It was already Monday night and all Jeonghan did for the past few weeks is hanging out with his new friend Seungcheol. Whenever Jeonghan is with him, it gave a weird feeling as if Jeonghan was waiting for Seungcheol to come to his life. Whenever he is with him, everything becomes nothing but happy moments.
"Hey, are you still there?" the other line spoke. It was almost 12 am and he was still on the phone with Seungcheol.
"Yeah, I was just thinking about something." Jeonghan replied, brushing his hair backwards and laid on the soft mattress. He just replaced the sheets with the ones he bought last week with Jisoo when they got too lazy to go to class.
"Do you want me to sing a song?" Seungcheol asked, his voice sounded deep and husky and just hearing it makes Jeonghan feel like he has a boyfriend who really cares and loves him.
"Why would you do that?" Jeonghan asked and he heard Seungcheol cleared his throat which made Jeonghan grin.
"Well, my payment for sharing your thoughts." Seungcheol answered. He was in the kitchen counter looking for something to eat, he suddenly felt a wave of hunger while talking to Jeonghan.
"Well, sing for me then." Jeonghan said and that earned him a chuckle from Seungcheol. Seungcheol then sang his recent favorite song, close to you. He always wondered, how could a song make him feel like he's the luckiest man in the world?
Whenever he hears this Carpenters song, it reminded him of Jeonghan. He could feel the birds chirping happily when he's with him. Seungcheol could imagine the angels sprinkling moon dust on his brown hair and starlight in his brown hazelnut eyes.
When Jeonghan heard Seungcheol singing, he felt comfortable and nice. It feels like all of Jeonghan's worries and regrets have been washed away yet it was still there, completely visible. Jeonghan felt the pain, it was too clear and too noticeable but Seungcheol's voice gave him the courage to face all of it.
Last few weeks ago, he wanted to end all of his sufferings just by crying all night and wake up a mess. Just weeks ago, he wanted to stop everything and just sleep forever but now he doesn't know anymore. Weeks after he met Seungcheol everything changed. They kept on knowing each other and being comfortable with each other's presence.
This past few weeks, Jeonghan knew lots of things. He knew Seungcheol can't stand spicy foods, that he loves banana milk and puppies that he's the maknae of their family and he didn't focus much in highschool and he kept getting into fights. He also knew that Seungcheol's friend, Jihoon was bullied and that was the reason why they became friends. They talked almost about everything as if they're running out of time to know each other.
Seungcheol thought that Jeonghan was just a happy guy who wants to make his friends happy, the happy guy who always looked on the bright side but there was something more. Jeonghan's smile looked always sad and Seungcheol noticed that. The way Jeonghan just smiled with his teeth with a sad look on his eyes. Jeonghan didn't talk much about his past and Seungcheol respected that. Jeonghan's story revolved around how Jisoo's parents eventually became his parents because his Mom left him. When Jisoo and Jeonghan became inseparable in highschool because Jisoo was the only person Jeonghan has.
Jeonghan's voice sounded broken as he continued his story, he tried so hard not to tear up and successfully he did but sadly Seungcheol noticed everything, he read Jeonghan like an open book.
"I'm sorry, I think I was out of tune." Seungcheol sounded sorry and sniffed but Jeonghan just laughed.
"It sounds beautiful," Jeonghan stated and smiled not knowing that he made Seungcheol smile from ear to ear because of his simple compliment.
"So, care to share your thoughts?"
"Hm, just some things. What if this is just a dream? Just a phase because everything feels surreal." Jeonghan answered and ended his sentence with a sigh. He heard Seungcheol sighed and clicked his tongue.
"Do you want me to come over?" Seungcheol suggested which made Jeonghan's heart pound faster. He was curious, why would his friend come over to his house when it's already past midnight?
"Why would you do that?" Jeonghan asked out of curiosity but he did try not to sound rude.
"That was weird right? I'm sorry i shouldn't have said that." Seungcheol's voice sounded low almost like a whisper. Seungcheol slammed his head on the wall and slapped his lips with his left hand. All he did was being weird in Jeonghan's ears and eyes and the embarrassment from all of the things he had done was choking him.
Fuck, Seungcheol. You suck, Jeonghan would never like you, Seungcheol thought as he kept on slamming his head on the wall. He wants the ground to suck all the weird things that he has done and start over again. Sadly, there are no second chances.
"Stop slamming your head, I could hear it dumbass" Jeonghan scolded him and stopped. He sniffed and snuggled back to his bed and covered himself with the thick blanket. Seungcheol really wanted to come over and cuddle with Jeonghan but sadly, they were just nothing but friends.
"I'm just so weird, I'm sorry." Seungcheol pleaded
"It's okay, I mean, I don't really mind. You could come over." Jeonghan sounded calm but deep down he was excited. He wished that Seungcheol would really come over.
Hannie, don't let them play with your heart. That thing of yours is fragile.
Jisoo's mom always reminded Jeonghan that he should be careful in trusting others, that he should always be meticulous when someone's trying to enter in his life. When Jeonghan's mom left him, he was already in the care of Jisoo's mom and she was always worried of the fragile boy. They constantly kept on going inside and outside of the hospital due to Jeonghan's weak immune system and the weakest of them all, is his heart.
"So, I'll come over?" Seungcheol asked once more.
"Yeah, if you insist." Jeonghan replied
"Okay, I insist. I'll go now, I'll call you later when I'm outside." Seungcheol answered back and Jeonghan just hummed. Jeonghan then ended the call and tidied up his place. Good thing he cleaned it yesterday because he felt that his room is a pigsty and he doesn't want to hear Jisoo scolding him so he just cleaned up his room. This is what a grown man should be doing Jeonghan thought and after arranging his pillows and vacuuming the whole floor. Jisoo was confused, why is Jeonghan cleaning his room when it's already 12:30 am? Jisoo went to the kitchen to get some water when he heard the noisy vacuum cleaner. Actually he wasn't really thirsty, he just used this as an alibi to check up on Jeonghan. Good thing Jeonghan only missed few of his classes and he became so lively this past few weeks. Even when Jeonghan was just doing random things, Jisoo would sometimes catch him smiling. There's definitely someone who made Jeonghan like this and Jisoo was dead curious to find out who it was.
Jisoo knocked for about three time on Jeonghan's door, he just stood there waiting for Jeonghan to open the door and gladly he did. Jeonghan saw Jisoo's confused face and he knew Jisoo demanded explanation and answers. Jeonghan opened the door widely gesturing Jisoo to come inside. Jisoo immediately sat on Jeonghan's comfy mattress and crossed his arms while Jeonghan sat on his swivel chair and faced Jisoo.
"So who is this person?" Jisoo asked with a grin on his face, Jeonghan looked at Jisoo and laughed.
"It's not what you think it is." Jeonghan stated and took a pencil on his study table and played with it. Jisoo knew something was up and he was willing to wait until Jeonghan opened up to him because knowing Jisoo, he doesn't want to force Jeonghan to speak up.
"Okay, then. So who is this person?" Jisoo asked once again. Jeonghan couldn't avoid the question and there's a part inside him that wanted to tell Jisoo everything.
" Seungcheol, Choi Seungcheol." Jeonghan stated in a soft voice. Jisoo's eyes went wide and the puzzle pieces are finally in place.
" I KNEW IT! YOU HOE!" Jisoo stood up and waved his arms. Jeonghan just laughed and gestured him to sit down.
" He's coming over, is that okay?" He asked not letting go of the pencil he picked up earlier.
"Of course you silly! Just, try not to be too loud okay? I have morning classes tomorrow." Jisoo jokingly said causing Jeonghan to hit Jisoo's delicate arm.
"You dumb dumb, we're just going to talk and probably study, I guess?"
"Yeah, right." Jisoo sarcastically answered.
"Be careful Hannie, take care of this." Jisoo hugged Jeonghan and pointed on Jeonghan's chest, he just nodded and Jisoo went out of his room. He was worried that Jeonghan might suffer again, worried that he may comeback to his old helpless state. After seeing that face, Jisoo wished he never went to the store on that day.
Seungcheol was already near, reaching out for his phone he dialed Jeonghan's number and gladly the other male picked it up.
"I'm on my way, i'll be there in 5 minutes." Seungcheol spoke and hung up. He couldn't explain how excited he is going to Jeonghan's place for the first time.
"I'm nervous" Seungcheol muttered to himself as he was slowly approaching the apartment complex of Jisoo and Jeonghan, it was just a few blocks away from the school, lucky them because Jihoon and Seungcheol's place where like miles away from the University.
He parked his car in the parking lot and went to Jeonghan's apartment. It was on the 3rd floor and luckily he got inside the elevator right on time. It was almost 1 am and he was confused, why would he come over to his friend's house when it's almost already dawn? But there's one thing he knew and he was sure of, he really wanted to see Jeonghan.
Apartment 104
Seungcheol stood infront of their doorstep and still hesitating whether to knock or just barge inside and give Jeonghan a big hug.
He took a deep breath and knocked three times, just when he was about to knock again someone opened the door revealing a sleepy Jeonghan wearing a white oversized shirt and blue pajama pants.
"Hi" Seungcheol greeted the man and he gestured him to come inside. It was a cold chilly night and Seungcheol's only wearing a black tank top under his blue hoodie and a pair of black skinny jeans.
"Jisoo's already sleeping so let's just hang out in my room." Jeonghan suggested making his way to his room. Seungcheol looked at every corner of their house and he thought that it was just simple and clean. They don't have big chandeliers and gigantic mirrors just like in Seungcheol's home. It was just a simple apartment with minimal house designs, a cute succulent was placed on the window sill with pink curtains.
As they got inside Jeonghan's room both of them were quiet and no one dared to speak a word.
"This is awkward." Jeonghan muttered to himself but Seungcheol heard it loud and clear.
"What do you want to do?" Seungcheol asked
Jeonghan just laid down on his bed and gestured Seungcheol to kay down beside him. Seungcheol was hesitant but couldn't resist Jeonghan so he just laid down beside him and stared at the ceiling above. Moments passed and nothing sexual happened, they just talked and talked and talked until they fell asleep.