- Vanessa Valor -
- Compton, California -
i gasped as i sat up in fear from my last dream.
"breath baby" roddy sat up rubbing my back as i tried to prevent a panic attack. "in and out" he started doing my breathing exercises with me.
"i didn't mean to wake you" i sighed.
"i know you didn't, bae" he wiped my tear that rolled down my cheek. "but i'm glad you did because i gotta get up"
"i have a question" i said lowly as he got up.
"hmm?" he stretched out looking out the window as the light beamed onto his bare chest showing off his tattoo's.
"could you bring me back something from dunkin?" i mumbled. "my wallet's right here" i held it out.
he chuckled walking over to my side of the bed and kissed my cheek.
"i don't need your money, baby. i'll get it myself" he put my wallet on my nightstand. "you want a strawberry coolatta? i know youn like coffee this early"
"thank you" i smiled leaning up giving him a kiss. "you're the best"
"you doin anything today?" he asked.
"nope. i guess i could clean but that's no fun" i sighed getting out of bed.
"welll" he pulled me to him. "when i get home" he lifted my chin going to my ear.
"you wanna fuck don't you" i giggled.
"nah. i wanna make love to you, Nessa" he gave my neck a kiss before pulling back. "i gotta get ready. but don't wait up for me" he smacked my ass making me yelp and hit his arm.
"not fucking cool!" i groaned rubbing where it stung.
the kids aren't here since we've been doing a lot. after what happened a few weeks ago.. i'm not sure i wanna live in Compton anymore.. especially with our kids at risk.
i slid my shirt off leaving me in my bra. i checked my phone and when i tell you it almost fell out my hands..
25324523432 I ain't happy wit you Vanessa.
25324523432 it's lawrence. and i hope you know i ain't done coming for you.
25324523432 roddy don't know what he got himself into after being with your stubborn and annoying ass.
25324523432 shoulda gotten rid of those kids when i shot up y'all crib. maybe next time baby .
my hands began to shake as i read the text from lawrence. how did he even get my number?!
"You good?" roddy walked to me quickly as i threw my phone onto the bed as i felt all my fear coming back. "Shit ness!" he said picking it up to check if it was broken.
"he knows!" i began to cry as i paced.
"what? who knows what? come here" he pulled me to him. my breathing started to hitch making him sigh and pull me into a hug. "shh. whenever your ready baby"
i cried into his neck as he rubbed my back slowly calming me down.
"l-lawrence was the one who shot up the house" i felt him tense up making me nervous. "roddy please don't" i sighed.
"i'm gonna kill him" he said pulling away. "I'm gonna fucking kill dis dude!" he yelled as he walked to his phone angrily.
"baby!" i pleaded. "please just don't! i don't want you to go to jail" i said sitting on the bed.
"are you fucking with me, Vanessa?!" he turned to me. "he could've hurt you! he could've hurt our kids! and your gonna sit there and tell me not to find this dude?!"
"stop fucking yelling at me! we'll file a police report! i have his number here and they can track his phone" i sighed standing back up as he walked to me with pure anger all over him. "baby if you get locked up i'm pretty sure i'll loose myself"
"i know" he sighed shaking his head. "if the police don't do anything? i'm killing this dude" he ran his hands up and down his face.
"i'll go to the station and file the report okay? go to the studio and finish this album of yours baby" i said leaning up kissing his cheek. "i got it. just trust me"
he slipped on his shoes after getting ready and slipping on his chain.
he doesn't really like wearing all his chains and shit out because he doesn't wear them to be "cool" or "show off" but he just wears them to big events. idk how to explain it..
"can i ask you something?" i asked sliding on my shirt.
"hmm" he sighed still trying to calm down from what he just heard.
"come here" i pulled him to the bed sitting him down before i sat on his lap. "i've had something bothering me ever since what happened, happened" he furrowed his eyebrows.
"why ain't you tell me sooner?"
"because it's a really big thing" i sighed running my fingers through his hair. "i think we should move out of Compton" i said looking him in his eyes. "somewhere safer. maybe Los Angeles i don't care. but around here? after what happened, i don't think it's safe for the kids"
"i know bae" he sighed. "but where you even wanna go?"
"we'll figure it out" i smiled lightly. "and plus, we'll need a bigger house if we're having more kids in the future"
"your gonna have my baby again?" his eyes lit up.
"yess but not yet" i chuckled. "in the future baby. maybe when Kenny starts kindergarten"
"whaaattt?" he groaned. "that's like 2 years from now! ion wanna be an old dad" he whined.
"your such a baby" i said leaning down giving him a kiss.
"we gon have 5" he smirked.
"4 at most" i corrected. "crazy ass"
"shut up. i needa leave so come on" he tapped my thigh letting me know to get up.
after we both finished getting ready, we left out the house and separated at our drive way where my BMV and roddys hell cat sat perfecting next to each other.
as i was on my way to the police station, i had a really hard time comprehending what i was about to say to them.. all i have is his texts and the camera footage.
once i got their, i got out of my car cautiously as i breathed slowly in and out trying to calm myself.
after getting put in a room with an officer, i started to feel a little bit better but also sick to my stomach..
"so you said lawrence polaski? recently let out of jail?" i nodded. "okay well looking at the camera footage and phone number.. we should be able to get this case solved and have him in custody as soon as possible" the lady smiled back up at me.
"so i'll come back tomorrow?" she nodded. "okay" i sighed. "thank you"
as i left out the station, i stopped at my car door pulling my phone out to text roddy.
that's when i saw a rag go over my mouth and felt a hand wrap around my waist making me gasp and drop my phone.
"shhh go to sleep. you'll need it" i looked behind me seeing lawrence's face before i felt my eyes get heavy and everything went black.