A semi time jump coming next chapter so stay tuned👄
|Gabbi |
Life is strange. It's Friday. After Kabria spent the night we've been spending time together. Kinda ... it's just weird. She has friends that she's always with and I feel left out because for one they don't like me and I don't like them and we just don't get along. I feel like she's been choosing her friends over me lately
Oh and not to mention. Ocean has not been responding do any of my texts. She's like the only
person that I can actually talk to. My sisters busy with her stupid life. We FaceTime ever single day but I feel like I'm bothering her. I just feel like everyone has there own life and I'm just stuck not knowing what to do. I feel so detached from everyone to the point where I actually feel alone.
I've just been slugging around my house for the last day or so. I went into the kitchen to grab some orange juice and I could see my mom eyeing me as I poured a glass.
"Gabbi what the hell is wrong with you?"
"Nothing. I'm completely fine"
"Come sit"
I rolled my eyes. I do not want to have a dumb mother daughter talk I would rather suffer in silence but I sat down anyway so she wouldn't yell at me.
"What's up with you?"
" Mom can we not . I just want to be left alone"
" Gabbi if your having problems I can get you a therapist I-"
" ughhhh no! Why can't I be in my feelings in peace!"
"Gabbi"
"I just have no friends"
" What about Kabria ? Wasn't she just here ?"
"She's with her friends. Who she obviously cares about more then me "
" I don't believe that at all. You don't even need friends you can be a bad bitch by yourself. What about ocean ?"
" I don't know probably with her dumb girlfriend"
She gave me the look. The look that I hate
" How do you feel about that?"
" Your not helping"
" If you don't answer I'm gonna take your phone "
I rolled my eyes
" I'm happy for her . As long as she's happy I'm cool"
" bullshit. "
She thinks she knows every goddamn thing.
" you asked me how I felt I told you"
"I think you should just go check on her. See what she's doing "
" Why? She's not checking up on me"
"Gabbi...."
"Okay whatever fine. "
I huffed and went upstairs and changed into something cute but I wasn't feeling cute at all. I went downstairs and I could feel my moms eyes watching me.
" You look cute and you smell good"
"Dang did I not smell good before?! Are you trying to throw shade"
" Shut up and get out my house"
We both laughed and I got in my car and headed over there. I was a little bit nervous just because I felt like I shouldn't even be here but oh well. I nervously knocked on her door. I couldn't call or text because it's not like she would've seen it.
Thankfully ocean opened the door and she looked nice of course.
" oh uh...."
" hey"
" Hey...."
I looked at her.
" so.. can I come in or??? "
" Uhh sure...."
I awkwardly walked in.
" Um so I-"
" Ocean you ready?"
I looked to my right and jasmines coming down the stairs. She looked nice to of course. Her style is definitely perfection. She can pull of anything
" oh sorry I didn't know you had company "
"Oh gabbi right ? From the party? "
This is embarrassing....
"Yeah.... that's me"
Kill me please.
"Uh so... what's up?"
I looked at Jasmine then back at ocean. I just want to cry.
" nothing I just thought I'd swing by and say hey"
" Oh okay ...."
Fuck . What am I supposed to do or say?! This is probably the most awkward situation I've ever been in , in my life.
" well we're actually about to leave. Was there something else you needed"
" Uh I wanted to talk to you but it's okay"
" is it important "
".... nope. Not at all..."
There was the longest awkward pause.
" I'll start the car"
I turned my head as she kissed her and walked out the door.
" Sorry for coming over here unannounced.."
" it's fine gabbi "
" Are you okay? You seem really out of it"
" No yeah I'm good just go enjoy your day"
"Is there something you want to tell me?"
Yes.
" No"
" There's not anything that you want to tell me"
" Nope everything's good"
"okay...."
She started to walk out the door.
" wait!"
She turned around.
" I um..."
Shit!!
I placed my hand on my forehead.
"You what?"
Gabbi shut your mouth.
" Say it"
" Nevermind"
" Gabbi I'm giving you an opportunity to tell me whatever is bothering you"
"Jasmines waiting for you"
" Okay fine don't tell me. I've giving you so many chances to tell me how you feel and you still won't "
Wait. She knows?!
" Do you want me or not ?! Tell me right now. Me or Kabria"
She was getting frustrated. Hell im frustrated with myself.
" ocean. Don't Do that "
"No Gabbi tell me. Your gonna make it way worse if you don't"
I took a breath.
" I'm sorry I have to be with her..."
I didn't even wanna look at her face. I'm never going to hurt Kabria I made a promise to her that I will never break.
"Exactly what I thought. So just erase the feelings you ever had for me! Just forget about me like you did before! "
She left and slammed the door in my face.
She's right. I have to leave her alone. I'm not gonna fuck my relationship up. I have to convince myself that I don't love her all over again. Which may I add was not an easy task.
I went back home and just laid in my bed thinking. Kabria texted me and told me she was coming up to my room and I panicked because she didn't even tell me that she was coming over today.
" What have you been doin?"
" nothing really. But I think we should talk"
"Yeah we should "
I looked taken back.
"Wait what? What's going on?"
" I feel bad that we haven't been spending time together. You should always be my number one priority"
" No baby you should spend time with your friends. I don't want to hold you back from doing whatever you want to do"
" Your not. It was just nice being with them but they don't compare to spending time with you"
I smiled
"Awwhh your so sweet"
" I know"
I rolled my eyes.
"What did you want to talk about?"
" I chose you "
" what?"
"ocean made me chose between her or you"
Her eyes widened
" YOU CHOSE ME OVER OCEAN?!"
" Yeah...."
I thought she was gonna be mad and question why I had to chose in the first place.
" Sorry I shouldn't have got happy about that.... how are you feeling about that?"
"I'll be fine "
A tear strolled down my face.
" There is no coming back after this anyways"
She held onto my hand.
" I'm sorry, love. I know she means a lot to you"
" It's okay because maybe this is that needs to happen. I don't remember to talk about it anymore"
"Gabbi your hur-"
" can you do my hair?"
" Gabbi..."
" Let's not"
I quickly wiped away my tears.
"Maybe we should take a break"
" Kabria we are fine. Don't do this right now"
" Gabbi you are not okay! This is not something you can just get over !"
" you've got to be kidding me" I mumbled
" You brush a lot off but this is something you can't brush off and it's going to affect are relationship. You just need some space "
"Ugh I knew I shouldn't have told you. I'm fine! Fuck her!"
I didn't realize how upset I was until I found myself throwing my phone across my room.
"Your uncrumbling right in front of my eyes"
"Kabria your making me very upset right now"
"I'm just telling you the truth! I always have "
" Not always..." I mumbled
"Hmm? What was said ?"
" Can we just stop. I don't like this.."
She stood up.
"Nah what's the problem?!"
" There is no problem"
" I'm upset too Gabbi but I want to be here for you because no matter what you are my bestfriend before anything or anyone! But calling me a liar??"
" I'm just saying lately you haven't been that truthfully "
" OH like you have?! Your so truthful right?!"
We both looked at each other disappointment in my eyes and anger in hers. I wasn't prepared for our conversation to take such a turn.
" I do tell you the truth Kabria!"
" when have you EVER told me that you have feelings for ocean?! Oh right yeah you lie every single fucking time! Hell you even lie to yourself! "
She's definitely been waiting to tell me that.
" Kabria I've been soooo quiet about that party of Wednesday but since you went to accuse me of shit I might as well clap back! I seen you dancing on Jalen on amiras snap. Didn't think I had her added huh?! What made you think that was okay ?!"
Y'all I'm heated. The tears wouldn't stop coming at this point. She knew she fucked yo because she didn't even look at me.
"And it's just funny how you say you miss me all that shit but after that night you ghost me for what a day and a half?!"
" Did you really just go there... Your really trying to accuse ME of cheating?! Do you really think I would cheat on you"
" I don't know anymore"
"Wow....so that's the truth ? That's how you really feel?"
"Look at me and tell me you didn't cheat on me"
She looked at me with her watery eyes
" Go ahead "
Y'all wanna know what she did she chuckled and left. She left! And I didn't even chase after her.
Because I'm done.
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Well well well........ There is a six month time jump starting chapter 60 and a lot can happen in six months...... What do you guys think? I'm curious.
The next update will be in October. I'm for real this time I'm gonna work on my other books. But when I get back.... y'all just have to wait and see! Thanks for reading🤍