- Nyeisha White -
- Los Angeles, California -
"My boys look so cutee!" i pouted taking a picture of pop and Nas on the couch.
Pop laid on the couch with his shirt off, durag on and Nas laying on his chest sleeping peacefully while a blanket was over them, keeping Nas's head free but so he wouldn't get cold.
"stop. i probably look hit in that" i rolled my eyes walking to him. "nah but you.. you look good" he bit his lip as i leaned down giving him a kiss.
"stoppp" i giggled pulling away. "we gon wake papi up" he smacked his teeth.
"man we used to fuck everywhere and do the most. now we can't even kiss"
"andddd who's fault is that? you nutted in me" i shrugged.
"and you ain't take the plan B pill i bought you" i rolled my eyes. "you look sexy in this outfit tho forreal"
"you look sexy in blue" i complimented him referring to his blue durag he wore as i walked into the kitchen.
i pulled my water out the fridge turning to look out the window of our apartment so i saw the trees and beautiful water view.
feeling arms wrap around my waist, i smiled looking back seeing pop's smile on his face while he pulled me against him.
"hey handsome" he laid his head in the crook of my neck. "you forreal hard right now?" i groaned.
"i ain't hard. that's all me, baby" i sighed as he left light kisses along my neck.
"you got a studio session tonight?"
"you do"
"i know" i sighed. "i'm scared. what if he doesn't like the way i sound?"
"he will" he turned me to him.
"ima marry you one day" i chuckled leaning up giving him a kiss.
"you gon' marry me?" he bit his lip smiling letting his perfect white teeth show. "why you wanna marry me, bae?"
"your everything a man should be" i grabbed his hand. "your my peace. my safe haven" he smiled.
"i love yo' beautiful ass" he hooked a finger under my chin lifting it so our lips connected once again.
"ughhh" i groaned hearing Nas cry. "i'll be back"
"no. i got it" he kissed my head before going over to the couch soon coming Nas down.
"is Nas coming?"
"nah. i wanna take you somewhere after and i think it'll be better if he's not there" i straight faced him.
"we're not leaving our son with your mom so we can fuck" i crossed my arms.
"we not fucking" he chuckled shaking his head. "but if it leads to that then i'm down" i rolled my eyes.
"where we going then?"
"you'll find out" he shrugged. "ima go get him ready. you go do your lady shit" he kissed my cheek before heading into Nas's room.
after getting something to eat, i made my way to the hallway trying to get to our room but stopped by Nas's door hearing pop talk to him.
"you think yo mama gon like it? i hope she do cause i ain't changing my mind" he chuckled. "i just wanna take the next step for our family. i think we ready, ain't we"
"dada!" he giggled making pop laugh.
the next step?
is he gonna propose ..
shit i said one day!
not now..
i quickly went past the room and into our room shutting the door behind me with my heart still racing and my blood pressure going up.
"just calm down" i mumbled to myself as i went into our bathroom. "it's gon' be okay. you don't even know if that's what he's planning" i said to myself in the mirror.
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after i calmed down a little, i went back out in the living room with blue while pop did whatever in our room.
if he does propose.. idk what i'll do.
i love him with everything in me.. but i'm so fucking scared to get married.
especially at such a young age.. we're only 23.
"look how pretty mommy look" i turned my head seeing pop with Nas in his arms as they walked to me.
"mommy!" he giggled reaching for me.
"hey baby" i chuckled taking him from pop sitting him on the counter. "you look so handsome!" i smiled at his curls that showed perfectly.
"you look sexy" pop mumbled in my ear.
"so do you" i looked back at him. "so sexy"
"like you tryna fuck kinda sexy?" i smacked my teeth waving him off.
"daddy ruin's everything" he chuckled as i picked Nas up. "okay. lock blue in his cage while i go get Nas in his car seat" i told pop grabbing his keys before heading out the door.
- Later that night -
"we gon see y'all later" pop laughed as we left out Bird's house. "you good?" he nudged me.
"i'm just.. i don't know if this is for me" i sighed.
"i had my heart set on being a designer" i said as we got into his car.
"then be a designer, baby" he started the car. "you don't have to take the offer"
"i know but i don't know at the same time" i buckled my seat belt before looking out the window playing with my nails.
"don't" he laid his hand on my thigh. "don't cry, mama. you don't have to take it"
"j-just drive" i sighed bring my hand to my face wiping under my eyes.
"i love you. stop beating yourself up" he sighed pulling out of bird's driveway.
"just take me home" i shook my head. "i wanna go to sleep"
"I am, bae" he sighed. "you want me to put on your music?"
"i just wanna go home" i explained. "i'm sorry"
"it's okay" he said as we stopped at a red light. "look at me"
"what" i turned my face looking at him.
"stop crying. you way too pretty for that" he lifted my chin. "i love you. just go to sleep. we'll be home soon" he leaned down giving me a light kiss before pulling away and putting his hand back on my thigh before driving.
i hate that i do the shit i do.. but what else am i supposed to do? i'm so stressed about this music shit and now i think pop's gonna propose..
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"babe" i heard faintly as my eyes slowly started to flutter open. "come on" i looked up seeing pop chuckling.
"i'm so tired" i sighed getting out the car. once my eyes focused, i furrowed my eyebrows at where we were at.
"babe?" he grabbed my hand shushing me.
"come on" he pulled me up to the door.
"why couldn't you get whatever it is you gotta get outta here another day!" i whined. "i'm tired" i sighed as he opened the door.
"would you shut up and go in" he chuckled pushing me ahead of him.
i furrowed my eyebrows at the plain house that had nothing but lights in the house. no furniture or anything.
"where are we?" i turned to him seeing his holding up a pair of keys.
"we're home"