys sat there and awkwardly smiled at him
"well, boys, i don't have a favourite. i hate you all" i said truthfully
"that sounds like a shot" freezy said with a sympathetic look
i rolled my eyes and opened the bottle of sambuca that had a piece of paper over it saying 'definitely not booze' and i poured it into the shot glass then quickly threw it down the back of my throat.
i cringed at the taste of the liquor right away making the boys laugh at my scrunched up facial expression
"i mean you could have answered that, should have just said me" lux said looking down at his laptop smirking
"but i'm not supposed to lie" i joked back causing freezy and harry to freak out into laughter
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"emilia, name the person you've had the best sex with ever" lux asked, i felt my face burn up right away
"i fucking hate you" i said to lux and threw my head back
"well.....i mean is it?" cal said and he turned his head towards harry
without even reacting to what he just said, i quickly opened the bottle again and poured another shot.
"wait so is it not me?" harry asked causing me to almost spit my shot out
"that cannot go in the video" i laughed once again throwing my head back out of embarrassment
"i'll bleep, i'll bleep it out" he said through breaths
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"cal, name one youtuber or social media influencer who you have had sex with that nobody knows about" cal said while the corners of his mouth turned up
"emilia hayden" freezy laughed
"w-what no, NO, he is lying i have not slept with him" i said towards the camera very seriously
"i'm joking i'm joking, you should have seen the look on boggos face though" cal laughed while pointing at him
"nah but on a real" cal said seriously while opening the vodka bottle and pouring a shot.
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"what's the kinkiest thing you've done in the bedroom" callux asked
freezy straight away grabbed the bottle and poured his shot
"a gentlemen never tells, that's what vikkstar told me" cal said in a deep voice as he was dealing with the vodka taste
i was still sat the thinking if i should say or not
"wait are you actually going to say" cal asked shocked
"i don't know, i can't think of like the worst one" i said, but then realised it would have been something with harry and then my mind changed completely and i took the shot
"not going to lie i wanted to hear what you would have said" freezy joked and he looked at cal for the next question
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"emilia, who is the most famous person who has been in your dm's?"
"ooooo, this could be good" freezy laughed sitting forward in his seat
"i'm actually going to answer this because when i saw this person has messaged me i was so shocked, and i've not told jj about this yet because i keep forgetting to" i explained to them and they seemed to get more intrigued the more i spoke
"go on tell us who it is then" freezy pried
"jake paul" i let out and the boys faces dropped
both callum's stood up and started laughing and harry came over and joined them.
"JAKE PAUL, no way" freezy said
"show us what he said" harry said standing behind me, holding on to the back of my chair
i got out my phone and went onto my instagram dms, to try find the message
"right, here" i said as i showed them the message, they just became even more hyper and started screaming
"just wait until jj hears about that" lux said through his laugh
"wait wait i'll phone him" harry said as he got out his phone and started facetiming jj
he held his phone out in front of me and him while freezy and lux came behind him to be in the frame.
after a few rings jj finally answered
"yo, you good" he said sleepily
"you been sleeping bro?" freezy asked, jj nodded his head
"well you'll never guess who has been messaging emilia" harry said, with a slight twang of jealously in his voice
"who" he asked again, getting slightly more intrigued
"jake paul" freezy said and jj's face lit up
"fuck off no way" jj laughed his famous laugh, waking up instantly
"you've been messaging jake paul" jj said laughing again
"no i haven't messaged him back he just dm'ed me idiot" i said back
"that's jokes fam" jj said while still laughing
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after a few more questions and a lot more shots i felt myself getting more drunk by the second. after all i was a lightweight.
"okay last question, emilia, who out of the troops would you have a threesome with" lux asked and the boys erupted into nervous laughter
"i beg you don't answer this" harry said who was now standing by the camera
"freezy and lux" i said, teasing harry
both callum's started laughing at harrys reaction and high-fived me, which i found weirdly funny
"i'm joking i'm joking, i wouldn't have a threesome with any of yous" i said and took my last shot.
the boys seemed really offended that i wasn't serious but quickly joked about something else that i wasn't paying attention to.
before cal started the outro harry had got into the frame and stood beside me, bending down so he could be in shot properly.
"so thank you guys very much for watching if you want to subscribe to emilias channel she has just made one but she hasn't uploaded yet but we are working on that. other than that like, subscribe and goodbye"
we all waved to the camera and he finally stopped filming, i went to stand up but all the drink hit me and i stumbled a little bit and harrys body stopped my from falling completely over
"shit sorry" i awkwardly said and i stood up properly again
"don't be sorry, didn't mind it" harry joked and he walked away. i stood there with my mouth wide open and freezy and lux were the same as they watched harry walk out of the room