Good morning mother fuckers,
It's actually 10pm but whatever
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It's been about two months...two long months. He hasn't called, incase you're wondering though if he did, I doubt I would have had the courage to pick up.
I'm not going to sit around and act like it's been smooth sailing; it was only this week where I managed to get out of bed to do something other than eat or shower.
The contact with my family has been minimal, not to say they didn't try but it was more me, closing them off.
I was curled up in my clouded pit and managed to watch every single season of Love Island. Depressing much?
Maybe I just fed off the drama, I honestly despised that show but it was something that made me feel alive.
Or at least thats what I convinced myself.
Adriano and Dominico talk all the time, I hear them through my walls, I hear him talk about me, I hear him talk about London, he sounds different: Darker, if that's even possible.
I'm not going to act like he doesn't care about me because I know that for sure he does and the feeling is mutual. But a part of me is telling me to let him be, there must be a reason why the universe keeps separating us.
And don't just tell me 'distances makes you stronger'. Or whatever Einstein said because that's not the feeling I'm getting.
His scent has alas disappeared from our- my room. I'd be lying if I said I didn't yearn for it. Sometimes that's the only thing I wanted, it felt like he was here again or maybe it was poison to my heart.
Moving on, not too long ago, I guessed it was about time to start getting on with my life. I had been watching the days pass me for far too long and came to the obvious conclusion that there is way more to life than us.
So that is what I decided to do this week and I'm proud of myself for it.
I went shopping, I cooked a meal, this bad bitch even planned out a bucket list and trust me I plan on fulfilling it.
And of course, Miss Natalia and Professor Adriano were a hundred percent on board, which sparked the first of the list.
Skydiving...
Dominico's POV:
"I didn't ask how you were doing? I asked you to get the fucking paperwork." I yell at the stripper who I had been provided with as an assistant.
"You didn't need to be rude about it." She growls at me.
"Fuck off." I yell once again, demanding she exits my office.
"Fine! If you are going to be so nasty then I quit, sort your own paperwork out." She spits back at me.
I roll my eyes. I can't be bothered to argue with her, it would probably end up with a bullet to her skull.
Not to say I wouldn't enjoy it, I just don't want to clean up the mess.
I've only been here 2 months and I hate every part of this dreadful place.
From the shit weather to the emptiness I feel.
I haven't called her, I know that would be selfish of me. I can't stunt her happiness by interrupting her trying to start a life without my physical presence. Although I didn't have a choice to whether to leave or not, I made a promise to myself that I would let her be happy.
And her happiness is enough for me.
I have my ways of knowing how she is doing, without having to call or speak to her anyway.
For now, I just have to get on with the fucked up shit that my father sent me here for.
I'd be lucky to have any spark of good in my soul after these next few months.
Somehow that excited me.
I was here for three reasons: one, to avenge my mother's death, which had partly been sorted though there's never too much pain to inflict.
Two, there have been rumoured to be multiple rising mafias growing here of the past few years.
My job is to put an end to them. And you know what that means. Which kind of sucks seeing as a lot of them are young and have a lot of potential.
I mean, I guess Stefano wouldn't mind me hiring a few international bodies, it would help with business down here.
How nice am I? Sparing the life of a few shit faced teenagers.
The third job shall not be mentioned as I'm not sure I'm even able to go through with it.
It's not something I'm going to enjoy doing so I'll push it aside for as long as possible.
"Are you ready?" The driver enters unannounced.
Loading my strap and arming myself I nod exiting the apartment.
Ready to commit mass murder?
Well gangster up.
...
Sienna's POV:
"Adriano I'm going to shove this ice cream up your a-." Natalia growls at him causing the rest of the park to look at us.
This is us. Procrastinating to go skydiving.
Don't get me wrong, I could use the adrenaline rush but I'm mentally shitting myself.
I think I'm going to enjoy throwing Adriano off the plane though, it would be a dream come true.
"Who's jumping first?" Natalia asks.
Both the fuckers look at me.
"Would you like a picture?" I raise my eyebrows at them.
"We should probably get going before we miss our slot." Natalia tells us and I nod.
Making our way to the car I realise I have yet to think of him today. I couldn't tell whether that was a good or bad thing.
I'm guessing good since I wasn't bombarded with unimaginable pain from my first breath I took this morning till my last tonight.
"Ouch fuck sorry." I apologise to the guy I bumped into though he was too into his phone to pay me any mind.
"Watch where you're going."Adriano sarcastically shakes his head at me.
"I'm going to stab a hole in your parachute." I threaten him.
"No you won't, I'm your daily source of entertainment. I'm like the spark to this family. Everyone would have dead personalities without me." He egotistically prides himself.
"You have a massive ego, I can't wait to hurt it!" I give him a devilish smile.
"I also have a massive-." Natalia shoves ice cream in his mouth shutting him up.
Thank god for that.
Well until he started choking on it in the middle of the park.
"Adriano I'm selling you on eBay." I shake my head walking to the car away from the scene my dumb brother is causing.
"I already put him on Ali express." Natalia calls after me.
I knew we were soul sisters.
...
I just spent 45 fucking minutes watching a video that they were 'obliged' to show us.
You just jump and pull, there was absolutely no need to waste my time like that.
But now the tension is building up and I'm shitting bricks.
Sienna just keep calling yourself a bad bitch.
What's the worst that can happen?
You could die.
Fuck I'm turning my brain off.
Ok
Breathe.
Inhale...exhale.
"Sienna what the fuck are you doing?" Natalia looks at me as if I'm possessed.
"I'm breathing mother fucker." I yell back in fear.
My heavy breathes are cut off when I notice the same guy I had previously bumped into.
He was at the back of the very packed room, on the phone may I add.
I had realised that earlier wasn't the first time I've seen him.
And I think I have a good idea as too whom he may be...if I'm wrong that's kind of embarrassing.
Having social anxiety and not giving a fuck is a weird mix.
Carelessly, I walk up to him conveying confidence. I stand about a metre away and fold my arms making deadly eye contact with him.
His conversation on the phone turns awkward like he is unaware of what to say.
"Hi, could I borrow your phone please?" I ask.
"Um I'm kind of bu-," he begins but I snatch it out of his reach.
"Just gimme the damn phone." I take it inhaling a deep breath.
"Dominico Vance what the fuck can I help you with?" I raise an eyebrow speaking sternly into the phone.
"Hello amore." I just know he is smirking.
"Why the fuck have you got James Bond over here stalking me?" I eye the black suit this man has come in.
Really a black suit to a sky diving place.
Could you not be a little more discrete?
"You look beautiful today love." He replies from the other side.
"You haven't even seen me today LOVE." I mock him.
"That white top looks amazing." He responds, I JUST WANT TO PUNCH THAT SMIRK OFF HIM.
"Answer my question." I bluntly reply.
"I like to know what your getting up to." His response is vague.
"Then call and ask me." Attitude present in my voice.
"We both know that's not a good idea Hm?" He challenges me.
"Neither is skydiving, don't do it." His protective yet obnoxious self says.
I raise my eyebrows trying to see if I heard him right.
"Awh is DomDom telling me what to do?"
"Don't do it Sienna." He warns me firmly more aggressive than before.
It makes me realised how I always submit to his command.
But I'm not the same girl I used to be, I'm better and...badder.
"It was great catching up, gonna go and jump off some planes now. Say hi to Queen Elizabeth for me!" I happily disobey him.
"SIEN-." Oops I dropped the phone and it...smashed.
Total accident.
"Sorry mate, I'm sure Dom Dom won't mind." I tell James Bond and he whips out another.
I might have to break that one too?
But curiosity gets the better of me.
"What did Dominico exactly hire you too do?" My perseverance asks.
"Look out for you, look after you, daily updates on what your doing...oh and keep you in Italy." The last but reals me in.
"And what have you told him?" I push.
"You have been lounging around like a dog for 2 months sounds about accurate." Almost as if he's mocking me.
Woah, damn dude you didn't need to attack me like that.
"Hahah fuck you." I sarcastically reply.
Gosh now Dominico knows I have feelings, that is...embarrassing.
James Bond seems very open to give me answers so I use this to my advantage attempting to feed off any information he will give me.
"Between us -super agent 3000's, why is Dominico in London?" I'm slickly ask.
"That information, I along with everyone else but Enzo are unaware of." He seems honest and me, I can tell and honest soul.
Sienna your mom deceived you for 18 years who are you lying too?
Shut up subconscious.
"Not even Stefano?" I raise an eyebrow in an exhausted manner.
"Stefano knows everything even that which is most evil." That line seems recited, oh my god he's wearing a wire.
Oh my god Dominico is listening to this conversation.
Oh my god I'm going to break his dick off.
"DOMINICO FUCK OFF!" I yell storming off catching the attention of anyone who had yet to be intrigued by our conversation.
After that, I can't wait to jump off this aeroplane.
I might have to accidentally forget to pull the parachute.
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I.HATE.SCHOOL.
That's it.
Until next time,
Enjoy xxx