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Kairi's pov
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i haven't talked to mattia since the beginning of junior year. we are now seniors and still haven't talked to eachother.
it all started in freshmen year, alejandro and mattia started to date. at that moment i didn't really know him but he was dating alejandro. he cheated on him with some other guy, when alejandro told me i despised mattia. to my luck we ended up having class together. in the beginning, i hated him, i always gave him dirty looks and couldn't stand him. but as the months went by him and i developed a weird type of friendship. of course i ran it through alejandro first.
"are you sure? i just don't want him to intervine in our friendship since you guys dated and stuff" i said
"kairi it's fine, i'm over that loser" alejandro laughed.
we started to become more close, he would walk me to class and facetime everyday. then sophomore year came around, our "friendship" grew even more. to the point where people thought we were dating.
"hey kai is it true that you're dating polibio?" mariano asked.
"of course not, we're just friends nothing more" i reassured him.
i spent countless nights staying up with him on facetime. he showered me with complements, he made my nights.
"i mean i can't help it you're just so beautiful" mattia chuckled.
"shut up you're making me blush" i said while covering my pink stained cheeks with my covers.
over the summer things were wild and just over all crazy. although i did catch feelings for mattia, i tried my best to shove those feelings deep deep down. his reputation wasn't good for me. i then catched feelings for hunter, he was different from mattia. he was a good guy and just knew how to treat you good. long story short i sneaked out of my house to go out with hunter.
"bye mom i'll be at alejandro's house" i yelled out in a hurry.
"you look to dressed up don't you think?" my mom questioned me.
"it's because we need to take new pictures for our instagram feed, you wouldn't understand mom" i laughed nervously.
"fine, take care don't be out to long" she said.
i genuinely had an amazing time with hunter. we got ice cream at this place that i've never had before. we then got in n out, it was fun. when i got home i couldn't stop smiling and replaying the funny moments we had in his car. i did develop feelings for hunter, i wanted him to be mine but it didn't end up like that. a couple of weeks later robert told me he got back with his ex. i told mattia everything, as friends do. a couple weeks later, i also sneaked out to meet with mattia. we drove around jersey and then ended up at his house.
this is were things took a different route. it was all fun in games. we played fifa, ended up watching the kissing booth.
"where's your bathroom?" i asked nervously.
"pass the kitchen to the left" he answered.
when i was done i saw him sitting on the couch. i went to his room because i left my phone there. i then came back and sat next to him, to the point where he was so close to me that i could feel his breath down my neck.
he proceeded to hug me and kiss my neck. nothing ever passed from that, he whispered sweet words into my ear. we stayed like that for hours. until his phone buzzed...
"fuck my parents are coming home" he frazzled.
"cmon let's go then" i laughed.
i once again felt happy and alive from the thrill. although i was confused, did i still have feelings for hunter? or was i more attracted to mattia? the first week of school came by so fast.
"damn how much fun did you have with polibio?" samy asked while giving me a cheeky smile.
"what are you talking about?" i asked.
"he told us how you went to his house and fucked" samy answered.
i was fuming, i could feel smoke come out of my ears. mattia transferred to my photography class, since he fixed his schedule. i confronted him about it and asked him so many questions.
"why would you say that bullshit it's not even true!!" i yelled at him
"it wasn't me i promise you" he claimed.
all my other friends said otherwise. from that point i blocked him on everything, snapchat, instagram and even his number.
3rd person
present: senior year
"you know we haven't talked in years, isn't it going to be weird if i just ask?" kairi said while playing with his rings.
"no just don't be weird about it, besides it's just about school work you're not asking him to rebuild whatever you guys had" alejandro stated.
with that piece of advice i walked to the soccer bleachers, where i'd knew he'd be. we have english and photography 2 together. the more closer i got, the more nervous i got. my heart was pumping so fast, my hands started to sweat.
"hey i wanted to ask you something" the wasian boy said.
"yeah what's up" mattia looked at me surprised.
"what was the english homework? i wasn't in class today and i don't know anybody in that class" kairi replied.
"but you came and decided to talk to me i see" the italian chuckled.
"well thats because i don't have any of them on snapchat or anything" the short boy laughed.
"do you still have me blocked on everything?" mattia questioned as he raised his eyebrows.
"no i unblocked you like a month later when all the shit happened, i just never added you back" kairi confessed as he looked down.
"well expect a facetime call like we use to this afternoon" he said as he lifted kairis chin up and shared a smile.
"you never answered my question about the homework" kairi said.
"you'll just have to wait munchkin" mattia chuckled as he ran off to his next class.
i was finally in my house, i kicked off my shoes and changed into something more comfortable. i ate quickly then went up to my room. my homework was scattered all over the floor, i organized myself and continued to do all of it. when i finished my homework, i went on tik tok for a while. then a familiar contact came up.
"hey long time no see" mattia smiled.
"yeah it's been a while" kairi replied.
"are you still mad?" the italian wondered.
"no not anymore, i should've learned to not worry about what other people thought about me, i was just really mad at that time" the boy answered truthfully.
the boys would take long pauses and wouldn't talk for a while. kairi would look up at mattia from time to time and would catch him smiling at him.
"look kairi i've had feelings for you since freshman year. i would never lie and say all that bullshit to anybody. even if we did have sex i wouldn't have told anybody because that shit is private. i knew you liked hunter, hell i even talked to him about you so that he could like you. i wanted to see you happy, even if it wasn't with me" mattia confessed.
"i never thought you had feelings for me since i always thought you were playing around. mattia i also caught feelings for you even though i tried to brush them off. did you ever notice me blushing like crazy when we would talk on facetime, you would always make my nights. what did you like about me?" kairi splurged.
"of course i did, why'd you think i would say all those sweet things to you. kairi i still have feelings for you. i love everything about you, especially the way you think about things. you're always so positive about negative situations. you are always smiling in class and never sad. but i'm not sure if we can be like we use to" the italian said in a serious tone.
"why not" the wasian asked.
"i'm dating someone right now and it wouldn't be fair to them. i can't follow you on instagram, ive been trying to forget about you but i can't. i waited for you for 2 years and i still remember the last time we talked. i waited for you to text me but nothing. if you would have told me 10 minutes ago to leave this person for you, i would most definitely" mattia replied.
"can we start all over again? please" the short boy whined.
"i'm sorry kairi, if we talk it would only be about school" he said.
"but mattia-" kairi began but got cutoff.
"i have to go, can you give me one last smile before i go?" mattia added.
"yeah goodbye mattia" kairi gave him a weak smile.
"goodbye, baby" mattia smiled and ended the call.
kairi sat on his bed crying, while mattia pondered all night about what he had done and if it was the right thing to do.
we had the stars you and i.
𝙖𝙪𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙧𝙨 𝙣𝙤𝙩𝙚
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