Aria
It's about that time to find out what's it gonna be so get your balloons to choose a side and everybody be outside after you get ya ballon"my mom said on the mic
I looked at ke and he was so fucking excited and this smile did not fade one bit
he pulled me into him and I laughed cause I knew exactly what he was gonna say
I hope you got ya thousand on this''he said
I hope you got yours''I said rolling my eyes
bet and the car club coming threw to bully just told me''he said and kissed my forehead
bae I cant wait I really wanna know''I said and he rubbed my butt
lets go find out cant wait to name my baby girl''he said and ran off outside
fucking boy''I murmured and my mom came over and kissed my cheek
we ready for you outside''she said and I took a breather
lets do this''I smiled
I walked outside and seen the car with what I'm guessing was the reveal car and everybody had poppers and they stood me in the middle of everything and I looked at ke and this moment felt fucking magical to me
I looked back at yosohn and he clapped while he was in the arms of bully and kairi was smiling from ear to ear my family was happy his family was happy now it's time to be happy about the gender of our baby
Ok so on the count of 10 let's set this shit off y'all ready"bully yelled
Yea"everybody shouted
The car club members reved up there engines and and felt my hand shaking from joe nerves I was
1...2..3....4....5....6.....7...8...9..10"
It's a baby GIRLLLLLL
All the pipers went up in the air and ke reved up the car and I opened my eyes and pink confetti and smoke flew up in the air I screamed with excitement and then I groaned this nigga keeeee won the damn bet
He jumped out the car and ran to me picking me up laughing and yelling and jumping
YOU GIVING ME A GIRL"he shouted and kissed me
I know baby"I smiled cheesing as they took pictures of us and the confetti
Hand me my money mama"he laughed
Here"I laughed taking it out my bra
Ohhh titty money thankyou"he said and his car club members came over dapping him up and the family ran to me exited I hugged and chatted with everybody and I was fucking excited
I heard the cars honking as they went past and I looked out at the cars that passed and seen the bright ass headlights on and the car sped off
Flashed back to the car crash I just froze up
Baby baby please don't pass out on me"ke yelled
I can't move"I groaned in pain
Baby"
Boom the car door fell and he threw it to the side helping me out the car
Baby baby baby baby"
Baby baby"ke said kissing my forehead
Yea yea"I said finally looking up at him
You aight"he said then I noticed the worry on his face
I-I-I'm fine "I stuttered and he hugged me tightly as I sighed shaking my head into his chest he felt that I knew he did it's like he could since anything wit me
Congrats dawg"joe said walking over
Thank you nigga"
He laughed hiding his worry and he kept his arm around me as he dapped joe up
Congrats lil bit so we got fire, smoke, ashes for kairi, burn for yosohn, imma call this one 2nd degree"he said to me and I smiled laughing
Thanks joe and thanks for coming wit ya silly ass"
No problem we family and dang I can't wait to see you"he said touching my stomach wit his finger
Go enjoy the party joe I think tae asked for you"
Aight boss Imma be inside"
We're the kids at"ke asked
I don't know somewhere around here"
They good ride out wit me"
Bae we can't leave"
Yea we be right back you need a breather"
Kenen
I walked her to the car and signaled to bully to buy us time and we drove off i rubbed her leg and switched to her stomach as the baby moved around a bit my baby girl knew who her daddy was
I'm tired of this ptsd shit"aria sighed looking over at me
Ion like you going threw it either"
I pulled up to the lake and got out going around helping her out
Baby what's this"
Aight so you told me to find a safe place to think right"I said as I walked her closer to the spot I always sat at
Yea"
So this my place the water falls off the rocks and shit and I be calm and I come here at my worse times even if you don't know it"
Why you bring me if this your spot"
Cause it's time I help you find peace with yourself like you did for me"
I didn't know I did that for you"she smirked and I sat down and she sat in between my legs and placed her feet in the water
That's prayer you did helped me I remember them words like it was yesterday"
Flashback
Close ya motherfucking eyes fire"
He did it finnaly and I started the prayer
I give you my worries and concerns and I ask for your guidance. You see it all, the outer circumstances, the inner turmoil. I know that you understand my life, that sometimes my heart weighs heavy with trouble. Right now I lay all these things before you. I breathe in, safe in the knowledge that I am held by grace. I breathe out, knowing that I am held secure in your arms. And I wait on you. For you are all truth, you are overflowing love, you are a beacon of hope and a fortress of faith.Lord, I choose to be attentive to your voice. May I be alert to your Spirit's guiding as I journey onwards with you.I love you father Almighty God, You reach into the darkness with hope, truth and light. Stretch out your strong hand in this situation, hold and rescue those who have suffered. Let your almighty love move mountains, cross seas and breathe life into the darkest places. Light that redeems.Light that restores.Light that heals.Light that protects.Light that saves.There is nothing higher, stronger or greater than your love. We trust in you. Amen"she said to me as tears rolled down my eyes
She hugged me tightly and that shit made me feel safe a secured something I ain't found in no one in my life
I felt like she genuinely cared about me and I'm gonna make these changes for my life and to better for kairi just hope I can keep aria along the way to
Flashback over
That day I had to change if I didn't I don't think I'd be alive today"I said rubbing her stomach
You never know how much of an effect you have on someone until they open up about it huh"she said and laid back on my chest as I rubbed her stomach
Yea but how therapy been going"I asked her looking at my watch then back down at her
Im getting there she told me when I have the flashes just tell myself it's over it's not gonna happen again"
How the one at the party happen"
I seen headlights flashing"
It's the middle of the day fuck is somebody got they lights on for"I thought in my head
I don't know but it happens to much I want it to stop"she confessed and looked down at the water
Imma give you a moment for yaself before I give you intake on ways to stop it"
What you mean"
Sit here like I do relax and think about shit that's bothering you deply cry scream kick do what you gotta do to let it out mama but I'm right here if you need me ok"
Ok"she said and I got up kissing her forehead and went to sit on the car I had a view of her so I could make sure she was good and I felt my phone vibrating
I answered and it was bully
Yo"
Aria good"
Yea she aight but you seen somebody headlights on at the party"
It's the middle of the day why the hell would somebody headlights be on"
I don't know either nigga but aria got ptsd from the crash and that shit triggered it after we found out the gender"
I installed cameras before hand in the front of this house so imma check it out"
Bet"
Aight how much more time you need me to buy"
Gimme 30 minutes we be back"
Aight"
I looked up at aria and seen her starring up at the sky she only did that when she was holding back tears and I sighed
Why the fuck I can't take this pain away from her