CHAPTER 25
“what the hell are you doing here?” I growled and stood up
He opened his mouth but couldn’t blurt anything.
“you said you’re a cameraman. What is it?”
Again the same reaction. No words.
Irritated I yelled “what is it Chris?”
I just wanted to storm out of this place but I was going nowhere without getting the answer to my question.
He stood and came to my side to hold my shoulder but I stepped back. I have my anger at its highest notch. Was I being lied all over this period? He told me he’s a cameraman but here he’s sitting in chamber of product head. Is this place a fraud or is this man standing in front of me a fraud?
“i..i was going to..tell you” finally he blurted
And this encouraged my anger even much more. How could he do that to me? How could he lie to me all this time.
I held my head in my hand and close my eyes to analyze the thought of me being betrayed. I couldn’t stand this thought. I love this man, and he lied to me all the time. Since the day we met.
“you’re the son of Charles carter? The heir of this company? And not a cameraman?”
“yes” he said without meeting my eyes.
“ Chris..Why?” I whispered as my voice broke in between .
I sat on the chair holding my face in my hand my mind only thought of one thing. He befooled me. He lied to me not once but the whole time. Why did he lied to me?
He kneeled in my front and cupped my face to make my eyes meet his gaze.
“I was going to tell you” he whispered again.
“When? you lied to me Chris…you..befooled me. you’ve been lying to me since the day we’ve met. I told you everything about me, my past and you never bothered yourself to tell me the truth even once” my voice that was shaking initially ended up with a growl.
“I told you in the morning that I wanted to tell you something. I’ve always wanted to tell you this..but I never gathered confidence i-“
“out of these seven months we’ve been staying together you never gathered enough confidence to once tell me that, you’re the Chris Carter.” I shouted
he hung his head low and said “I’m sorry baby”
I stood up once again and placed my hand on my hips and said “ I have been trying to get a job and told you countless times that ‘Chris don’t work like maniacs’ I thought my dear love do not own enough money to have a house as he wants. So I wanted to earn as soon as possible and save as much as to help you to own OUR house. Now tell me whose foyer is that?”
He wiped his face and said “it’s mine”
“very good. Very very good liar you are. I’m glad i found out myself or you would have never bothered to tell me”
“I was going to tell you Grace”
“when after having few more intercourses with me? By playing with me and my trust a little more? Tell me how did you-
He stormed towards me and held me shoulder and growled “do not spell it again . I never had mere sex with you. I always made love to you, I love you so much baby”
I shrugged that led his hands to fall to his side.
“thanks for letting me know. I thought even that was a lie”
I scanned his face it was pitiful. I want to peck him like he always does to me to remove my anger and frustration. I want to hug him and tell it’s okay. But I can’t. I have been betrayed, I have been lied.
“you thought it was fun to befool a nerd having no life? That’s why you lied huh?”
He moved towards me and caressed my cheek with his thumb to say “I lied to you and I know how wrong it is. Trust me every day that has passed all these months, I’ve had guilt of not telling you. But I thought you’d leave me ..i was scared. I can never have a thought of living life without you, I don’t want to turn again into a shitty creature who’s good for nothing. You’ve made me complete, i..never wanted to..lose you. “
I nodded and said
“I loved every day and night and every moment in between with you. I thought we’re happy and being lied by you was the last thought I could ever have”
His face hung low, eyes never meeting mine and hair ruffled everywhere due to constant raking of it through his finger.
“Care to explain? Why in all these months you never gained courage to come to me and tell me you are Chris Carter the heir of Carter Corp. and not a cameraman as you said since the beginning?”
I still was trembling due to my anger but I thought to here once the reason why he lied to me. I wanted to see if his apology was worth to be granted. So keeping my voice as quite as I could I asked him the reason why did he lie to me.
“You wouldn’t want to hear it trust me”
I moved ahead and held his wrist “trust me I only want to hear the reason why you lied to me and nothing else right now. Tell me and truthfully”
“First of all promise me, you wouldn’t leave me ever. I love you so much and can’t imagine my life without you. “
I stared him and wanted to say that how much I loved him but I have to be rigid now. I feel betrayed, my trust has been betrayed.
“Tell me the truth” I said crossing my hands over my chest.
He made me sit on the red chair and leaned on the desk by pressing his back against the wooden article. By shoving his hands in his pocket he started.
“When I was in my university. I ..i loved a girl. Her name was Anne”
My stomach churned by merely having any thought of him loving someone else. Sure this girl is his past. But still it feels bad to think he could love someone else than me so before he could continue I asked
“Did you love her more than me?”
He caressed my lips and said “I promise I never did nor ever could love someone as much as you. You have given me a better life, you are my ray of sunshine. I love you more than my heartbeat”
Trying not to get affected by his love filled words those directly peered through my heart I tried to focus the end of this conversation; the reason he lied to me.
“go ahead” I must have sounded like a bitch after hearing such loving words being poured out of the mouth of the man I love the most .
“I loved her. I mean I thought I loved her, I now realize how stupid I was to assume her greed as love”
I furrowed my eyebrows and he continued
“I had a best friend too. He was like my brother. We used to hang out, go hiking, court up the girls, drink beer. We shared everything. But I never had a thought of he would ever have share my girlfriend”
“what do you mean?” I asked wiggling in the seat.
He inhaled deeply and indicated me to sit at my spot.
“One day I was going to the library, but I couldn’t spot anyone so I thought to do some study in the quite area. Once I was sat on the wooden chair…i..heard some moans. Moans of a girl, I avoided it initially thinking it could be anyone. But once I hear the moans turning into yelling more to say yelling the name of my best friend couldn’t help but storm to the place where those voices were coming from.”
He looked down and inhaled once again
“I saw both of them knocking each other on the library table. At first I was annoyed, and pissed beyond any limit. I wanted to murder them both for betraying my trust.”
He scanned my face and leaned down to kiss my forehead and say “I know how it feels to get betrayed. Trust me I was never going to betray you. I lied and I’m sorry for that. I was going to tell you today”
How much I love him, words cannot define. I love him more than anything else. Sure he has not betrayed me, betrayal is large word associated and he’s still explaining himself and confessing his love to me. But sure I am agonized due the reason that he befool me and never once explained me the reason.
Averting my gaze from his lips and fixing them back to his eyes I blurted “your story did not sound convincing to me. It had no reason that explains why you lied to me”
He shake his head and said “I have to say more”
“go ahead”
“after I found both of them were betraying me they were not once ashamed of it. They told me the truth that why did they do that. They told me that they never liked me or loved me. They always liked my money, my wealth. Both of them whom I loved most at that time, betrayed me because of the money I had. ”
Inhaling he growled “ I hate them, I hated the money I had because they loved me for my money. I was left due to my money.”
Oh my God. I feel like the shittiest creature this world can ever have. This man whom i loved and will always love no matter what he thinks of me, he has always compared me with those low life who betrayed him for his money. He thought me of a gold digger couldn’t hold this thought back and what I did was worth it.
I stood on my feet and punched him square on his nose. Sure my small fist and less effort did not do much of damage but I saw blood tickling down his nose.
“I deserve it. I’m a liar. I’ve hurt you. Hit me but please don’t leave me”
“go to hell” I shouted and rushed towards the door to get out of this place. I was feeling suffocated I was feeling insulted and beyond betrayed.
He caught my wrist and pleaded “please, please don’t leave me like this. Please don’t go I love you”
I turn around and snatch my wrist from his hold.
“Love me? You love me? You love me? I shoved him from his chest and he stood like a dummy there not moving an inch.
My eye started to form hot tears and I blurted “I loved you Chris. How could you even think of me like that? You thought me as a gold digger who loves you for your money?.”
I couldn’t control the hot tears and they started caressing my cheeks as they left my eyes like they did not have any end.
“no baby, please don’t cry. I was just scared that all those things would happen with me again”
“so WHY did not you tell me these things earlier?”
“i..”
I sobbed hard to think the thought he was having in his mind. He thought me I was like some of those girls who falls for guys having money. He compared me with that bitch who betrayed him.
“I guess I never gave you any impression of me having fascination for so much money I just wanted to be happy with you. So.. why didn’t you tell me?” my voice was more like whisper.
He move forward and wiped my tears with his thumb and said “I needed time.”
“why? For trusting me?”
Sighing he nodded a yes and my heart sank into my stomach.
I shoved him but he did not let me go “please let me go”
He leaned and kissed my forehead and said “I’m sorry. Punish me in any way but don’t leave. Not now at least.”
“I can’t stand the fact of me to be assumed to be a gold digger, a money stricken whore. Not at least by you”
“i..i had trust issues. But I’m over it baby, I just needed some time. I love you please believe me. I won’t ever lie to you again I promise.”
“you needed time to confirm if I was really a gold digger or not?” I asked cocking an eyebrow.
He shake his head and caressed my lips with both of his thumb.
I held his hand and forcefully detached it from my face “well, just like you , I too need some time.” I said and stormed out of the place as quick as I could.
“baby please, please listen” I hear his voice coming from behind and his feet walking fast to keep his pace with me.
I see the people in the office all stood up and had a blank expression on their faces. Sure, their boss do not usually run after a girl pleading to stop.
“Just go Chris. I don’t wanna talk to you” I said as I moved out of the glass door.
“Fuck it. I want to talk to you. I’m sorry I ‘m very sorry don’t leave.”
I enter the elevator and see his eyes watering when he whispered “I love you , don’t leave.”
How I want to hurt myself by watching him like this. But I can’t imagine his thought was that way .
“give me some time Chris” I said while wiping my tears.
He enter the elevator and it started to move .
“how much time do you want? Don’t leave me please I would turn into a piece of lifeless article having no aim. I love you.”
I love him and sure I’m annoyed with him right now, but no matter what he does to me, I can never see him as an aimless man. Not to mention I’m proud of what he is rather than the way I discovered it today do not lets me to speak that. I hate him for lying to me but I cannot see him as a jerk again.
“I’d never want you to be an aimless jerk” I whispered
“Then don’t leave me please. I know you angry with me but we’ll talk about it. We’ll get over it.”
I inhaled and said “I need time Chris.”
“how much?”
I said nothing so he continued “would you like to meet me tonight, tomorrow? Tell me baby” he said caging me from both the sides.
“I don’t know Chris, I need time to think over it. And it’s not the right moment to tell how much time I would need to get over.”
The elevator dinged and I got out. I do not see him following me and that’s what I wanted.
“I give you time. But I’ll wait for you. If you don’t come to me I would come to you and I promise that” He yelled from behind
I look over my shoulder to see him pissed off, upset and more than anything lost in a sorrowful world.
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