changbin grabbed y/n by the wrist and ran, he ran and ran and he ran. a slight euphoria flowing through changbin's body as the intimate feeling of runners high starts to build up, y/n ran along barely keeping up but somewhat was still there. "I SHOULD NOT HAVE DRAGGED YOU INTO THIS MESS" i yelled while running, "Y/N NOW NOT THE FUCKING TIME TO TALK ABOUT THAT" he groaned as the euphoric feeling started to fade and turned to sadness. they stop for a little while looking at each other in the eyes with nothing but love, "if anything happens, i love you. i love you so so so much please know that" y/n starts sobbing desperately as any of them were at the peak of death. "i promise, i promise we'll make it out alive i promise you that okay love? now let's keep running" changbin held another but tighter grip on her wrist as she was dragged to an average house. "we'll be safe here right?" changbin pants and sees jisung and chan across the street,
all sigh in relief of seeing each other once again, "YALL GOOD?" they heard jisung's loud voice echo all the way across the street. "YEA YOU?-" bam, another gun was fired. the lingering sound of bullets being fired, one by one or even many by many at a time.
each time getting louder and louder causing a ringing sensation in y/n's ears, "f-fuck" she grunted as she held her head and leaned on a tree nearby, "we're safe for now they can't see shit haha" changbin let out a slight chuckle but not an actual laugh. y/n looks up at the tree and recognizes it almost instantly, no other than her very own house. the couple signaled the two to come to the other side without looking suspicious, jisung covered his face in his messy dyed hair whilst chan kept his hood on and both faced down. jisung grabs a cigarette from his pocket, pretends to smoke and got stopped by the guard. "fuck" he whispered to himself, "you're just gonna smoke this without a light? here's mine use it" the man hands it to the younger as jisung lights the cigarette and winks at the other.
jisung finally made it through and they all managed to climb up the tree to get into y/n's room, "damn nice room i guess" jisung takes a breath while looking around still smoking. "i thought i told you to quit" chan rolled his eyes in the sight of jisung with a tube of rolled tobacco. "SHHH NOWS NOT THE TIME ILL TRY AND GET US TO THE KITCHEN" y/n whispered loudly as she walked to the door.
she opens it to reveal nothing, all empty, all the furniture was there but her father wasn't. "he's wasting money again isn't he" she facepalms and grits her teeth in frustration, she sighed and looked around even more before yelling "ALL CLEAR" to the 3 others inside her bedroom.
until she saw her father's pale dead body in the basement, "OH MY FUCKING GOD FATHER? DAD? HELLO?" she helplessly tried waking him up. as she shook him a gun slips out of the corpse' hands, she examines it seeing it was fully locked and loaded and for a small one it sure could fire more than expected. she puts the loaded gun inside her bag and examines the body even more, "a n-note?" her jaw drops as she sees it.
"y/n.. i'm sorry about what happened with your father :)
wait, i did this" she read out loud before her eyes widened. "awh look, they probably will think it's you you fucking spoiled brat. admit it. DIE, D I E NO ONE WANTS YOU HERE WEVE BEEN BEGGING GOD TO TAKE YOU OUT. so here's the gun. shoot yourself or get caught by the police. unfair? i know :)
-hate
mr baek"
her blood boiled at the letter anger slowly consuming her which was slowly replaced by sadness,
she turns around to see the 3 guys all staring at her, "we saw you crying" jisung softly admitted as he played with his hands nervously. y/n blindly focusing on jisung's hands, looking at the wage spun his rings as a distraction from her own fathers wrongful death. "y/n you okay?" chan asks and she hums in response. "jisung gimme one would ya?" she asked still completely focused on his hands. "here ya go" he says handing her a stick and giving her the lighter. she could burn the place down if she wanted to but not with the boys in it, she had a special place for them in her heart especially changbin, her first love. and possibly the last.
she lights the cigarette watching the paper burn as the tobacco is engulfed by the flames. breathing in feeling that burn and bitter taste but it was addictive. addictive like changbin's kiss, it was bittersweet and way better than addicting. watching as the ashes fall down, changbin would tell her to quit if it wasn't for his vape. her eyes meet changbins again and they hugged tightly. clinging onto each other for dear life and a soft kiss placed on each other's lips. "you taste like cigarettes, sweet cigarettes" changbin smirked as jisung elbowed him. "gross dude" he rolled his eyes and chan face palmed.
y/n's eyes still hooked up to the floor not being able to make eye contact was slowly eating her up inside. finally looking up, her eyes widened even more than before, her jaw dropped to the floor flabbergasted. a guard holds changbin back while another has two guns pointed at the other boys. "tsk tsk shouldnt you know you shouldn't stay at a certain place for long?" a menacing voice is heard as light steps were placed on the stairs. "MR BAEK HOW DARE YOU GIVE HIM BACK-" you yelled and the tall slender man grabs changbin by the shirt putting him on chokehold with a knife against his throat. "DONT TOUCH HIM PLEASE ILL DO ANYTHING" she begged and begged as the knife's contact with his skin got closer and closer. "open your bag, i know you have the gun here" a smug look sticks on the upperclassman's face and she takes out the loaded gun.
"then shoot yourself" he smirked as changbin's jaw dropped, "DONT DO IT" changbin protested only for the grip to get tighter. "do it and i'll let him go" he smirked once more seeing the girl on her knees with tears welling in her eyes. grabbing the gun and unlocking the safety lock, she sighs trying to hide her tears. "where" she muttered in defeat as the tall slender man thinks about it, "the chest" he suggested and y/n's eyes widened. "y/n don't do it please, please don't do it" changbin was in literal agony watching the one he loved kill herself.
"what? isn't that your dad's favourite spot to grab your mother with? go on, shoot dimwit" he laughed and looked at changbin's face, "please don't make her do it i'll pay the price" he started sobbing frantically, "it's my price to pay, can i at least hold him once more before i go?" she looked up at the tall man and he let go of changbin. "i'm giving you 10 minutes now do whatever you want, i'll be watching" he shrugged.
changbin crawled to his love once more before her final breath, their lips connecting one last time, they only met a few months ago but they never knew it would end up like this.
the taste was more bitter rather than sweet this time, "p-please don't do it y/n" he sobs in her arms. she shushed him putting her arms around changbin while he sobs. "7 minutes remaining" the tall man rolled his eyes, they kissed again, small but meaningful ones each one getting more painful. "don't worry changbin, i'll watch over you. i'll make sure every streetlight you come across on even if it's dead. it will light up i promise that's when you know it's me okay? i'll be right by your side when you debut and basically almost everything i'll help guiding you, i love you so much my precious" y/n practically stuttered, changbin cried and cried and cried. he didn't want to let her go but she had to, "5 remaining" time slowed down as they look into each other's eyes one more time. "i love you so much y/n you're the only one i'll love" he sobbed even more not caring who was in the room anymore.
chan and jisung controlling their quiet sobs across the room, heart slowly breaking for them. changbin pulls her into a tight hug for their last few minutes together saying what sounded like wedding vows. vowing they loved each other every single minute, until they heard 2 dreadful words "times up", changbin once again being grabbed by mr baek stealing a kiss from her. "do it now" he orders her before he does it himself.
she held the gun touching where her heart was, "thank you 3racha, thank you jisung for making my school years memorable, thank you chan for taking care of these two, and most importantly thank you changbin for loving me. for who i was not who i was supposed to be, the one that gave me hope and the will to live and love again" she choked on her sobs. "i love you so much" she says pulling the trigger, a storm of pain put into one bullet. her life flashes before her eyes, vision slowly getting blurrier, and remembering her favorite memory.
the day they met.
she smiled one last time before giving into the darkness, mr baek. let's go of changbin and his guards let go of the other two. "Y/NNN" he started sobbing even more. "I LOVE YOU" he yelled over and over again, a tear left y/n's dying body whilst changbin held her one last time. her breaths were no longer existing and her heartbeat long gone, the love of his life dead. the one he loved most, the one he swore he'd love forever.
the three started sobbing, all three of them in a group hug. "hyung i'm sorry" jisung's eyes filled with tears once again, chan tried holding it together but seeing his companion, his family broken and shattered. absolutely broke him, changbin hugged jisung tightly, "it isn't your fault sungie" he choked on his sobs looking at his dead lover.
i will make her proud of me, "she already is changbin" chan patted him on the back and pulled in for a hug.
"i may have broken the first promise but i swear will make my debut, for you y/n
my streetlight i could depend on, the one who saw the real me through my dark facade, and the one who loved me most."
changbin held her cold hand promising her one last time, curling his pinky with hers with eyes full of tears and determination.
[END]
(a/n: special chapter coming soon dw, and i had honestly so much fun spilling my feelings out into this book and this did make me cry, so much.
i have a markhyuck book too so if you're an stayzen please support if you can.
-till next time
kei)