Momo's POV
I have a girlfriend named Mina and she's the type of girlfriend that understands me when I am complicated and messy at some point..
After my mom died, I was left broken and empty. I cry every night but Mina was there beside me, looking at me without any judgment. She was there, cheering me up and wiping my tears away.
I was completely healed after my mom's loss because of my girlfriend.
But months later, another storm strucked me--- I failed to pass the Bar Exam.
I was so devastated because I had high hopes that I could aced the exam. I mourned every single night, questioning my capability as a law student.
But despite of everything, my girlfriend was still there in my darkest times.
"Cry, Momoring. Let it out. Then try it again. I know you can do it, jagi. I believe in you," she cheered as she cried beside me.
She cry with me. We just cried and cried until the pain fades away.
My mood went uphill because of her. Her beautiful gummy smile. Her angelic laugh. Everything about her is prefect
Our relationship was strong but sometimes, I became rude to her. I sometimes yelled at her if I couldn't handle my anger anymore. And sometimes I come home drunk, she's taking care of me instead of getting angry. She's cleaning my mess when I throw up. She saw the ugly parts of me but she still stayed.
"I love you so much Momoring even if you yelled at me, even if you disappoint me sometimes, even if you get angry at me, even if you were being rude, manipulative, distant, bitter, angry at the world, I will still stay and embrace the ugly parts of you because that's what love all about. To stay even if the situation is worst," she whisper to me and hugs me tightly.
My heart moved and my eyes started to heat up.
She's the most perfect girl for me
I can see many reason for her to leave me..
She loved me at my worst and still chose to stay.
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Years passed, for the second attempt, I passed the Bar Exam.
Finally, I am now a certified lawyer.
Mina and I were been together for already four years and our relationship went smoothly.
Not until...
"Bro, look at Sana's DP." Jeongyeon said and I look at Sana's DP, she's Mina's workmate and I almost lose my sanity with what I saw.
Mina was naked while sleeping with another girl
I balled my fist in anger and pulled my hair.
Fuck!
The though of Mina with someone else in bed, naked made my blood boil.
I want to explode in anger. I want to hurt someone. I want to destroy everything because of the pain I'm feeling right now.
Mina's photo with another girl become viral im social media and I suddenly felt disgusted of her .
I go to to our shared condo immediately and I harshly pack ny clothes. Planning to leave.
I try not cry because of the pain I'm feeling right now. But when I remember that picture if Mina, with someone else. I can't help but to break down and cry.
The door suddenly open. Revealing Mina.
I glared at her. "FUCK YOU, Mina! HOW DARE YOU TO HURT AND FOOL ME!" i couldn't help but to raise my voice at her. I saw her close her eyes tightly and bit her lips
"P-PLEASE LET ME EXPLAIN... MOMORING..." she tries to hold my hands but I push her away
"Put your hands away from me, Mina. You're disgusting!" I shouted at her as she keeps on crying
"I was sabotaged, Momo. You know that Sana is obssessed with you and she will do anything just to ruin our relationship!" she shouted back, still crying.
"And... And nothing happen butween me and Dahyun because even if I was drunk that time, I still remember you!"
"PLEASE MOMO... L-LISTEN TO ME!" she said begging to me
"I LOVE YOU VERY----"
"DON'T YOU FUCKING SAY THAT WORD WHEN YOU SLEPT WITH ANOTHER GILR, MINA!" I shouted at her.
"The fact that you were naked while sleeping with another girl is considered as cheating, Mina. You cheated on me!"
"B-BUT NOTHING HAPPEN BETWEEN US, MOMO. NOTHING!" She said almost kneeling down in front of me.
"Please I'm begging you, Momo. Don't leave me"
She holds my hands and I was surprised when she kneels infront of of me.
"P-Please.... I'm begging you Momo. Don't leave me. I-I can't take it..." she said almost out of breath because of too much crying.
"Even if I lost my dignity, I'll kneel down and begged for you , Momo---"
I coldly look at her and I just laughed
"You already lost your class, Mina. It's dusgusting!" I said calmly but sternly
"Your dignity was already stained with filth. My image will be taint if they knew that my girlfriend is a slut! A whore!" I shouted
She immediately stand up and look at me. And with that her palm made contact with my cheeks.
Her lips and and hands is shaking while looking at me.
"HOW DARE YOU TO CALL ME LIKE THAT, MOMO! TAKE BACK EVERYTHING YOU SAY!" She punched me in my chest repeatedly and I could feel the hurt in her.
"I THOUGHT YOU'LL UNDERSTAND ME. I THOUGH YOU'LL HELP ME!" she just keeps on crying.
"I SWALLOWED ALL THE INSULTS I HEARD FROM MY WORKMATES AND I READ IN THE SOCIAL MEDIA. I ENDURE ALL THE PAIN. BUT I COULDN'T BELIEVE THAT THE PERSON I LOVE THE MOST WILL JUDGE ME TOO---"
She took an air.
"THIS IS HOW LOW YOU THINK OF ME. JUST BECAUSE YOUR A LAWYER NOW?"
I look away from her and I try my hardest not to cry.
"HOW DARE YOU TO TREAT ME LIKE THIS! I HATE YOU MOMO! I HATE YOU!" I just let her punch my chest
"YOU KNOW ME MOMO. YOU KNOW I WON'T DO THE THINGS YOUR ACCUSING ME. I LOVE YOU SO BAD MOMO." she shouted
I look at her coldly and hang my head low
"I'M SORRY BUT I MADE UP MY MIND--- I'M BREAKING UP WITH YOU, MINA. WE'RE OVER!"
And I heard her sob even louder and fall on her knees
"I LOVED YOU AT YOUR WORST MOMO. I LOVED YOU TO THOSE TIME THAT YOU'RE SO BROKEN. I WAS THERE FIXING YOU---" she clench her chest.
"AND NOW THAT I AM IN MY WORST---YOU LEFT!"
She just keeps on crying
She covers her mouth while sobbing uncontrollably
I saw her turn her back against me and walks away still crying her heart out
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Its just a day since me and Mina broke up. The pain is still their.
I was in the middle of work when one of Mina's friend call me while crying.
I immediately go to her. I feek like my chest become heavy.
"M-momo... M-mina..." she couldn't finish what she's saying
"SHE POISONED HERSELF..."
I feel like I become deaf and the world stop spinning because of what I've heard
No, no, no, this can't be happening.
I immediately go to the hospital. I was infront of Mina's room and I couldn't help but to cry out loud. I couldn't care less if someone saw me.
I won't forgive myself if something happen to her. My anger control my mind and I know Mina can't do that thing to me.
I know Mina but fuck!
What did I do!?
I judged her. I throw hurtful words at her
FUCK!
I cry more when I remember how Mina cheers me up when I'm at my breaking point. How she makes me happy on the time that I was so sad and down.
She understand me.
Mina saw all my flaws and imperfection. She saw the broken parts of me but she accepted me wholly.
She saw the ugly parts of me but she still stayed.
If something bad happen to her. I won't forgive myself
"Are you the guardian of Myoui Mina?" the doctor suddenly appear beside me
"Y-Yes..."
She shakes her head. " We did everything to save her but I'm sorry, she was dead on arrival after intaking a poison."
N-No...
I feel like someone just dumped a cold water to me and my whole world crash
My tears suddenly fell down
"And the baby she was carrying was also dead, ma'am. I'm sorry for the loss of your girlfriend and you child."
I feel like my feet is glued to the ground.
"W-WHAT?!"
"The patient was already five months pregnant."
I feel my whole world collapsed infront of my eyes.
I DIDN'T JUST LOST MINA BUT ALSO OUR BABY.
My tears just keeps on falling down while hugging Mina's body
FUCK!
I LOST THE TWO IMPORTANT PERSONS OF MY LIFE FOR ONE DAY!
MINA DOESN'T DESERVE THIS!
I HOPE I'M THE ONE THAT DIE
If I only understand her situation. If I only I help her.. This wouldn't happen
Its too late when I realized all the things she did for me..
She loved me at my worst but I forgot her at my best---
And now that she was in her worst state--- I left her
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