I fixed my things and I'm ready to leave when He speaks.
"I hope you will not regret leaving our team." He calmly but mockingly said
"How come that a killer can speak like that? I hope She hunts you in your dream." I looked at him, "It's an honor to leave your dirty business, Atty. Abing."
I said and I immediately walked away, I rolled my sleeve up to my elbow and I slightly massaged my temple. He never failed to give me a headache, He's such a heartless man.
Damn him.
After her death, I paid money for me to leave his fraternity. I was just so desperate to leave my stepfather's house but I never expected that I will live and work in hell. Where demons are located.
I regret everything, her memories hunts me in my dream. I'm crying every night thinking about her death, She's amazing and She doesn't deserve anything She experienced.
I hope she'll forgive me...
Because of me, she died.
"Son, where do you plan to study?"
Mom asked while fixing John's lunch, She never prepared a single sandwich for me. But there She is, cooking for her beloved husband.
Husband, fuck that word.
"I'm planning to study in New York." I seriously said while biting a hot toasted bread.
Damn this toaster, what the hell. It's not even working! I need to put this in garbage, useless bitch.
"New York? You'll leave me? You don't want to stay with me anymore?"
I stopped and I looked at her, "Who would love to stay with you?"
"Son--"
"Shut up!" I shouted, I threw the bread and I walked out.
I was so tired hearing cliché words from her, She said She'll take care of me, She'll do everything for me but what the hell's going on?
She did nothing but to take care of her lazy husband.
My parents were separated for 4 years, I was so young at that time and I was so innocent to know the real reason behind their separation.
But since I was a kid, I chose my Mom.
Everything was okay but everything fucked up when She met this gold digger Man. It's John, that Damn bastard who doesn't want anything but my Mom's money.
My Dad was currently living in New York with my Grandparents while my Mom was living with her second husband. I want to go back to New York and take care of him but this woman doesn't want me to leave.
That's when I chose to find a fraternity that will supply all my needs, I met Melody and I met Elisha.
They are a really close friend, Melody mentioned my problem and Elisha told me something that really caught my attention.
She told me about Master M's team and the benefits I'll receive, I didn't hesitate to join because I was so desperate to leave Mom's house and so I did.
I joined the team where I met Blake, Nick, and Tayler. I also don't like being surrounded by gays, so I'm in favor of what He wants us to do.
A piece of a fucking cake.
But when He killed Melody, I decided to leave the team immediately.
"Pare, Sa Matthew daw kami sabi ni Master M. Ikaw ba?" Blake asked
Tayler glanced sideways, He's still mad at me.
I looked away as I think where am I going to study. I want to go to New York. But I'm sure, She'll never let that happen.
Maybe I'll just study in Matthew? At least, I have friends already.
"I'll study in Matthew's all-boys school."
I didn't let her speak and I walked close to my room, I fixed my things and I put everything in my luggage.
Early in the morning after that day, She gave me my cards and the papers for my enrollment.
I parked my car and I went straight to the office, my left hand was in my pocket while the other one was holding my papers.
She gave me my card and everything I need, I entered the house and I wasn't surprised that I saw them sitting on the couch.
I looked at the card and my name was not spelled correctly. What a clumsy typewriter!
It's Tony, not Tonny! What the fuck?!
I walked outside and I gestured the service to fetch me, He came and I greet him. When we reached the office, I patted his shoulders and I went outside.
I saw a guy, his undercut hair, a thin body, his pointed nose, Angelic face, Tan skin, and a soft figure. I shook my head because of what comes in my mind. I'm ready to walk away when I saw how his eyes sparkled when He saw a pink service.
Another Gay, what the fuck.
I really don't like gays, I was just afraid to be like them. I mean, I feel like it's a virus that will transmit to me! I was so afraid but luckily, I didn't become a Gay when I finished the task with Sunshine.
I don't know but I just ran until I reached the house, what the hell's wrong with me? It's just a Gay! The fuck, Tony Falcon!
I calmed myself by sitting on the couch and turning the ps4 on. I need to calm myself, his figures made me sweat and I don't know why.
"Roommate, Bro.."
I slightly glanced at my peripheral view and I almost dropped the controller when I saw him.
H-He's a roommate?
"Go upstairs and you'll find out."
I said and I focused myself on the screen, I need to speak because He asked a lot of things and it's annoying.
Annoying Gay, another Gay that will ruin my life.
"Second task na?!" Tayler shouted that made me stopped, I just ordered a coffee and I didn't imagine that I'll see his annoying face again.
"Yes, the benefits are still the position with a million dollars bonus." Master-Bobby explained.
"Who's the next victim?" Nick asked
I didn't finish listening to them because I was so tired of their bullshit plans. That million-dollar has nothing to do when He killed the target and especially your loved one.
"Pare..." I looked at Blake, "Si Rans..."
Rans is an Abing, He's the son of that bastard. Basically, He put Rans in the deluxe house to be with us.
"I knew it. He's an Abing, right?" Blake nodded, "What a useless father, He wants to make his son suffer?! What a crazy old man."
I don't know why this man is doing everything to ruin his son's life, He's not making sense. It's totally absurd and I don't think He doesn't deserve it, even if He's a Gay.
"Ayoko din, Pare. Mabait si Rans at tingin ko hindi ko magagawa 'yon sa kaniya."
Blake whispered, we stopped when the door opened and Rans has shown up. I thought He heard us but good thing, He did not.
Tayler was doing his task, Actually, He's doing great. It's visible to Rans's eyes that He likes Tayler, no doubt that Tayler will win this time.
I don't know, I shouldn't feel annoyed but I was just irritated the way Tayler talked to Rans.
It's pretty annoying.
"What's the meaning of this?" I asked
I don't know but I shouldn't involve myself again in their business but I can't help it! I want to protect Rans-what did I say?!
I don't want to protect him!
"Pare! Galing mo umarte ah! Pa-History repeat itself ka pa--"
I cut him off with my fist tightly clenched.
"Stop what you're doing, Tayler," I said with an authority
"Anong stop?! Hindi, Kailangan kong makuha 'yong pera para mapunta na ulit sa'kin si Sunshine!"
He stood up and He looked straight to my eyes. A sour expression was visible in his face, I can see it clearly.
"Bakit Pare? Ikaw ba tumigil ka noon kay Sunshine?! Hindi, 'di ba! Kaya 'wag mo akong utusan na akala mo naman may nagawa kang maganda!" He pushed me with all his strength and walked away.
He's so annoying! He's like John, a selfish gold digger!
I let Tayler do what He wants since I don't have a right to dictate him. I just surrender everything to Blake and He already apologizes to me if He'd hurt Rans.
Lol, He's nothing! Why did He apologize?! I just don't want him to get involved here! That's all, I don't like him anyway.
I'm straight for Pete's sake.
I almost break his face when He hurt Rans right through his face. He chose to go with Sunshine instead of making Rans happy.
Bastard.
"Pare, desperado talaga si Tayler." Blake said, I patted his shoulder after He told me what happened in the basketball court.
The two selfish men were working in their dirty business. The father wants him to play basketball while the other one was doing something to prove his fake feelings.
Wow, the collaboration of two demons.
"Pare, type mo si Rans 'no?"
I rolled my eyes when Blake asked me, what's wrong with him? I'm straight and it's impossible to like someone like him, He's so soft and I'm too tight. Not completely compatible with each other.
"I don't."
"Aminin mo na kasi, okay lang naman e! Mabait naman si Rans at saka hindi siya baklang bakla. Sa salita lang pero sa kilos, hindi naman halata. At saka kung gusto mo, bakit ka naman magpapatalo kay Tayler?"
I slowly rubbed the nape of my head when I heard what He said, if I like him, what should I do? I mean, should I complete with Tayler?
Should I tell Rans what's happening in his surrounding?
"What should I do?"
"Sabi na, type mo e! 'Di ba marunong ka naman magluto?" I nodded, "Prepare breakfast for tomorrow! A way to man's heart is through his stomach!"
I rolled my eyes because of the plan He made but knowing Blake, He'll pursue it.
History really repeat itself, I saw how Nick smiled when He saw a note on his Teddy bear. History will repeat itself if He will not break up with Nicolai.
Good thing, He listen before it's too late.
The moment I saw him sitting alone in the dark, there's something inside me that wants to talk to him.
That night, I find out how his Dad treats him.
He's treating his Son like a dog that He wants to throw, Damn that man.
I did everything to comfort him, I had trouble maintaining eye contact but luckily, I managed to talk to him without feeling uncomfortable.
Honestly, there's a romantic excitement I felt.
Blake asked him about his personal problems and He found out that He left their house and He's now planning to stop studying. I told him to offer money for the tuition but He said that He immediately rejected it.
I doubt that He's a son of Bobby, He's so pure while his Dad was a demon. Is that even possible?
I think so, his Mom was also pure.
Maybe Rans inherit his characteristics to his Mom.
I gather the three to talk about leaving the fraternity, Rans was literally in pain and I think He can't withstand that anguish anymore.
"Tayler," I called him, "We already talked with this." I crossed my arms.
"Ano nanaman?" He irritably asked with his furrowed forehead.
He's staring at me with all his judgments, If I can't control myself, I bet I smash his face. He's so irksome.
"Pare, maawa na tayo kay Rans. Lumayas na siya dahil kay Master M, gusto ko na ding tumigil. Sabay-sabay tayong umalis--"
Tayler's eyes opened widely, "Ano?! Itatapon niyo nalang ng gano'n-gano'n lang?! Hindi naman kayo naawa ng ganyan kay Sunshine ah! Anong problema niyo?!"
"Tayler, you don't understand!" I exclaimed
He really doesn't understand why we do this, it's not just for Rans! It's also for him and his life, everything that includes illegal will always have huge aftermaths at the end.
I don't want my friends to suffer, not even Tayler.
He stood up, "Ipaintindi niyo! Pero kahit ano pa 'yang dahilan niyo, hindi ako titigil at kukuhanin ko kung ano ang sa'kin."
He walked out and we immediately followed him, "I want you to stop! He's not worth to play!"
"Tony tapos na 'yon! Iba na 'to! Kung magalit edi magalit!"
He shouted and He didn't even notice Rans in front of him, He just walked away enduring all the eyes that are looking at him.
I want Tayler to change, I want him to realize that not everything can buy with money. Not even the satisfaction that He's talking about.
"I'm sorry..." I whispered and I ran until I reached the room, I wrapped the blanket around my body and I calmed myself.
"Bro, you like him?" Nick asked
Do I like Rans? Do I?
"Of course--"
He crinkled his nose, "It's obvious," He mumbled
"-not, I don't." I continued, I don't like Rans.
I can say that because I know myself better than they know me.
He shrugged, "If you say so."
Even if I like him, I will control myself. I don't want to be involved in any of the Abing, not again. Not even in my second life.
"What happened?!" I shouted when I saw Rans with scratches on his arms.
Those homophobic bastards just cornered him and good thing Nick protected him.
Good thing, Nick was great in taekwondo.
I ran my hands through my hair as I heard Elisha and Diana's voice downstairs.
"You're Rans?!" Diana asked
She so exaggerated, it's so obvious and I wish Rans will find out as soon as He can.
Less the time, less the pain.
Diana and Elisha already saw Rans, there it goes. They're starting to give indications to their prospects.
They're so outrageous. I mean, if they're going to commit a crime, make sure that they will not leave a mark.
Stupid strategy.
I pressed my lips together, I lift the glass of liquor and I drank it.
I'm here at the bar, I was so exhausted seeing their faces. I loathe seeing Tayler and his nonsense task, I hate seeing the two doing nothing and I hate seeing Rans being tortured in his own Dad's shits.
"Tony..."
I turned my body when I heard Elisha's voice, I felt muddled and Her visuals were not clear enough to see.
"Elisha, what are--"
She didn't let me continue and She hugged me tightly, I can hear her sobs and I don't know what to do! Why is She hugging me?! I don't like her and She's Melody's best friend!
She faced me, "I'm so sad and I want to cry..."
I was unable to move when her eyes cross to mine, Earlier it was blurred but when I saw her eyes, everything was just so clear and it breaks my heart seeing her eyes again.
It's been 2 years since I last saw her eyes, it's still the same... it's still addicting and It drowns me.
No, She's not Melody.
I exasperated sighed, "N-no, Why? Do you want me to do something?"
"No, I was just thinking if you're not attracted to me? I mean, I'm so gorgeous and close to perfection but why aren't you looking at me?"
A sudden change of the atmosphere occurred, I saw her eyes, her eyes that I fell in love...
Not in Elisha's eyes but to Melody's eyes...
Now, I can't see anything but Melody, She's here?
"N-no, it's not like that. I was just--"
She bowed her head, "It's okay, I'm not even attractive..."
She whispered and It breaks my heart, even more, when I saw a tear fall from her eyes.
Her eyes...
In our relationship, I never made her cried. She cried sometimes but not in sadness, it's because of happiness.
And now, I hate seeing Elisha cry because it's Melody's. And I don't want to be a reason why Melody cries, not even in Elisha's body.
I held her chin, "Honestly, your eyes were beautiful..." I said while looking at her beautiful eyes, it's still pretty and it made me sad seeing her eyes immersed in sadness.
Her eyes glowed, "Really?"
"Yeah, It was perfect." I nodded, "...and I think I fell in love again with those eyes..." I uttered
"That means, you like me?!" She asked, I don't think She gave attention to what I said.
But seeing her smiling like this made me think, Maybe just in Elisha's body, I can make Melody's happy. Seeing her eyes glistened has an enormous part in making Melody happy.
It is still Melody's eyes even though it wasn't her body anymore.
"I-I think so?"
She clapped her hands and She immediately hugged me. I'm happy to see her eyes smiling but the way She hugged me, it wasn't felt the same.
"You don't know how happy I am!"
It's not Melody, it's Elisha...
Time passed by and Elisha was always on my side, it still breaks my heart seeing her cry.
Every time She cried, I always hug her and made her feel comfortable. I don't want to see Melody's eyes crying, I don't like it.
"Tony! Tita helped me preparing our wedding! Isn't it amazing?"
I froze and stare at her with my eyes wide opened, I don't know what She's talking about! I didn't even propose to her! We're not even in a relationship, it was just that... her eyes! What the hell!
"W-wedding? What? Wait, what wedding?"
She stopped, "O-our wedding... I thought, I thought you'll be h-happy..." She shook her head, tilting her head that made me see her eyes.
Why is She crying?! What the hell?!
I held her face, "N-no! Don't cry, I'm happy. We're getting married.." I said while wiping her tears.
I don't know what did I say that, a wedding is not a game and I shouldn't say those words to her.
What the hell is wrong with me?!
"Pare, anong pwede nating gawin para mapagaan ang loob ni Rans?" Blake asked with his fingers on his temple.
He put his hand over his mouth and He exaggerated gasp, He looked at me and He shook my shoulder.
He told me to make Rans feel better with our words, He told me the plan about the basketball championship. To make Rans feel better is to tell him how valuable He is.
He's too precious to be played by his own father.
"What was that, Tony?!" She ran towards me, "He's your Queen?! Seriously?!" She disgustingly asked
She's below the belt, I don't even like her it was just Melody's eyes! It has nothing to do with a serious relationship that She's talking about.
It's not about me and her, it's about me and Melody.
I committed a lot of mistakes towards Melody and I need to lessen it by making her eyes happy.
Her eyes were just the only thing that exists right now, not her body, not her heart but just her eyes.
I nod quickly, "Elisha, please..." I looked away
"What now, Tony! We're engaged for fuck's sake! Stop acting that you're single!" She shouted as She showed me her palm.
There's no ring, there's no engagement and that means, there's no wedding.
I show white knuckles, "No one's getting married, I didn't agree with it anyway! You just planned it by yourself! Stop this bullshit, Elisha!"
I shouted and I immediately walked away, right before I stepped outside the room, I heard her sobs and the way She called my name.
"T-Tony..." She said between her sobs
Do I need to comfort her? I don't think so, I really need to distance myself away from her. She's out of her mind and I think it's better to walk away.
I just want her to realize that I'm in love with her eyes and not in her whole personality.
Days passed by and I'm bothered by my feelings. I don't know if I should set aside her eyes or just focus on what I want to stare?
I literally want to stare on his face for the rest of my life but I'm being disturbed by her eyes.
I enjoyed seeing Rans happy and I'm confused seeing Melody's eyes.
I sighed heavily and I reached my notepad, I sat down in the study area and I looked at the sky and I twirl my pen.
I started to write words that describe my inspiration, should I call it a crush? Or just a misunderstanding?
I was shocked when I read the things I wrote, I literally composed a song and I didn't expect that it's for...
Him.
I reached my recording tape and I clicked the button, I started to strum my guitar and I finally finished my song.
I inserted the tape in my speaker and I listen to the song.
"You are truly amazing,
The way you smile and uttered,
The way you dance and speak,
The way you move your lips..."
I recall every single day that I see his face, He's tan skin but it looks so soft and I want to caress it on my own. The moles on his face that made him look more beautiful, his smile that is mesmerizing, the way He speaks was just so pleasant to hear, the way He dances made my world stops turning and the way he moves his lips, It's teasing me to kiss--it.
What?!
"You are truly the one,
You changed me for who I am,
I know it's bad,
But I'm willing to be,"
"The badass person I could be...."
I precisely don't have an idea that He'll change me, I don't know where these things came from but I'm so happy that my heart was finally true to me.
"I'm not a gay,
I'm not a bisexual,
I'm not a trans,
But you fucking Rans..."
I'm not really a part of LGBTQ, not even a fan of it. But when I met him, everything altered. This fucking Rans turned me into a person I don't want to be, He captured me without doing anything and He made me fall in love without even saying.
Did I just say I fell in love?
Do I?!
"You changed me...
I became the person I can't be,
I became the person I don't want to be,
But I like how it turned out,"
'"coz this man would love to spend his life,
together with you precious Rans..."
Am I willing to spend my life with him? Did I really say those words?
Am I now attracted to him?
"I'm not a gay,
I'm not a bisexual,
I'm not a trans,
But you fucking Rans,"
"You gave me a rush,
I think I have a crush,
It's secret so just hush,
His name is Rans..."
He gave my heart a rush that I never felt before, not even in Melody.
Maybe now, I need to be true to myself.
I finished a song with relief in my heart, I know I shouldn't feel attraction towards the same gender but who cares? It's my life and it's my decision.
"You are mine now,"
I kissed him for the second time and I thought he'll fight back but no, instead He kissed back.
And It's weird but it felt so good...
I don't know but I think I fell in love again, not in the same eyes but with a different person in a different aspect of the word love.
A love that doesn't choose a gender to fall in love with.
"What if I don't want to pick?" He curiously asked
He's literally worried about the things I might felt, but It's his life and I have nothing to do with it as long as We're not official.
"It's still your decision, I won't force you to pick someone." I touched his hands. "I can wait, Rans. I can wait, you don't have to worry."
I can wait until He's prepared to love me, I can wait for the rest of my life.
And even though we're not official, He will remain special and mine.
It breaks my heart to see him suffering each and every day because of the death of his Mom. I detest myself for doing nothing and just staring from afar.
I found out that He filed a case against his dad because that greedy man just murdered his own wife.
That's when I finally had the courage to file a case regarding his illegal business. I discussed with Diana about Rans' situation and I felt relieved when She understands it.
I asked her a favor if She can tell Rans that She's the person behind the fraternity. And good thing, She did.
She told me that Her heart soften when She spoke to Rans.
That person can make a person's heart fall for him.
Except for his dad, that bastard has a ruby heart. expensive but dangerous.
I brought him to our resort and I gave as a day that we'll never forget. A day where I can show to him how much I love him.
We kissed and make out, it felt literally so good.
The rush inside was different from my past relationship or past make-out's. I was just controlling myself because my little one was getting mad, and I bet he'll bite Rans for doing it to me.
"I really love you, Rans. I really do." I confessed
I told him everything and I hope He understands.
I clicked the button as a sign to set up a table for our breakfast. I gestured him to sat down but I was unable to move when I saw Elisha with Mom.
I don't know how to react, She cried in front of Rans and Mom. And I was stuck between making Elisha feel better or to follow Rans.
Everything was so fucked up.
Mom told me that the wedding was fixed and we just have to wait for 3 months.
Elisha cried and I comforted her. Everything was settled and there's no turning back.
But why am I not doing anything? I thought I already confessed to myself that I'm bisexual and Rans is the only person that I want to spend my life with?!
Elisha cried in front of Rans and My eyes were locked with hers. I saw Melody's face and I did what I usually do when She cried.
To kiss her eyes.
I saw the pain in his eyes and when I glimpsed at Elisha, She's now Elisha, not Melody.
That's when I discovered that She's Elisha, it doesn't matter if it's Melody's eyes. What matters now is that She's Elisha.
I told her everything, She's upset and She blames herself for Melody's death. She doesn't know that her best friend gave her eyes to her.
I told her to cancel everything and I will pay for it, but She cried and immediately called Rans.
"You are excused! Just do everything to finish that freaking gown and you'll name your price after." She shouted and she ended the call right away.
I held her shoulders, "Elisha, what the hell are you doing?!"
"Just give me two days! Two days! The wedding was already fixed, don't do this to me." She kneels and cried in front of me.
I held her shoulders and I made her stood up, She shouldn't be doing this! She's making Rans rush that gown and it will lead Reya's in bankruptcy.
The suppliers might back-out because of rush orders and the employees might give up because of that.
Who would finish a gown in just 2 days?!
I already told them that there's no wedding that will be going to happen.
I'm not getting married if it's not Rans.
"Elisha--" I shook my head
She stood up and slapped me, She turned away and before She leaves, She left a word for me.
"You're going to marry me, Tony. And that's final."
I don't know but I didn't say anything, maybe I'll just fly to New York before the wedding.
I need to escape from that crazy plan.
"Pare... Si Tayler..."
I looked at Tayler, He's getting thin and there's a dark circle under his eyes. His eyes were red but He's staring at the space.
I glanced at Nick, "He's...Tayler?"
He nodded, "Definitely."
I just stare at Tayler until I satisfy myself, his clothes were ripped and I think He got beaten by the gangsters. Because knowing Tayler, He'll never let anyone belittled him.
"Pare, simula nang makuha niya ang pera kay Rans. Puro na siya bisyo at nabasa ko na wala na Sunshine, lumabas na ng manila para layuan siya." Blake whispered.
I stepped back when Tayler looked at me and He stood up, I don't know what to do and I'm afraid that I'll receive a punch from him but instead, He held my shoulders.
"Bakit... bakit lahat nalang ng tao, ikaw ang pinipili? Bakit, Tony? Bakit?!" He asked while his tears was streaming down through his face.
He's literally in pain and it's all because of me, because of me Sunshine left him, because of me his life became miserable...
"Why are you ruining yourself?"
"Nagpapakalayo lang ako sa problema, napapagod na akong maiwan." He keeps a distance away from me, "Ayoko nang gumawa ng masama! Kahit pala may pera ka, hindi parin mabibili ang kasiyahan... gusto kong humingi ng tawad... sa kaniya..."
I patted his shoulder and I slightly smiled, I talked to him with a light topic. I just want to make him feel better that's why I did it.
When Tayler calmed down, I told him to fix himself because he'll apologize to him.
We set a date for that day and we're ready to go when Blake's phone rang. His eyes were opened widely and so his mouth.
He showed me the screen of his phone and I saw Rans's name in it.
What a lucky bastard, my kween was just messaging him.
I really need to smash his phone.
He told me that Rans wants to meet them in the milk tea shop, Why am I not invited?!
I rolled my hands as I hand Tayler the gift I wanted to give to Rans. It's always in my car, just in case He'll come over or we'll talk, I'm ready to give it to him.
I was just not ready to face him because everything was not okay yet. I want to rebuild everything before I apologize and get his I love you's.
"Do your best and give this gift, don't tell him that it's from me," I said and I just watch their body went inside the coffee shop.
I opened the window of my car and I wore my sunglasses, I secretly smiled when I saw his face again.
It's still the same but He looked bit stress.
His face was so captivating, it captures my heart and my soul.
And I finally found my new obsession, it's his face...
"What happened?" I asked when they entered the car
Tayler sighed heavily and tapped my biceps.
"Mabuting tao ang nagustuhan mo Tony, ang swerte mo kay Rans," Tayler said
"He's so kind and forgiving, no doubt you love him." Nick continued
I'm lucky if I win him again and if that thing happens, I will never let him go, again.
Days passed by and I just gave my gifts to anyone I saw. I gave him a glass plaque, necklace, letters, statue, hoodie, and everything that reminds me of him.
And I just can't take it anymore, I need to explain everything to him. And I hope He'll understand.
I haven't heard anything from Elisha.
But today is supposed to be the day when She gets the gown from Rans. She texted me to meet her in the coffee shop outside the Reya's but I didn't reply. I just let her do what She wants and I saw her went outside the Reya's, holding a box of the wedding gown.
I want to help her but a part of moving on is making her feel that you don't care about that person.
I told Blake, Nick, and Tayler about my plan, they insist to help and a good thing, everything was going according to my plan.
My secretary told me that Rans went outside his house, I started to clicked Tayler's number. It will vibrate and it will be a signal for him.
They will pretend that He's being chased and knowing Rans, He'll follow them.
And just like the plan, they need to bring Rans in the open field. His car parked near the stage and He ran towards Tayler, He's shocked when He saw Nick but Nick just point his fingers to me.
I started to strum my guitar and I lean my head to level my mouth to the microphone. I started to sing the first stanza of my chosen song.
I was not even at the middle of the song when He turned his body, I was alarmed and I immediately plugged out the microphone to its cord. I just keep strumming for him to hear it himself. I walked towards him and I touched his shoulder.
If He's not willing to forgive me, can He just give me another chance to make me fix his broken heart? Just before He go...
He asked me about Elisha, I told him everything from Melody to the fraternity and up to Elisha. I can see satisfaction but still, I can see doubt.
"Tony, gusto ko okay na muna ang lahat bago maging tayo." He reminded me
I know He'll ask for it and as his other half, I'll give it to him. I want him to be happy and so am I.
"I'll remove it if you want! Fuck these eyes!" She shouted while slapping her eyes.
I held her eyes to stop what She's doing, I help her to stand up and good thing, She calmed down.
"Elisha, I'm sorry..." I sincerely apologize, "I saw Melody and not you Elisha.."
I said that made her eyes opened widely, She released from my hands and She slapped me, so hard.
"So it's my fault, Tony? It's my fault that I'm carrying her eyes, it's my fault--" She ran her hand through her hair and licked her lips.
I saw how She prevent her tears but She can't, it's visible and it breaks my heart to see her crying. Not because I'm still drowned by her eyes but because it's my mistake.
Whatever the explanations are, it's my fault and I need to fix her. It's my insanity that made her cry, it's my idiocy that made Rans cried and I need to be brave enough to fix their broken hearts.
I bit my lower lip, "It's my fault, I was deceived and I'm guilty. Please forgive me..." I whispered with my head bow down.
"Tony, it hurts like a fucking hell. You don't know how heavy is it for me to carry everything! I didn't like holding her eyes anyways! but since She gave it, I need to treasure it." She shouted and I stepped back when She threw the bottle on her side.
"I thought you really love me... and finally, someone accepts me for... w-who I am." She said between her sobs, She stepped forward and she looked straight to my face.
She looked miserable, her mascara was all over her face because of her tears, her eyes are swelling and seem tired of crying.
She put her hands on my chest, "It hurts to... expect, Tony! I-It hurts like f-fucking hell, you asshole!" She punched me but I endure it.
It serves me right, the pain I feel right now has nothing to do with the anguish I caused her.
I held her hands, "I'll bring you home--"
She angrily released from my hands, "Leave me alone,"
I was about to talk to her when She shouted for the second time.
"Leave!"
I swallowed hard and sighed, She's still in pain and I really need to fix her first. But for now, She needs to cool down.
I called her brother and I told him to fetch her sister in the bar. He immediately replied so I let Elisha sat down in the parking lot.
It is all my fault...
Despite all the things we've experienced, I still have time to enjoy every single moment with Rans. A part of healing someone's heart is to give them time, like what they said. Time heals all wounds, so I hope the time I gave will help Elisha to move forward.
I always send messages to her, just apology messages and nothing more. I don't want her to expect again from a bastard like me.
Fashion Show has already ended and I didn't tell Rans that I am the founder of the fashion show. My Mom is a lawyer while my Dad is the CEO of the popular clothing brand in New York.
He asked me to gather a fashion show to discover a lot of potential designers and so their brands. I didn't tell Rans but I invited Reya's.
It went well and He looked shocked when He saw me sitting in front of the stage. As one of the judges, I don't want him to feel that towards me.
And as a judge, I didn't take that opportunity to make him feel flattered. Actually, I didn't give him a high score, just 99.
Because I know and I believe that He can make it, that He'll win even if I gave 60. That's how my trust and my beliefs were powerful for the things He's good at.
I was just leaning my back at the wall, hands in my pocket, and eyes straight to my love.
He's currently sitting on the couch, answering all the questions He got.
I'm proud to see him in that position and I'm glad that He's happy doing not just what He wants but also what He needs.
"Congratulations, your speech made me speechless." I greet him and He immediately make-face, this cutie is driving me insane.
He didn't know how his smile made my heart flutter.
"I'm so proud of you, Son." His father said, "Or should I call you daughter?"
He can hide his smiles but He can't conceal the emotions on his eyes. He's happy talking to his Dad, He's finally healed and that's because his heart was so genuine.
My kween was so forgiving that made my heart cried out of happiness. I'm so lucky to have him, I'm so lucky to have Rans in my life.
He smiled, "Shuta ka! Pretty nalang... Daddy."
The moment He said Daddy, is also the moment when Atty. Abing burst into tears. Rans hugged him and they cried in each other's arms.
Still, the love of a son and father was there and whatever they've been through, love will conquer everything and love will always win against hatred.
It's been 3 months since I last talked to Elisha, I dialed her number and I told her to meet me in the coffee shop in front of Matthew.
I need to know if She's doing great and She's finally over me so that I can assure that her heart was fixed before I ask for Rans' permission.
What permission? Lol, I won't say.
"Elisha..." I called her name when She entered the coffee shop.
She's not hopeless anymore, She's getting more beautiful, her body was in a right state, her face is blooming and I can see happiness in her eyes.
I guess, She's... Okay?
"Elisha, I'm so--"
She cut me off
"It's okay, I'm done with you." She grinned, "You're free now.."
I blinked twice, "Really?"
I didn't know that it's this fast, I thought it will take a year to get her forgiveness.
She nodded, "Yeah, I realized my worth and I need to move on since it's a heavy one."
She patted my shoulder, "Thank you for giving me a roller coaster ride, at least at the end of it. I admit that I enjoyed it and I'm happy that you let me go. Because I met someone that made me feel special not because of her eyes but because it's me."
I'm still shocked because finally She's over and I was just so happy for her. Seeing her this happy made me breathe as a relieve, She doesn't know how her words made me happy.
"I'm letting you go, please follow what your heart wants." She smiled
"By the way," She called her friend, "This is Chanel,"
"Nice meeting you," She offered her hand and I accept it, we shook our hands and I smiled at Elisha.
Finally, She found a good friend--
"She's my girl." I blinked multiple times after what I heard.
"She comforted me and She build the broken pieces of my heart." She said and I can see how her eyes sparkled because of that.
I sighed and smiled, I'm happy that She found someone that will make her happy for real.
It doesn't matter if it's a not a guy, as long as She's happy, I'm happy too.
The door opened and I started to strum the strings of my guitar. Today is valentines day and I heard that He doesn't experience being surprised in his whole life.
So I made a plan, involving his friends and my friends, I told them to make Rans go to the place where we met.
Inside Matthew, in our deluxe house.
I got the management's approval for this, I just did a simple dinner for us, with the bouquet of tulips, the red pearls on the floor, the aesthetic design, and of course the music that will create by my beloved voice and guitar.
[play the music: Could I love you anymore.]
I started to sing the first stanza of the song I chose for him.
"Full moon, bedroom, stars in your eyes
Last night, the first time that I realized
The glow between us felt so right"
The electricity He gave has nothing compared to the spark I saw in Elisha's eyes. Maybe it's from my first love but it doesn't feel the same.
And what I felt towards Rans was all pure and genuine.
"We sat on the edge of the bed and you said
"I never knew that I could feel this way"
Love today can be so difficult
But what we have I know is different
'Cause when I'm with you the
the world stops turning."
When I'm with him, I don't see anyone but him. My eyes were automatically focusing on his fascinating smile.
"Could I love you any more?
Could I love you any more?
Could I love you any more?"
I want to ask him if He's willing to be loved by someone like me, if He's willing to give me a chance since I fixed everything.
"Sunrise, time flies, feels like a dream
Being close inhaling hard to believe
Seven billion people in the world
Finding you is like a miracle
Only this wonder remains"
Everything felt like a dream, a dream that I'm not willing to wake up.
A dream where I met someone that made my heart pound like a crazy man.
"Could I love you any more?
Could I love you any more?
Could I love you any more?"
I closed my eyes and I feel every rhythm and every lyric that is coming out in my mouth.
"Mmm
Softly, slowly
Love unfolding
Could this love be true?"
I stood up and I walked towards his position, everyone was smiling from ear to ear. While Alex and Charlotte are filming us, I'm still strumming my guitar and still singing for him.
"Could I love you any more?
Could I love you any more?
Could I love you any more?"
I stopped singing and slowly, I finished the song. I looked at his eyes and I held his hands, He's forcing his tears but it's too strong. I wiped his tears and I kissed the back of his arms.
"A-anong..." He asked between his sobs that made everyone shouts.
"Could I love you anymore?" He nodded, "Happy valentines, my kween." I said and I handed him a bouquet of tulips.
Pink tulips.
"I love you," I said and I didn't let him speak, I immediately owned his lips and I kissed him with all my heart.
"You are mine, I love you so much!" I shouted and I kissed him for the second time.
He released, "Shuta! Hayaan mo naman akong huminga!"
I laughed, "I'm sorry, madame." I caressed his face and I kissed the top of his head.
I was once a straight but not until I met someone who made me swing in both ways.
He turned me into a person I don't want to be but I don't care. As long as we're happy, I can endure all the judgment.
I'm willing to tie a knot with my kween because when I'm with him, the world stops turning.
-Tony Alexis Lopez-
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