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Fuck, what the hell was that?
Breakup sex? Makeup sex?
Whatever it was...it was good sex.
But why would I ever think to do that?
How the hell do I have so much regret yet none at all?
I feel pretty badass yet frustrated.
Both relaxed and annoyed , I ball myself up on top of my covers. Staring at the beautiful man beside me I wonder how the hell I got into this mess and why it had to be like this?
I scold myself and my feelings, after all it's my fault for letting myself fall for him, I could have had an average boyfriend, you know, one of those vanilla relationships... actually never mind those make me gag.
Guns and blood it is.
But instead, I fell for the devil himself, though I was a bit crazy myself so I guess it was an even match.
What was it? He needed someone to pleasure him and I just ran into his arms like a fucking lost puppy.
No bitch. He ran like a lost puppy.
And now what? Everything is going to go back to how it was before, the awkwardness and sexual tension?
Yeah...no sorry love Sienna doesn't work like that.
"Dominico wake your dumb ass up." I say wacking him with one of my pure white pillows.
"What cara?" (Dear) he groans annoyed.
Why does he have to call me that? It makes me stomach go all fluttery.
"You need to leave...like now." I say firmly, ignoring the feeling erupting in my stomach.
He shoots me a confused look, raising his eyebrows, which can I mention are perfectly aligned and shaped.
"Whats wrong with you now?" He sighs edging himself closer too me.
I pull back, not wanting to let his proximity effect my words or emotions.
"Dom, I can't do it again." I sigh, my voice croaky and dry.
"It may not be a big deal too you but it is to me, I can't be with you if you don't feel the same way I do. I won't put us both through that, it's not fair."
For once, it's as if he has nothing to say, he's completely speechless.
Sienna you just made Dominico Vance speechless.
Haha suck on it.
"Sienna it's not that-." He begins but I can't bare to hear the rest.
"Dom don't say it, maybe we are just not meant to be. Just leave it there before we take it too far." I warn him.
I think we have already gone a little too far.
I can't tell whether he was on the same page as me or not, his face was stone cold, emotionless just like before us. It felt like I had lost a place in his life, which deeply taunted me but I didn't let it show.
Lifting himself up from my bed he walks over to me.
I flinch slightly from the unknown, though I regret it immediately as I saw what my fear did to him.
"Don't do that. I would never hurt you." He says angry at my reaction.
To be honest, I don't know why I flinched, I mean even if he did try to hurt me I could have easily stopped it.
Sienna are you like...going soft?
No, gosh why would you say such a thing?
Gripping on my chin he lifts it up and places a kiss on my forehead, "one day." Is all he says before making his exit.
What the fuck does that even mean?
Stop being all...literature on me!
I stare as he leaves noticing he doesn't turn back leaving me to overthink, maybe this is all meaningless to him.
Of course it is Sienna.
You are just another girl...no one special.
Shut up bitch I'm very special.
Dominico's POV:
I have got my answer.
I went in there trying to figure out what it was about her that drove me so fucking insane and I got my answer.
Maybe I do love her.
That's if I even know what love is. But I don't think she can know how I feel...not yet anyway.
Everyone that I seem to 'love' ends up dead and I wouldn't be able to deal with the pain if I lost her.
Though I know that she can for sure look after herself, there's still a part of me that wants to protect her, even from myself.
What is it about her? That attitude draws me in for sure, I'd love to be the one to make her loose it.
Or her realness, she is the only girl that will ever keep it real and not just suck my dick because they think I'm hot.
Even her beauty, those hazel eyes and perfect body, her plump pink lips and pearl white teeth.
What would my mom say about this?
She would probably tell me to give it a go but of course she would, she's a sucker for romance something I clearly didn't inherit.
Deep down, my mom always knew I wasn't capable of love...not the romantic kind anyway.
I loved my mom and I love my family, hell I even love these idiots but Sienna, what I feel for her is different. I guess you could call it love but it's more than that, I'd lay out and take a bullet for her any day.
Dominico you sound like a pussy. I scold myself immediately deterring back to my hard interior.
I need to get out of this place, I need to be away from her and she needs to be away from me, I know it's killing her to see me everyday.
Pulling out my phone, I dail Carlos's number in, "bring the car round." I say before telling Adriano I'm off.
Maybe a while back in Milan will do me good.
I decide not to tell Sienna that I'm going, it probably wasn't the best idea but fuck it.
"Thanks, be safe bro." Is all I tell Adriano, before leaving the house empty handed.
My whole life I have lived half here and half in Milan so I keep everything I need in both places in case of emergency. Luggage wasn't an issue.
Jumping into the Range Rover that Carlos had brung round for me, I grip the wheel denting it with my clenched fists.
Feeling a buzz in my pocket, my focus is drawn away, I answer the phone without looking at the caller ID, honestly it's just become a habit.
"Che cosa?" (What). I say angrily.
I'm always fucking angry deal with it.
"Sorry boss...it's just we found something that might be worth seeing." The dweeb on the other line tells me.
"Speak fucking English I don't understand this code shit." I roll my eyes.
"Something has come up about the two women that you had requested a search for." He says.
Sighing, "I'll be there soon." I end the call and forcefully push my foot on the gas, heading too the warehouse. It's not too far of a drive so I should be there in 20 minutes.
This better be good.
Siennas POV:
"Oh my god you sneaky b-." Natalia comes into my room making herself at home.
Excuse me hoe? What do you want?
"What can I help you with not that I want to help you with anything." I raise my eyebrows at her.
"You and Dominico, y'all did it." She smirks.
My eyes widen, "what the fuck- how do you know?" I ask embarrassed.
"I have my ways bitch." She tells me that smirk still vivid.
"I thought these walls are fucking soundproof." I groan.
"They are...but the door isn't." She chuckles.
Fuck off.
"Don't lie you pervert." I roll my eyes.
"Well that was the last time it will ever happen because me and Dom are done and I'll be returning to the gutters." I smile sarcastically.
"Of course you will love." She rolls her eyes.
"Come on I'm bored." She says gripping my arm and literally dragging me out the room.
"You fucking child I can walk." I say following her hyper ass downstairs.
She leads me to the kitchen...great, your bored? Let's get fat.
I jump on the table top as she rummages the fridge for food.
Not long after the power rangers walk in, Adriano steals the sandwich that Natalia had just made, which earns him a smack on the face.
"Owh that hurt." He whines.
"Good." She chuckles before placing a kiss on his cheek.
I feel Aiden tugging on my leg so I lift him up into my arms.
He's a... what do you call it? Free baby?
Basically Fiorella and Christian let him wonder the house.
Bad idea, this devil child destroys everything.
"Hello bubba." I say placing a mountain of kisses on his cheek.
He retaliated by violently tugging on my hair.
Damn, love you too kid.
"Look who decided to leave their room." Christian jokes.
"Amazing isn't it." I roll my eyes sarcastically.
I notice Xavier and Diego aren't in the room.
"Where are thing one and thing two?" I ask.
"No idea." Adriano tells me.
"Where's Dominico?" Natalia smirks.
I kick her under the table causing her to groan, why does she always have to out me? Gosh!
"He's in Milan." Adriano says.
Milan? What is he doing there? Why didn't he tell me?
"What? Why?" I question.
Damn Sienna you sound to clingy.
"someone's bothered." Christian laughs.
Shut up asshole.
"No I'm not." I say jumping off the counter top and exiting the kitchen.
Once I am out of their site, I dial Dominico's number, I mean just out of curiosity.
It takes him a while but eventually he answers.
"Sienna?"
"You didn't tell me you were leaving." I ask though I can't tell how it came off as.
"Now is not a good time amore." He says.
Why? What is he doing?
"What could be so important?" My tone comes off slightly aggressive.
"Ugh fuck." I hear from the other line.
Is he...fucking someone???
"What the fuck are you doing?" I practically shout.
"Nothing." Is the response I am given.
"Oh... no, Sienna it's not what it sounds-" I cut the call not wanting to hear his load of shit.
Throwing my phone across the room I grunt and storm myself upstairs.
He's not my boyfriend anymore, I shouldn't care. Why the hell am I so jealous?
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