chapter forty-five: do anything you want to me
!!!WARNING!!!: this chapter is fully smut !!!! and it is a bit of a long one !!! read at your own risk !!! you have been warned!!
josie's pov
(cont'd) WEDNESDAY NIGHT. While sitting at the dining room table with Luke, the two of us had just flailed our heads back in laughter at something silly Luke had said. We had finished eating at least twenty minutes ago and were now snacking on the cookies Luke had made—which were surprisingly tasty.
I really hadn't expected such a dinner from Luke, so I was beyond grateful and I couldn't start to thank him enough for turning a less than thrilling day into such a lovely one.
The two of us had shared the remainder of a bottle of wine that I had bought a couple of days prior—we were reaching a stage of being all giggles and I couldn't help but think about how nice it was to be in Luke's presence while tipsy. Our playfulness and connection were both heightened as we became versions of ourselves that swore that the other couldn't possibly do anything other than be charming.
While dinner had been nice and I was happy that Luke had treated me so well, the thoughts in the back of my head raced as images of last night played in my head. I knew I had missed having an intimate relationship with Luke, but I wasn't aware of just how deprived I had been feeling.
I could barely focus during my meetings all day long—instead, I sat with my eyes glazed over as I imagined all of our nights together and analyzed our growth. The first time I slept with Luke, back when I swore it would be the last, I thought it had been the best night of my life. I remember barely being able to believe that I had never been with a guy who made me feel that good—yet somehow the next several times we had sex and last night proved that Luke only kept getting better. Every time with Luke was like the first; new, exciting, and so fucking good—
"Jos?" I snapped out of my daydream and looked over at Luke who seemed concerned as my eyes met his. "You okay over there?" he joked which caused my cheeks to crimson.
"Yeah, sorry... just a little distracted today," I told him, but couldn't imagine telling him by what. I still hadn't completely gotten over my embarrassment of exposing myself earlier—I really had told Madalyn about our night in greater detail than what was probably appropriate. I hadn't planned to, but the second I was on the phone with her in the private bathroom in the office, it poured out of me like a waterfall. I gushed about nearly every detail—of course, sugar coating it, but still telling her things I probably shouldn't have mentioned.
I was a creature of habit—and I had a bad habit of oversharing.
"How's about we go watch something?" Luke suggested, again noticing that I had drifted into my own world.
"Is that what you'd like to do?" I asked him, biting my lip gently as I silently hoped he was only saying that, while having other plans. Luke's lips curled into a smirk and I raised an inquiring brow at him.
"Is there something else you'd like to do?" Luke asked slowly, his every word like a pang to my chest. I really couldn't believe how horny I was—it was the wine, surely.
Or maybe I really just wasn't good at regularly listening to myself or tending to my needs.
"I couldn't think of anything else you'd possibly be interested in, so you just let me know." Luke toyed with me as he stood up, grabbing our plates before taking them over to the kitchen sink. The last thing I wanted was for Luke to know how desperate I was to have him.
You'd think someone that possessed the amount of self-restraint for the past three weeks that I did would've been able to get over herself. I felt weak in Luke's presence—which I both hated and loved.
"Luke," I whined—wishing he'd just take me to bed without me having to say that I wanted it.
"Yeah, bubs?" Luke asked with an overtly sweet tone as he played dumb. I sent him a soft glare and he cocked his head to the side. "Is there something you need?"
"Okay, wise guy. You know what I need?" I asked Luke through my exasperation.
"No, that's why I asked," Luke came off smart and I crossed my arms as I continued to look at him. I knew he wanted me just as bad as I wanted him, so I decided that two could play at this game.
"I was thinking maybe we should have a break from each other tonight," I told him as I picked up my glass of wine, rolling my wrist gently and watching as the wine swayed from side to side. "I mean, surely we're getting bored of each other... aren't we?" Luke scoffed, obviously knowing I was only playing with him.
"So, you'd like me to leave for the night then, huh?" Luke seemed so set in his ways that I was almost worried that if I kept going, he'd actually leave—just to win.
"I mean, maybe it'd be nice to sleep alone for once. I bought some really comfortable lingerie recently, and I just think it would be nice to treat myself to a night by myself. Admiring myself. Playing with myself." I glanced away from my wine glass and up at Luke whose jaw was clenched in clear frustration. "Wouldn't you want me to have a good time after such a long, exhausting day at work?" I looked at Luke with puppy dog eyes and he slowly shook his head in disbelief.
He walked back up to the table, before leaning down and placing his hands on the wood—looking me in the eyes as he stood directly in front of me.
"New lingerie, huh? Who'd you buy that for?"
"Some deadbeat pop star I thought I might give a chance," I told Luke as I pushed myself up from my seat and took on a similar stance to Luke's.
"I'm sure he'd love to see it on you... and maybe he'd even enjoy watching you admire yourself in it... playing with yourself in it." I bit the inside of my cheeks at Luke's final words and barely hesitated to close the space between us as I pressed my lips to his.
Luke kissed me back hard as he grabbed my face in his hands and I swiped the remaining decorations that were on the table out of my way as I climbed onto the surface.
Luke pulled me toward him, giving me minimal time to readjust myself as I placed my legs on either side of him while he continued to stand.
Luke's hand extended behind me and I heard some more movement before Luke pushed me back, my back landing against the table's surface. Luke leaned over me and pressed a single kiss on my lips before speaking.
"What if we went once before you show me what you bought for me?" Luke asked, his breathing heavy as he referred to the lingerie I had referenced.
"What, here? On my dining room table? People eat here, Luke—"
"Would you rather me eat you out, then?" My jaw dropped at Luke's words and I let out a shocked, but excited laugh as my lips began to curl into a smile.
"Do anything you want to me," I told Luke as I pulled him down by the back of his neck and practically connected my lips to his ear. Luke flashed me a grin before connecting our lips hungrily. My heart pounded as I kissed him back, but he didn't allow the kiss to get too involved before breaking away and moving his hands down my body, to the button of my jeans. He ripped open the button and unzipped my fly so fast that I felt it in my stomach—the excitement of what the action meant, that is.
My head had fallen back as I breathed heavily, preparing myself for the next couple of minutes of undeniable pleasure.
"Look at me," Luke said, his tone a bit more dominant than usual, but all the more exciting. I looked at him with my unwavering attention, giving him just what I knew he wanted. Luke started to pull down my jeans, his eyes looking into mine as he did so. "You've gotta watch me, alright? Otherwise, I'll stop." I nodded my head at him and started to help him get my pants off, but he stopped me and continued to slowly take my jeans off—one pant leg at a time.
"You're seriously doing this to me right now?" I asked Luke, referring to the speed at which he was going while my clit was already throbbing in desperation. Luke let out a silly giggle—nearly ruining his earlier dominant words—but the sound only caused my heart to flutter.
"If you won't be patient, then I guess we just won't do anything tonight," Luke said as he took his hands away from my legs.
"No, Luke!" I whined, desperately urging him to continue. "I won't complain anymore," I promised him which made him smile. He took my pants off the rest of the way and threw them to the floor before trailing kisses all the way up my opened legs.
My leg twitched as he bit one of the marks he had left the night before on my inner thigh and my head fell back when I let out a quiet moan at the pain that felt oh-so-good.
Luke trailed kisses up my thighs, to the waistline of my undies that he soon took between his teeth, just to snap back against my skin seconds later. He started to trail kisses up my stomach, his nose inching under the fabric of the shirt that I was wearing.
His hands came up to the waistband of my undies before he took them off, this time moving quickly instead of making me painfully wait. The urgency of his action aroused me in itself and I felt a rush of tingles run through me as Luke's tongue swiped across my folds, soaking up my arousal.
Luke placed his hands on my thighs and pried my legs open further, to the point where I endured a slight burn that felt surprisingly nice as Luke tasted me.
I glanced down at Luke just as he wrapped his tongue around my clit, causing my eyes to roll back ever so slightly as I bit my tongue to keep back an inhuman noise from erupting from my lips. Luke's cheeks hollowed as he began to suck on the sensitive nub and I reached one hand back, to grasp the edge of the table, while reaching another hand forward into Luke's head full of curls.
Luke's tongue left my clit as his mouth began to explore my folds, sucking up the moisture as if he intended to get every last drop, but I only became more wet as he continued. Suddenly, his tongue flicked at my clit and I let out a suppressed cry of pleasure as I turned and hid my face in my arm.
"Feels good?" Luke asked, his mouth against my clit and his voice sending vibrations through my entire being that caused me to tremble.
"Uh-huh—real good," I breathed out, my eyes shut tight as he began sucking once again. One of Luke's hands traveled up my shirt, and up my chest, until he landed his palm on my right breast. He managed to pull my bra down, giving himself access to my breast as he started to strum at my nipple in rhythm with his tongue that was flicking at and swirling around my clit.
Just as I thought I couldn't possibly feel any better, Luke suddenly slipped two of his fingers into me and I arched my back at the feeling of him curling them inside me. It took him no time at all, using that photographic memory of his, to find my sweet spot and send me into a state of ecstasy. Luke pushed me back down against the table, trying to keep me from moving which only caused me to become more aroused as I tried to fight the urge in the pit of my stomach to come. I wanted to see how long I could last, to reach a new height of satisfaction from Luke's touch.
"Gonna come for me?" Luke's words did not help my efforts to try and hold out. "Or maybe you need some more help." His words reverberated against my clit which caused my head to pound. Luke pumped his fingers in and out of me fast and I was biting my lip as I pulled at Luke's hair, using every last drop of my self-restraint not to come. Luke flicked his tongue against my clit to the point of me trembling beneath him, and my hips were seconds away from buckling.
I let out a loud sob of satisfaction as my whole body shivered from Luke's touch and I panted as Luke slowly brought an end to his actions, prolonging my orgasm and causing me to twitch beneath him. The sensation left me feeling dizzy and I had to keep my eyes shut from my lack of ability to see straight.
I breathed heavily as Luke leaned over me, lowering his face to mine as he started to kiss along my jaw. "How about," Luke said in between his kisses, "you go change?"
I nodded my head slowly, but my body was still floating as I recovered from the feelings that Luke had brought me. I wasn't positive I could safely walk to my bedroom, but I knew I'd have to try.
"You don't want to come along to watch me get dressed?" I asked Luke softly as I opened my eyes to see his face just centimeters from my own. He leaned down and kissed me tenderly—I could taste myself on his lips.
"Of course, let's go." Luke pulled me up and placed my arms around his neck before taking my thighs in his hands and lifting me. I smiled at his action and began to kiss his neck as he walked us to my bedroom.
Luke put me down near my bed, bringing his face to mine as he kissed me hard. I kissed him back, but pulled away as I forcefully pushed him down on my bed. Luke landed on his elbows and he looked at me excitedly.
"Close your eyes, Hemmings—don't open until I tell you."
"I thought I was going to watch—"
"Well, I changed my mind—you'll get to be surprised. Now close your eyes." Luke chuckled to himself before laying down on my bed fully—his arms covering his face. I smiled to myself as I made my way over to my dresser—knowing exactly where the set that I had been dying to show him was.
I had bought it the second week of knowing Luke, simply on a whim, but never had the courage to actually show him it. Also—we had ended our fling by the time it came in the mail. I figured now that Luke and I were basically together, it was the perfect time to show him that I wasn't opposed to looking good for him.
The lingerie was a light mauve color, with completely see-through lace—nearly identical to the color of the bralette that Luke adored on me. The bottoms were high-waisted and incredibly flattering on my curvier hips; the bralette dipped low and—although it had no underwire—it held me tight and gave me the best looking cleavage I had maybe ever had.
After putting it on, I glanced at myself in the mirror and couldn't help but admire myself—I looked so good.
I turned around and walked up to the bed before climbing onto Luke, straddling his waist as I made sure he kept his eyes closed.
I took his hands away from his face and intertwined our fingers, allowing him to look at me. I watched as his lips curled into a smile and my heart pounded as I watched him bite his lip. In just a blink of an eye, Luke had used his force to roll us over, so that he was atop of me.
"You. Look. So. Fuckin' sexy," Luke paused between his words, trailing kisses down from my jaw to between my breasts, causing an excited laugh to leave my lips. "Fuck, Jos," Luke said in awe as he distances himself from me, staring down at me. "Fuck." Luke didn't waste much time before tearing his shirt from his back—once the clothing item had been discarded, he ducked his head back into my neck and started to leave wet kisses on my skin.
I breathed heavily as he began to suck on the skin of my collarbone and I let out a moan as his teeth nipped at the sensitive mark. Luke glanced up at me as he pulled away and sprouted a smile before placing his lips on mine—I kissed him back desperately and smiled as his tongue swiped across my own.
"I almost don't want to take this off you," Luke whispered against my lips, just before rolling us over again. Luke blindly tucked my hair behind my ears as my hair fell over my shoulders and into his eyes, and I smiled at the gesture as we continued to kiss.
Luke moved his hands to my legs that were straddling him—he explored my thighs, expanding his grip to my hips, before landing his hands on my waist that he somehow made feel small.
Luke's bulge grew beneath me as he explored my body, and I rolled my hips against him—wanting to tease him and excite him. Luke moaned quietly against my lips and I smirked to myself as I decided to continue, liking the way it felt to have him twitching beneath me.
"I think you've got too much clothing on, Lu," I spoke quietly as I pulled away from Luke, placing my hand on his cheek. His face softened as he sprouted a sweet smile.
"Did you just... call me Lu?" he asked, seeming to like the nickname that I had muttered, mostly on accident—from being too distracted to pronounce the 'k.'
"Yeah," I told him, sitting up as I smiled as well—I found myself sort of proud of the nickname, thinking it was almost as cute as Jos.
"If you call me that again, these pants are coming off."
"Lu, Lu, Lu..." I started to repeat myself as I moved back ever so slightly, adjusting myself so that I could get my hands to the button of his jeans. Luke placed his hands to the side of his head, giving me complete control. Before unzipping his jeans, I palmed him which caused him to let out a quiet, shaky breath—causing the corners of my lips to curl in satisfaction.
I swung my leg over Luke so that I was sitting to the side of him, before pulling down his jeans, leaving his boxer-covered bulge staring back at me. I leaned down and placed a gentle kiss on his covered bulge, just after he had kicked his jeans off the rest of the way, and glanced up at him as he let out a frustrated moan.
I swung my leg back over, straddling him once again, before rolling my hips against him—my ass riding against his hard length.
"Oh, fuck," Luke moaned out, placing his hands on my legs. I countered by taking his hands into my own and leaning forward as I restrained his hands, placing them back by his head. Luke's eyes opened as I did so, and I brought my face close to his, our lips practically brushing.
"Don't move those for me, okay?"
"Uh-huh," Luke mumbled against my lips before I pulled away, once again rolling my hips against him. Luke's hands twitched as he let out another moan and I smiled at his attempt to restrain himself from touching me. I swung my leg to the other side of him again, and placed my hands on the waistline of his briefs before pulling them down, smiling at Luke's length that was begging for attention.
I took him into my hand and I looked over at Luke, watching him become bothered as my hand stroked him. He let out a whimper as I started to stroke him faster and his hands balled into fists as his breathing became heavy. Luke let out an incoherent mumble, asking for something, and I raised an eyebrow.
"What was that?" I asked softly and slowly.
"Your mouth," he breathed out.
"Hmm?" I asked, pretending to not understand his request which caused him to groan loudly.
"Please fucking put your mouth on me, Josie," he begged, his breathing heavy as my hand continued to move up and down his length. Seeing him this bothered was making me feel all sorts of ways.
I let my hands fall from his length, causing another whimper to fall from his lips as I left him on the edge. I quickly tied my hair up before bringing my lips to his tip, pecking the skin and causing him to tremble beneath me. My tongue swirled his tip before I dragged it down the sides of his shaft, all the way to the base, and back up again.
"Oh, shit," Luke mumbled, moaning loudly at my touch. I placed my mouth around his tip, taking in a breath before taking his length as deep as I could manage—the feeling of gagging was close, but I liked it. I bobbed my head slowly, at first, working him up before I started to bob faster—my cheeks hollowed as I went. I placed my hand on the base of his cock and stroked it in rhythm with my bobbing, hoping to bring him further pleasure.
Luke let out a loud cry of satisfaction and I smiled as I continued, looking up at him as he looked down at me.
"Think I'm close, Jos." Wanting to tease him, I slowed my pace and denied him orgasm which caused him to cry out. "Ah—ah, what the fuck!" Luke yelled out as he realized what I had done. Luke's breath was heavy—his face was red and droplets of sweat were resting on his forehead. "You are so paying for that in the future," he threatened which caused me to smirk.
Not wanting to entirely deprive him, I straddled him once again, feeling his member at my back, as I reached down to place my face close to his.
"Want me to ride you, baby?" I asked quietly as I placed kisses along his jaw. I had never called Luke that before, but it felt and sounded right as it left my lips. I intertwined our fingers once Luke had dropped his arms back to the sides of his face and he tightened his grip, reminding me of his presence as he stayed quiet while catching his breath.
"Yes," Luke finally breathed out an answer and I smiled in the middle of trailing kisses down his neck. I pushed myself up, looking down into Luke's blue orbs as he grinned at me. I left a singular kiss on his lips before pushing myself up, standing up on my bed before stepping out of my lacy bottoms and tossing them to the side. Luke placed his hands on my legs, trailing up and down them as he looked up at me.
I crouched back down, propping his length up after giving it a couple of strokes and rubbing my clit against his tip—causing a moan to leave my lips as my head fell back slightly. I aligned his length with my entrance before I sank down on it—his length filling me and doing so deeply. My hips began grinding back and forth, my clit craving the friction from the action and we both moaned in unison from the pleasure it brought us. I lifted myself up just before slamming myself back down to the base, causing a strangled moan to escape my lips. Luke let out a similar noise, clearly liking the way I felt clenched around him.
I started slow, but worked myself up to a faster speed that had us both breathing heavily as desperate moans left our mouths.
I had gotten into a comfortable rhythm, and just before I was about to come down to his base, Luke gripped my hips in his hands and thrusted up—causing my head to fall back at the feeling. He thrust into me a couple more times before handing me back the reigns—this time I went harder, grinding against him to the point of making him tremble with every movement.
"Gonna come, Jos—"
"Don't you come 'til I do," I panted out, feeling that I was close and wanted to ride it out—knowing I could if he gave me time. We continued, our cries of pleasure becoming louder as we worked together. I reached my satisfaction from a final grind against Luke's cock and I let out a loud sob that wreaked of pleasure.
"Jos!" Luke nearly pushed me off of him as he started to finish, a loud cry leaving his lips seconds later as he came—his release hit the inside of my thigh in my attempt to roll off of him. We laid beside one another, breathing heavily as we desperately tried to collect ourselves. "This no condom shit is so stupid of us," Luke breathed out which caused me to laugh so hard that my stomach ached. "But fuck, you feel so good."
I rolled over on my stomach and laid my arms on Luke's chest, propping my head up on them as I looked into his eyes.
"How about a shower?" I asked Luke, my eyebrows wiggling. He laughed breathily at my expression but began to nod as he placed his hand on my back. In a second, he had undone my bra and I gasped at the feeling—I hadn't expected him to do such, and the ease of actions aroused me.
"I've secretly been waiting to do that since you put it on," Luke admitted before placing his lips on mine.
"I thought you didn't want to take it off me?"
"I said I almost didn't want to, Jos."
My eyes rolled playfully as I pushed myself up, finishing the task of taking my bra off. Luke smirked as he looked me all over, licking his lower lip before squeezing it between his teeth.
"I think I prefer you with nothing on."
"You horny, horny bastard."
a/n:
ok i feel like this could've been a weird place to leave off but ......... THIS CHAPTER WAS ALMOST 5000 WORDS WHICH IS LONGER THAN MY CHAPTERS OF NORMAL DIALOGUE USUALLY ARE ....... how dare it somehow be easier to write this shit than other stuff ............ who let me do this
i don't think this is as good as the other smut chapter but i hope it was still enjoyable !!!! i literally have negative experience writing smut so this has been a big change for me !!!!!
i just don't wanna let any of u down 🥺
i have some new readers for this story which is making me so excited !!!! getting new readers genuinely makes my heart flutter & i just love watching new ppl comment & fall in love with my characters 🥺🥺 it makes my day.
thank you all for supporting me always & being the best. i owe you everything <33
thank you SO much for reading !!! i will go ahead and say that this might be the last smut chapter before i finish THIS book........ who knows what you'll get in the sequel ;)
okokok i think we've got about three or four more chapters of this one !!!!!!!! that's so crazy !!!! can't wait for u guys to see what i've got planned........ it might make a couple of u crazy 🤪 but maybe you guys will finally get what you've wanted... who knows !!!!
ok !!! much love !!! mwah!!!
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jill