Sorry for not updating in forever! I was really sick but I'm better now! I hope you all had an amazing Christmas! Happy holidays to everyone!
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S i x t e e n
Going into yoga class, I expected to disappear from all my problems for a while. But the whole time I was there, I was thinking about Harry. I tried and tried to get our last conversation out of my head, but it just wouldn't leave my mind. That was the worst yoga class so far.
Driving back home, my mind is swirling with thoughts. At a red light, I let all my thoughts come forth, thinking about everything that is concerning me. I finally come to a realization and shake my head at myself. Being in an argument with Harry about something so stupid is not worth it, not at all. I value my friendship with Harry and something as silly as how old I was when I lost my virginity is not worth ruining the special bond we have.
When I park in the parking of my building complex, I jump out of my car and grab all my stuff before quickly walking back into my flat. I gently sit on my bed and open my laptop, going back on Wattpad to try to fix this with Harry.
daisyyy_: I was 18...
After clicking send, I take a deep breath and stand up from my bed. I take my time changing out of my yoga clothes and into something clean. I go to the washroom to freshening up before going back onto my bed with my laptop on my legs.
I see Harry replied and take another deep breath before taking a look what he said.
styles94: Huh?
daisyyy_: I was 18 when I lost my virginity...
styles94: Oh..
styles94: You didn't have to tell me.
styles94: I'm sorry I pushed you so much, I shouldn't have did that, Dais.
daisyyy_: No, I'm sorry for making it such a big deal, it was a simple question.
daisyyy_: I guess I am just really sensitive to any questions involving Nick.
daisyyy_: He was my first love. I did everything for the first time with him. First kiss, first dance, first date, first time loving a boy, first time making love. He was even the one who went with me to my first concert. I even had my first alcoholic beverage with him.
styles94: You guys sound perfect together. I am still sorry for bringing that question up and teasing you for not answering.
styles94: Man, I feel more of a fucking dick now.
daisyyy_: It's okay, don't apologize, please.
daisyyy_: I should be the one saying sorry. When I was coming back from yoga I was actually very sad because our friendship was on the line.
styles94: Every friendship has their lows, but I wouldn't say that ours was on the line. I think our friendship is too special to ever tear apart.
daisyyy_: I hope so because I will be torn apart.
styles94: I will be too.
Both of us say nothing, but I am left with a soft smile on my face. I am so happy that our friendship isn't ruined. I don't know what I would have done.
I just realized that Harry doesn't know how I look like, and for some strange reason I want him to. I click my profile and press edit for the icon picture. I browse through my pictures on my laptop and chose one of my pictures that I like most. I press save and take a deep breath before going back to my conversation wtih Harry.
daisyyy_: Have you noticed a change in my profile?
styles94: Let me see.
styles94: OH mygod.
styles94: Is that you?
daisyyy_: Yup..
styles94: You look beautiful.
styles94: Like really, really fucking beautiful, Dais.
styles94: See, I knew you are beautiful. I told you that I could tell.
A hard blush forms on my cheeks. My face feels like it is burning and I have to fan my face to cool it down.
daisyyy_: Stop. I'm not that beautiful.
styles94: Well you are beautiful enough to have my breath taken away from me.
daisyyy_: Stop lying haha.
styles94: I'm not. You are beautiful, Dais.
styles94: I feel like now I have to change my icon picture into something more...clear and less dark.
daisyyy_: Hahahaha
daisyyy_: You don't though.
daisyyy_: Harry?
daisyyy_: Don't tell me you are changing your icon picture.
styles94: *cough cough*
daisyyy_: You changed your icon pic?
styles94: Maybe *cough*
daisyyy_: Aww, is Harry a little nervous?
styles94: Maybe *cough*
daisyyy_: Well don't be :)
I click Harry's profile and when I look at his icon pic, my lungs seem to have stopped working. My eyebrows shoot up in surprise and my mouth lays open.
Harry is a pretty attractive guy. Beautiful smile. Nice hair. I swear his eyes are green. I also notice the amount of tattoos on his arms.
I am shocked. I didn't know Harry would be this attractive.
I go back to our conversation and I honestly don't know what to say. I am still shocked.
daisyyy_: I didn't expect you to look like that.
styles94: *cough*
daisyyy_: No,not in a bad way.
daisyyy_: You're pretty good looking. I really like your smile.
daisyyy_: Wait what.
I smack myself in the head. I feel myself blushing again and I fan my face once more. Ugh, I have how flustered and awkward I am right now.
styles94: Haha I thought you were saying that I looked ugly for a sec.
daisyyy_: Nono, you don't. Don't worry haha
styles94: Well, I'm happy we now know how the other looks like now :)
daisyyy_: I am happy too :)
daisyyy_: I didn't expect you to have so many tattoos tbh
styles94: Ahh, yeah haha
daisyyy_: Do you only have on your arm?
styles94: I have some on my shoulders, chest and stomach also.
daisyyy_: Oh that's cool! I am actually thinking of getting a tattoo, that's why I'm so curious.
styles94: Oh really now? Do you know what you want?
daisyyy_: I'm not quite sure yet, but just a something small in memory for Nick.
styles94: That's sweet. Have you decided the placement yet?
daisyyy_: I think on the back of my shoulder, not too sure yet.
styles94: That's nice :)
daisyyy_: Yeah :)
daisyyy_: So how's it going with your girlfriend?
styles94: Ehh...
daisyyy_: Still not going smoothly?
styles94: She's still upset that I moved... She really doesn't like we are not in the same city anymore.
daisyyy_: She sounds really clingy.
styles94: Yeah, she is sometimes.
daisyyy_: Like I understand how she wants you to live close to her, but this is your life. You should be able to do what you want and she should be okay with it. That's how it is supposed to be.
styles94: I agree. I didn't want to move away from her, but that's the only way for me to actually breathe again. I needed her support with my move..
daisyyy_: I may not be your girlfriend, but I have your support.
styles94: Haha, thank you. I really appreciate it, Dais.
daisyyy_: Anytime :)
daisyyy_: And you're still going about with that nickname, huh?
styles94: I like that nickname *pouts*
daisyyy_: Haha, okay fine. You can keep calling me that nickname if you really want to.
styles94: Yay! Thank you, Daisssss :)