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ale pov:
it was him,
mattia.
i saw him with someone else and when i looked closely she looked familiar but i couldn't remember who it was. i just watched, probably too long considering melanie was waving her hands in front of me.
m: hello?
a: oh uh sorry i zoned out
m: clearly now come on and play so i can beat you sucker
a: uh huh i'm gonna win so boohoo
i was distracted, too distracted playing with melanie that i kept getting gutters.
m: hey are you okay?
a: yeah why?
m: you just aren't really talking
a: look i'm sorry
m: hm but what's up?
a: i'm distracted
m: by?
i looked over at mattia again
a: hey i'll be right back
m: oh uh okay
she sat down and i left
i walked over to them and mattia's eyes widened
m- mattia
a- alejandro
AA- amelia
m: woah what are you doing here
a: no what are you doing here
m: i'm hanging out
a: who's this
m: my best friend that you met at the fair
AA: i'm amelia
a: nice to meet you...
AA: again
she laughed
i don't know why but i just did not like her
a: so are you two like dating?
AA: ew never
m: first of all jeez i'm that ugly? but no we're just friends
AA: no you're not ugly we're just friends
a: oh so he's cute?
AA: no?
m: alejandro can you stop starting problems
AA: omg this is the one?
a: what?
m: yup
a: what what?
m: that gave me the black eye dumbass
a: huh i wonder why
AA: me too
a: anyways. i have a date to go back on
m: yeah you enjoy that.
a: i will
m: while it lasts
i heard him whisper
a: what?
m: what
a: what'd you say
m: nothing relax
a: uh huh
i walked away, so mad it's like steam was coming our of my ears.
i walked back by melanie and gave her a smile
she just frowned at me
a: woah what
m: you keep acting out
a: what?
m: yeah you don't even pay attention to me when we hangout
a: w- what? no come on it isn't like that
m: your sister is the better sibling, at least she pays attention to me and what i talk about
a: i- what?
m: so what was i talking about since we got here
a: uh - t- a hamster.
m: pfft. i'm leaving
a: melanie what the hell come on we barley hung out
m: yeah maybe because your focus is on someone else
a: a friend
m: hm
a: my sister alright
m: what?
a: she's been weird with my friend and i don't want it to happen
m: how selfish.
she just walked away and i wanted to run after her but i just didn't wanna bother anymore.
i just sat there with my face in my hands
30
minutes
later
mattia pov:
i went up to ale when i saw him sitting, stressed out obviously.
m: you need a ride
a: what
m: do. you. need. a. ride.
i said, slowly sarcastically
a: no i'm good assface
m: hm weird insult but i'll see you tomorrow
a: wait why weren't you at tryouts, you're not gonna play soccer?
m: oh doctor appointment
a: kai said dentist appointment
m: oh yeah that's what i meant
a: right
m: uh see u
i walked away like a dumbass, can't even remember my own lie.
i dropped amelia off and went home, showered, then slumped.
* next day *
y/n pov:
ale actually dropped me off today, surprised he didn't pick up melanie or something. i walked into my first class physics with kairi.
i felt so bad yesterday, he's such a nice guy ever since i met him. there for everyone, kind and so much more great things. i never seen him run off, afraid. he didn't answer any of my texts which kind of scared me thinking he did something to hurt himself. he was sitting there zoning out. again.
i sat by him, hoping to comfort him.
y/n: hey...
k: hi...
y/n: um. can i check on you?
k: what?
y/n: i just. i want to know if you're okay. i never seen you run off like that.
k: oh...
y/n: you know you can talk to me right
k: um yeah...
y/n: you know if the adhd thing is true. it doesn't matter to me. i still see you as my amazing best friend.
k: oh... really?
y/n: yeah what is it supposed to change
k: the fact i'm idk annoying...
y/n: but you're not. seriously. by the way i don't know if you checked your email since you didn't text back but you got on the team!
k: oh really?
i showed him the email with the list of peoples name who got on the teams. mattias name wasn't on there and i'm thinking there isn't a way to get on there now but whatever... me and him didn't even text yesterday. sorta weird but i'm sure it's nothing.
i felt bad for kai, clearly he wasn't happy about me and alejandro knowing. i just wanted him to know it doesn't change anything between us because he was probbaly thinkjng jt was a deal breaker or something when it really wasn't.
k: hey uh can we not bring this up anymore.. i don't want anyone else to find out...
y/n: of course... can i just ask one thing...
k: mhm...
y/n: how does millie know? you even seemed shocked that she knew...
k: i dont have a answer to your question
y/n: wdym?
k: i don't know how she knows i haven't told anyone but-
he froze.
k: fuck.
he mumbled
y/n: what?
k: i've told one person.
he had his face in his hands sighing
y/n: do you think they told millie
k: i mean that's my only guess but i didn't even know the two talked
y/n: aw man i'm sorry kai
k: it's fine.. i just don't wanna talk about this
y/n: yup okay.
i just gave him a smile that hopefully hinted that i'm here for him, always. he's such a nice loving guy. he doesn't deserve anything bad, honestly.
kairi pov:
once y/n brought up how millie knew and i put 2 and 2 together i figures out who told her considering i only told one person.
my ex.
stella.
me and her met freshman year, dated.
been off and on after 2 months in the relationship.
things were so bad and toxic between us.
so i'm thinking she told millie about it, i didn't even know they talked. she moved to another school last year, leaving me here. missing her more, i had to get over her. i was slowly doing it now. but now that my brain is fresh off her memory. i just know i am going to be thinking of her, all the fucking time. great.
when i checked my phone to delete ale and y/n's messages so i could forget about the situation there it was.
her,
the text.
stella 💘
kai, i heard what happened. i'm so sorry. i just needed someone to talk too, i was vulnerable. i told her but i did not expect her to tell other people.
i read it.
broken.
i would have never done this too her,
ever.
no
matter
what
i know some of her secrets.
i have never told any of the boys, not even TIA.
then she just is so quick to expose mine, which is why we didn't work. she broke my heart so many times and here she is breaking it still even though we been broken up for three months, officially. no off and on. completely over with and done.
the boys were happy to hear that, well ale doesn't know but you know.
they did not like her, at all.
they wanted me happy and they just knew me and her were never going to be happy together.
i couldn't figure out if she was the right person at the wrong time or just not meant to be at all.
i've always questioned it and i still do.
i just want to know.
if she ever loved me, if she meant anything she's said, if anything i did meant shit to her. i'm assuming not since it's over now. i still miss her, the memories like break my heart. it still hurts me for some reason. she was the first girl i ever loved in my life as a girlfriend. my first everything, almost everything. just besides the kiss and hug.
i hates how much it tore me up, i was slowly getting over it until right now. i was overthinking like old days. this pill sucks, i haven't eaten shit. yesterday all i had was a small cup of jamba juice. that's it, the whole day.
i think the doc said it was a side effect so it can't be a major worry or issue. i shrugged off my dumbass aderall provlems and started working on the assignment we had in class. when i walked out of physics i noticed i was getting some stares.
i was praying that no one knew about the adhd thing.
my heart was beating fast, worrying. roshaun came up to me and i gulped. hoping he doesn't know.
r: dude
k: what..
r: you gotta see this
k: what is it
r: some shit about you spreading
my heart stopped i swear to god.
my throat starting hurting because i was trying not to let my voice crack.
he faced his phone towards me.
it was a pic.
of me
and stella.
a post on her spam
that got around
the caption:
"kai i miss you so much. you were my first love. my first everything basically. my boy, my baby, my best friend. i know so much downs have happened in our relationship. i wish it never did and i could make things better so we could have a happily ever after between us. i always wanted that and i still do. i love you, with all i have. i would do anything to be with you. i haven't seen you in 6 months, missing you. wishing we were together. i want to be your girlfriend, your lover, your best friend. i want your last name. i am so in love with you although we are broken up. even though he doesn't follow me. i wish he will come my way. and give me a second chance to love him. he is the sweetest boy and big hearted guy i have ever met. 🥺💖"
i read it.
almost had tears coming out my eyes, they did start. good thing i was looking down. i gave roshaun his phone back, wiped my tears and walked to my class with my head down.
hurt.
missing her, but afraid to love her again.
after all she's done.
y/n pov:
i walked into calculus to see alvaro.
with his punk ass.
i sat by him and he was reading something,
didn't know he did that.
a: bro have you checked this shit out
last time i checked i wasn't a guy but alright
y/n: what?
a: this shit about kai
y/n: what?....
a: look
he held his phone in his hand, tight.
assuming he has trust issues.
i read it even though his hand was fucking shaky.
y/n: woah kai has a ex?
a: pfft yeah everyone does
y/n: well shit not me
i said in a mocking tone
a: fucken loser
i just stared at him
a: don't tell alejandro i said that
y/n: uh huh
a: anyway shits crazy they were the fucken gossip of freshman and sophomore year now is it gonna happen junior year?
y/n: what happened between them?
a: she was a cheater and a fucking liar dude
y/n: damn..
a: yeah and it fucked kai up, at a lot of times he just took it out on us which is why we didn't like her yk?
y/n: yeah i get it
a: shits just wack
y/n: yeah seems like it