"Don't be sorry.. we're sorry."
Nemuri said. Shota stood in front of me than held out his hand. I sighed and reached into my pocket and pulled out the pack.
"And the lighter."
I gave it to him as well.
"That it?"
"Yes~?"
"Where.."
"In my desk upstairs.. I'll get it later.."
He walked to the trash and threw it away as I groaned.
"Your going to have to learn one way or another."
"And I'm going to be right here helping you.."
Nemuri said as she wrapped her arm around my neck.
"Thanks.."
Shota's POV
"Thanks.."
I walked upstairs and to his room. I went to his desk and looked through the drawers. There was a leather book in one.
"Hm?"
I pulled it out seeing it had Hizashi's name carved into it with gold. Is this his song book or something? I went to open it before hearing someone come up the stairs. I put it away and went through the others.
"Top left."
I opened the top left one and there it was, another pack of cigarettes. I grabbed them and stood up. I was angry even at him though I pushed it down. He shut the door and sighed.
"Go ahead. I know you didn't want to yell in front of the others."
"Your an idiot! You really think this is going to help?! Why do you think this is going to help if you've been doing it for years?!"
"I-I don't know ok?! I just did it when I couldn't stand the situation that was going on in my head."
"Hizashi, there are other ways to solve these things! Smoking isn't one of them!"
"I'm sorry.."
"I know.. and I don't know if I want to accept that."
He looked at me in surprise.
"S-Shota.."
"It's killing you.. what do you think I would have done if you would have died too?! Huh?! You think I would just be better?! You think I would just sit here and let the days go by as if everything was normal?!"
"No.."
"Hizashi! Your one of the only people I have left! Y-you can't leave me..."
I felt tears weld up in my eyes as I looked down and clutched my chest.
"P-please.. I can't lose you too.."
I felt arms wrap around me as I tired to pull away. He wouldn't let me go so I just hugged him back.
"Please.. you can't leave me like he did.. please.."
"Shota.. I'm sorry."
My face was in his chest a tears fell down my face. His hand ran through my hair trying to comfort me.
"Please.. p-promise me Hizashi.."
"I...I promise Sho.."
I gripped onto him tighter as my tears slowly stopped coming. There was a knock on the door as we both looked back.
"Alright you two, you've guys have been in there for a while. I didn't just come right in because I don't know if you guys have close on or not."
Hizashi laughed and went to open the door.
"Oh good you have close on."
"Yes yes we do."
I wiped my tears.
"Uh.. something happen?"
"No.."
"Alright.. Anyways me and the group are going to head out. You coming Shota?"
"No, I'll stay a little longer."
"Ok, love you guys! Later!"
"Bye Nem."
"Bye."
She left as he sat in the bed. I walked back over to the desk and pulled out the leather book. I went to open it but before I could it was taken from my hands.
"What do you think your doing?"
"I'm curios, what's that?"
"Nothing, stop snooping!"
He said pushing me with his finger.
"Oi! Tell me~!"
"Fine. I'll give you a small idea of what's in this, if you don't go through it ever!"
"Hm... fine!"
"It's a small just journal I had during middle school and high school. It's just a way I coped with things with my mom and stepdad back then. Before smoking."
"Please~ let me see!!"
I went to grab it before he held it over my head.
"If you can reach it~"
"Zashi!"
He laughed and dropped his hand.
"Maybe later on In life right now isn't the time."
"Why~!"
"Cause, now I guess you don't have much of a hang over since you seems fine."
"I am fine!"
"I can see that."
He threw the journal on his desk. Before I was able to grab it he grabbed my hands.
"Don't even think about it Sho."
"Awe~"
"Come."
He pulled me downstairs and set my on the couch giving me the remote.
"I'm going to head out, I need to pick up some groceries."
"Ok."
He got ready and turned to me as I flipped through channels.
"Alright I'm leaving now!"
"Ok bye."
"Bye!"
He left as I stayed glued to the tv. After a while a tried looking for my phone. That dumbass where did he put it? I sighed and walked back to the couch. I remembered he had small drawers in his coffee table. I pulled the two open seeing my phone.
"Ha!"
There was a photo book. Hm? Why would Hizashi have one of these? I pulled it out and looked at the writing. 'For the memories and for the future' I opened it to the first page. I smiled at what I saw. He kept all these..
The time I wanted this cat I saw on the side of the road..
Hizashi being confused on why I liked cats so much..
The time we made Hizashi into a hippy..
The time Oboro found out I could hang in his shirt without my feet touching the floor..
A picture of me starting college
Us getting our costumes
These two trying to be funny but just annoying me..
M-me laughing? With Oboro..
Me being camera shy
Nemuri starting college
M-me and oboro on the rooftop... who took these pictures?!
And the last two.. I set the book down in shock. This pictures should have burned.. how does he still have them? We set them on fire years ago.. I stood up and walked to the kitchen getting a drink of water. I stood there confused. Why would he want to keep them? I heard the door handle move but I ignored it and continued to think. When the door didn't open I stood in confusion.
"Dammit.."
Who's that? It was a female voice. I went to the door and opened it.
"Can I help you?"
She looked at me confused.
"Who the hell are you? Why are you in Hizashi's house?"
"I could ask you the same thing."
"Ugh, names Roxy, who are you?"
"Shota.. why are you here?"
"Shota? Whatever, I'm here to get my things."
"Your things? Who are you to Hizashi?"
"His ex, now move."
I stood in confusion and moved. I followed her into his room.
"Your going to watch me?"
"I gotta make sure you don't take anything your not supposed to."
"Listen I'm not a bad person, I still care for Hizashi, Alright?"
"Then why'd you break up?"
"He broke up with me, because he liked someone else."
Hizashi broke up with her? For someone else? That doesn't sound like him.
"Yeah I know, he's a good guy. And doesn't like to hurt people."
"Uh..."
"Sorry.. mind reading is my quirk. I can't control it most of the time."
She started putting things in a box she had brought.
"So you still have feelings for him?"
"Yeah, I don't lose feeling in a day. Hizashi also made me warm up to him for two years. It's hard to let go, but he likes someone else and I can't change it."
"Two years?"
"We've been dating for a year and know each other for a year before dating."
How come I never knew about her? Hizashi doesn't hide things.
"He hid you. Didn't know you even existed."
"Right.. mind reading.. um but why would he hide you from us?"
"Us? Oh no the rest of your friends know about me. I don't know why you don't."
"The rest of my friends?"
"Mhm, Nemuri, Tensei, Toshinori, and I think that's it.."
"Why wouldn't he tell me..."
She picked up her box and looked at me.
"Ask him, I'm pretty sure he'll answer."
"Why are you so calm?"
"What do you mean?"
"Don't you get a little suspicious when you walk into your ex boyfriend house, that's bi, and seeing me?"
"I mean I guess that means he moves on fast."
"W-what that's not whAt I meant! I mean you don't s-seem at all jealous."
She laughed and started walking out.
"Cause I'm not, you seems nice and if your dating Hizashi, good for you, if not than your loss."
She said laughing as I followed her.
"So Roxy?"
"Yes?"
"Is there something about Hizashi I should be worried about?"
"He smokes. And I think that's really all. He tends to put himself down a lot which worries me."
We stopped in the kitchen and talked. The door opened as both of us looked back.
"*Mumble* I thought I locked that..dammit.. I'm home!"
"I can see you dumbass.."
He look over as his eyes went wide.
"O-oh.. Hey~... fuck.."
He came over to us with a sigh as she dropped the bag by the table.
"I'll explain later? Roxy, do you mind helping me?"
"Nope!"
"Shota?"
"Fine."
We walked out and grabbed the groceries from his small red car. We than started putting them away. We put them away in silence before Hizashi stopped it.
"So Roxy you get everything?"
"Yep, I got my last box of little things."
"Alright."
"Why are you guys making this is awkward. I don't like it."
I said after I grabbed the small pack of ramen.
"Sorry~, mean."
I pushed him away and tried to put it in the top shelf. I heard the two laugh.
"Fuck you two.."
Hizashi took it from me and put it in no problem.
"I hate you.."
"Sure."
Me and Roxy sat down next to each other and looked at Hizashi.
"Damn. You two are scaring me.. anyways, Roxy, Shota. Shota, Roxy. Let's start for the beginning. Two years ago I met Rocky at a coffee shop. There was a girl in there that was deaf and Roxy didn't know how to sign. So I helped the girl and her able to understand. After that she asked me how much I knew. Than she wanted me to teach her how to sign. And than we kinda hit it off."
"Mhm."
"So than we started dating after a year. And I guess I never brought it up cause I didn't think you cared."
She shrugged with a smiled as I sat in confusion.
"And than other explanation. I've know Shota since we were in middle school. That's kinda it. But the reason you two never knew about each other is because~ I guess I never got to you two."
"You said you've know him since middle school, and we've know each other for two years, how did we never get to him?"
"Ouch.. I'm hurt.."
I said sarcastically. This idiot. He's kinda dumb, just look at him he's now stumbling over his words. I looked over at Roxy and saw her looking at me smiling.
"I-I mean- I guess I- I don't..."
He's really dumb, not kinda. Yeah I guess your right.. but he's cute. He has his moments..
"Oi! Are you guys talking back and fourth?!"
"Maybe~"
"Shota!"
"Hm?"
"Don't!"
"Why?"
"Cause that's mean! Include me in the conversation."
"Should we continue?"
She asked me.
"Go ahead."
"He's kinda dumb, just look at him he's now stumbling over his words."
"He's really dumb, not kinda."
"Yeah I guess your right.. but he's cute"
"He has his mom-"
"Ok ok! I get it.. I'm an idiot!"
We both laughed and he crossed his arms.
"You said."
"That's not what I thought you two were saying!"
"Whatever Hizashi.."
I propped my head up on my arm and yawned. When I opened my eyes they both were staring at me.
"Is he always like this?"
"Yeah.."
"That's crazy.."
"I know right.."
"What?"
"Your a cat.."
"Hm?"
I stared at the two in confusion as Roxy looked at Hizashi than back at me.
"You act like a cat!"
"Haha.. I get that a lot."
I said rubbing my eyes.
"Hizashi he's like a kitten!!"
"Kitten?"
"I know!"
They both laughed as I shook my head. Her phone started ringing.
"Oh shoot! I forgot I have a meeting Soon! See you two later!!"
"Bye Roxy!"
"Bye."
She grabbed her box and ran out. I looked up at Hizashi and cocked my eyebrows.
"What? She's got a good personality."
"And who's the one that has better?"
"Hm?"
He turned and got a soda from the fridge. Before he could open I took it from him.
"If you keep drinking these your going to get fat. And she told me why you two broke up."
I walked to the fridge and put the soda in and grabbed a water. I handed it to him as he chuckled.
"Right, I mean I guess I caught feelings for someone else. Even though I know they'll never like me, they made me lose feelings for Roxy."
"Must be a good looking person if they made you dump her."
I walked away as he followed. I sat on the couch and pulled the photo book onto my lap.
"Why do you have these Hizashi?"
"I didn't want to forget.."
I looked up at him.
"How do you still have these?"
"I made copies before the funeral.."
I sighed and looked through the pictures again.
"That ones my favorite.."
He pointed at one with me laughing with Oboro.
"And why's that?"
He sat next to me and smiled.
"Cause it's the only one I have of you genuinely laughing."
"What do you mean I always laugh."
"Not like that.. you were way happier with him.. you and him were prefect.."
He laid his head on my shoulder and looked at the picture.
"I miss him."
"Me too, but we can't dwell on the past."
He flipped the page and pointed at one where we first started collage.
"Smiley Shota, not smiley Shota."
He said pointing at me.
"Want me to smile?"
"Mhm! I like it when you smile."
I shook my head and closed the book.
"Maybe I'll only smile around you.."
He sighed loudly as I pushed him off of me.
"I hate you.. your annoying and loud.."
"Come on! Admit it you love my bubbly personality!"
I groaned and put the book back.
"Where'd you get that idea."
He went quite. I looked over at him to see a tear fall from his eye.
"Stop~! I hate it when you do that!"
He laughed and wiped the fake tear.
"How do you even do that! Ew.."
"Ew?! Come on! It's acting!"
"So, it's still weird how you do that.."
"Eh."
He laid his head on my lap and looked up at my face.
"Why do you always do this?"
"Cause."
I rolled my eyes and turned on the tv. He moved to watch it as I played with his hair. I made a braid in it and wrapped a hair tie I had around my wrist onto his hair. Than I heard his soft snores. Dammit.. we both feel sleep on the couch last night and went to college with back pains.