Ynoa's POV
I remained silent all throughout the meeting. Harry seemed so professional as he spoke with Roemer. They were talking about a new building that I failed to cope up. I was conscious the whole damn time. Ramdam ko ang tingin ni Harry sa akin pero nanatili akong nakatungo.
When did I last saw him? That was four years ago. I was in second year college when we broke up. Since then, I never got the chance to see him.
He became an architect after all. Last news I heard was they went to abroad after that incident. Kinamuhian ako ng pamilya niya, tanggap ko naman. I deserved all those words.
"You're no good for my son. Both of my son got involved because of you. Hindi ka pa nahiya, ipinahamak mo pa sila."
"Ma'am please."
"Leave. While I'm being nice. Leave my son alone." madiin na sambit ng nanay nila Harry.
My young heart failed to manage all the pain, frustration and hatred all at once. Alam ko din sa sarili na mas makabubuti ang paglaho ko. I smiled sadly, I bit my lip as I stared at Harry's room. The white hallway of the hospital made me feel cold and empty.
Because of me, because of me. People around me got hurt.
"Ynoa, bakit hindi na bumibisita ang nobyo mo?" tanong ni Auntie Sasha nang nakauwi galing sa school.
Dahil sa tanong niya, napaiyak na ako nang tuluyan. She isn't aware of everything. Wala siyang alam. Dahil hindi ko sinabi, ayaw ko siyang mag-alala.
Agad siyang naalarma at dinaluhan ako.
"Ynoa? Anong nangyari?" umiiling akong yumakap sa kanya. Her hug felt so warm that I cried on her shoulders for hours. Hindi na siya nagtanong pa at nanahimik habang hinahagod ang likod ko.
"Ynoa, madami ka pang makikilala na iba." bulong niya. Alam ko auntie, pero siya ang gusto ko.
Hindi niya ako kailanman kinulit kung ano ang nangyari sa amin. Hanggang sa nalaman ko na lang na umalis si Harry papunta sa ibang bansa, kasama ng kapatid.
To see him here is very unexpected. I never thought I'd see him again, ever.
"I'll just go to comfort room." Paalam ni Roemer kaya napatango lang ako.
Harry eyed me with those same eyes I fell in love with years ago.
"Ynoa, kamusta?" He smiled.
"Fine, ikaw?" kaswal kong sagot. I faked a smile. How can he be so cool? My heart hurt a little when I realized maybe he moved on. Ganun din naman ako a! Who says I'm affected! Not at all!
"I, I've seen the news, Ynoa." He uttered and looked at me with cold eyes.
"Si Zeijan yun, kapatid mo." He added.
"And? Sasabihin mo ba?" I equaled his stare.
"I will not meddle with you. I won't ask why either." He whispered.
I remained silent. He sighed and looked away. "Kailan ka pa nagbalik?" I asked. Trying to divert the topic.
"Just a week ago." He sipped water then looked at me.
"Do you know why I accepted the deal with Mr. de la Vega?" He added.
Nanatili akong tahimik. "To find you. I know that fucking psycho got out from rehab. He's now walking free righ-"
"Ano bang pakealam mo?" I cut him off.
Hindi niya ako makapaniwalang tinignan. Kita ko ang pagdaan ng sakit sa kanyang mata while I remained stoic and emotionless.
"I am not the same Ynoa years ago, Harry. I have my ways to deal with my own shits. News flash, you're out of it."
"You've changed." bulong niya, na tila ba nahihirapan siyang sambitin ang katagang iyon.
I answered my phone when it rang. Saved by a phone call. Ni hindi ko alam ang isasagot kanina.
"Hello?"
"Ynoa, can we talk?" napapikit ako dahil sa narinig. Nanginginig kong ibinaba ang tawag. I turned my phone off. Dahil sa sobrang galit ay tinanggal ko ang sim card.
"Sino yun? Is that fucking psycho bothering you?" madiing tanong ni Harry.
I swallowed hard. "He's starting to bother me. I received a call from him. Twice. And now. " I uttered.
He looked at me with so much disbelief and shock. "You should report him! Damn it!"
I laughed sarcastically. "Don't meddle with it. Kaya ko. Hindi kita kailangan."
"The last time you helped me, napahamak ka. Huwag mo ng dagdagan ang guilt na nararamdaman ko." I whispered.
He clenched his teeth, he seems to hate what I said. Nang makabalik si Roemer ay hindi na muli kaming nagkausap pa ni Harry.
Nanatili naman akong tahimik buong byahe. Ramdam ko din ang naninimbang na tingin ni Roemer sa akin.
Natapos ang araw na hindi kami nag-usap ni Roemer. Hanggang ngayon ay naninibago pa din ako. To live in a big mansion, go to work with Roemer, and go home with him.
"Dy? Are you going to sleep with me tonight?" Zeijan asked.
"I will, after I talk you your my. Okay?"
Bakit parang iba ang dating ng sinabi ni Roemer. I swallowed when I felt my heart raced. Damn it. What the hell is happening to me?
Zeijan was playing with Roemer's dad. Nagtataka namang tumingin ang nanay ni Roemer sa amin.
"Zeijan, your dad slept with you last night?" tumango naman ang kapatid ko sa ina ni Roemer.
"Nag-away ba kayo?" Dhelia asked. Nagkatinginan kami ni Roemer.
"Hayaan niyo nalang kasi sila. They can deal with their own problems." Rafael uttered.
"Baka selos lang." he added.
Natawa naman sila. Hinapit naman ni Roemer ang beywang ko sa harapan nila!
"May dapat lang kaming pag-usapan." He whispered. Halos tumindig ang balahibo dahil sa kanya.
"Next time, don't let your dad sleep with you apo." ani ng nanay ni Roemer.
"Yes, they should sleep together." Segunda ni Dhelia at itunuro kami.
"Para naman masundan na si Zeijan." Rafael laughed.
Agad na nag init ang mukha ko dahil sa narinig. Hindi nakatulong na sumabay pa si Roemer sa asaran. He's laughing while still his hands on my back.
Zeijan pouted. Para bang hindi naiintindihan ang mga pinaguusapan nila.
Nasa living room kasi sila lahat, nagyaya na manuod ng movie si Zeijan. And now, all of them are seated comfortably. I never imagined how carefree they are.
Imbes na magpahinga ay mas pinipili nilang makalaro at makasama si Zeijan. My heart felt so happy and guilty at the same time.
"Do you like him?" pambungad na tanong ni Roemer nang makapasok kami sa kwarto.
"Who?" I asked.
"That damn architect." That's when I realized he's reffering to Harry.
"Why?"
"Can you just answer it?" naningkit ang mata ko. Akala ko na kung ano ang tatanungin niya.
"Are you jealous?" natatawa kong sambit. Naalala ko ang sabi ni Rafael kanina.
"Why would I?"
I raised my eyebrow and smirke. "Yeah, Why would you?" tanong ko pabalik.
"And if I do?" he whispered. Natigil ako sa pagtawa nang makita kung gaano kaseryoso si Roemer.
Humakbang siya papalapit, hanggang sa masagi ng likod ko ang pintuan.
I laughed awkwardly. "I know you dont."
"You haven't answered my damn question, Ynoa." he whispered.
"I do. Now what?" I challenged him.
His eyes darkened even more. Halos lumuwa ang puso ko dahil sa sobrang bilis at lakas ng pintig nito.
"He won't like you." bulong niya.
"You know why?" He smirked.
"Because you're a brat." He eyed me from head to toe.
"And also, wala kang laman." He added.
My jaw dropped, my blood boiled because of what he said. Did he just insulted me? At ako? Wala daw akong laman? What a fucking pervert!
"Pervert!" I accused him. He barked out of laughter that it echoed aroung the corners of this room.
"Walang mamamanyak sayo." Insulto niya at tumawa pa.
Mas inilapit niya ang mukha sa akin, isang maling galaw at mahahalikan ko na siya.
"Kaya kahit matulog tayo sa iisang kwarto, walang mangyayari." He whispered.
Ah ganun pala ha? I closed my eyes and inhaled deeply. I reached my hands to touched his cheeks, I felt how he stiffened.
Binigyan ko ang pagkakataon na bumwelo ang sarili. I fucking headbutted him!
"What the actual fuck!!" He cursed. Tatawa tawa ako habang pinagmamasdan ang kawawang Roemer na nakahawak sa noo niya.
"Oh my! New bukol?" I teased him more.
Kita ko ang galit sa mata ni Roemer, mas natawa lang ako ng sobra.
"Ynoa!" He screamed with so much anger. Ohh such a music to my ears. I giggled.