- Nyeisha White -
- Compton, California -
i jumped up as i heard banging on the bedroom door making me cover my ears and eyes as screaming and yelling came from outside the door.
the door busted open making me scream and put my hands out.
"she's in here!" i heard a man yell as i felt hands on me making my eyes snap open. "come on. your safe now"
as the officers walked me out the house, i watched as they kept travis's men on the ground as they yelled at me.
when we got outside, i looked up seeing pop looking directly at me which made my eyes tear up.
i didn't tell him i was leaving. i just left and came here to save roddy..
he's probably so fucking mad at me...
"go but come to the ambulance after your done" the lady said to me as she stepped away going to the ambulance.
"pop" i sighed as he walked to me fastly.
without saying anything, he pulled me into a tight hug making me let the tears fall onto his shirt as i wrapped my arms around him hugging him back.
"i ain't gon' yell at yo dumbass here, but we talkin' bout it when we get back" he said kissing my head. "don't ever fucking leave the house without me knowing. ESPECIALLY if it'll put you in danger"
"w-wheres roddy" i asked pulling away.
"he's getting checked. they beat him pretty bad but ion think he gotta go to the hospital" i nodded wiping my eyes. "come on. ion wanna see you cry" he sighed pulling me into another hug.
"i'm sorry, baby" i mumbled against his chest.
"what he do to you" he sighed rubbing my back.
i stayed silent. knowing that if pop found out travis raped me and that i lied to him, it wouldn't end well.
"stop holding out on me" he snapped me out my thoughts.
"herapedme" i mumbled laying my head on his chest.
"what?"
"i said herapedme" he smacked his teeth.
"Nyeisha Jae White" he pulled away making me sigh.
"he raped me" he tensed up. "please pop you gotta believe me i didn't want it to happen"
"i know you didn't" he shook his head. "go and get checked. i need sum time to myself fore i kill that dude"
he walked to his car making me sigh and make my way to the ambulance.
i feel like i failed pop.. i feel like the worst fucking girlfriend ever.
i don't deserve him.. at all.
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after getting checked, i made my way to pop's car where roddy was with pop leaning against his car as roddy spoke to the officers.
i got in the passenger seat of pop's car and just stared down at my feet beginning to think.
i felt my tears slip down my cheeks but i didn't wipe them.. i just let them fall.
i'm feel like such a bitch for not telling pop where i went. i feel like i did him so fucking wrong.
once we left, the car ride home was silent. he did lay his hand on my thigh though because he noticed i was crying.
i'd be lying if i said i didn't hate myself for lying to him..
"stop allat" he sighed as he pulled into my apartment complex to a parking spot. "ion like seeing you cry"
he brought my hand up kissing it lightly making me sigh lowly.
"i'm sorry" i looked over at him. "i shouldn't have lied to you"
"ion wanna talk bout that right now" he unlocked the door. "come on" he said getting out the car.
once we got into my apartment, he shut and locked the door behind me as i looked around rubbing my shoulder.
no matter what pop said, i still felt guilty.
he turned me to him crashing his lips into mine as he held onto my waist keeping me up.
"never do that shit again" he said pulling away laying his forehead on mine. "i thought you died, Ny. that shit ain't no joke!"
"i know, baby" i sniffled. "i'm so fucking sorry"
- Vanessa Valor -
i hugged my knees as i bit my lip in nervousness waiting to hear if they found roddy and Ny.
i began to think about what would happen if he's dead.. which made me cry into my hands.
the smell of roddy's creed cologne filled the air around me from his hoodie i had on.
i'm so fucking scared i won't get to see my baby again.
please just come home Rodrick..
the door handle turned making my head shoot up as i watched roddy walk through the door.
my breathing hitched as i got up quickly making my way to him pulling him into a hug tightly.
"thank you, jesus" i cried as i wrapped my arms around his neck and his arms wrapped around my waist.
"i'm here now, baby. stop cryin" he sighed rubbing my back.
"stop crying? roddy you could've died and i wouldn't have been able to say goodbye!" i pulled away. "and it would've broke the kids!" my tears started to stream down my face.
"goddamnit, Vanessa" he shook his head sitting on the bed pulling me into his lap. "i can't listen to you cry any longer" i cried into the crook of his neck as he spoke. "i love you, Vanessa. i told you i'd find you again and i did" he lifted my chin. "i'm here now" i shook my head looking away from him as i felt more tears coming as my sobs broke through my chest. "look at me" he turned my face. "till death do us part, Vanessa Evangeline Valor"
"you scared me so fucking much" i laid my forehead against his. "i just wanted you here with me"
"i'm right here, ness. i'll always be here, you hear me?"
that's when i felt a kind of stinging pain in my lower stomach making me stop crying and hiss as i gripped roddys shoulder.
"what?" he asked laying his hand on my little bump as i threw my head back with my teeth bared. "Vanessa"
"fuck!" i cursed gettin off his lap holding my stomach as the pain increased. "roddy it hurts!" i began to cry as i gripped his arms while he held me up.
"i'll go get your cramp medicine bae. stay here" he said sitting me on the bed.
this didn't feel like a cramp pain.
this was worse.
way worse.