Britt is pushing me to wake me up.
- Hey Sander.
I want to sleep.
- Sander.
Cant she just leave me alone ?
- Sander ? she repeats
I explode :
- Fuck leave me alone ! I want to sleep !
She looks surprised and hurt. I dont care. I am hurt too. She waits a bit before asking me :
- Is everything okay ? What happened ?
I sight, I cant stop repeating what Robbe told me yesterday, kissing him wasnt enough to make him want to be with me. Even before kissing him I wanted to be with him, i dont understand anything.
- Nothing. I finally answer
- Are you sure ?
I close my eyes.
- Can you just leave me alone, please ?
She sights, kisses my hair and leave.