*recap*
- I love you so much, Payton said catching his breath and caressing my face
- I love you so much more, I said cuddling with him, thank you for tonight, it was amazing.
- Trust me you were the best, you got em skills, he said smirking
I laughed and closed my eyes, slowly drifting off to sleep...
*end of recap*
I woke up and last night came in my head. Omg, I had my first time with the boy I love, could my life get any better? I laid my head on his chest and stared at the most beautiful boy I have ever seen, I started playing with his soft hair and I felt his him hugging me tighter. God, he is just so precious. It was almost 12 pm and I know he sleeps in but I decided to wake him up by kissing him, he immediately kiss me back and I said
- You weren't even sleeping?
- Nah, I just wanted to see what you do when I am asleep, he said laughing, I don't mind waking up like this for the rest of my life tho, he said then started kissing me all over my face while I was giggling.
He kissed me on my lips pulled away and said:
- I almost forgot to tell you, tonight we're going on a date
- where are we going?
- I might or might not got us tickets to a Billie Eilish concert
- Holy, Payton, you didn't, I said while I hugged him tight
- I'm the best boyfriend ever, what can I say
- You actually are! Can we watch Netflix until we have to get ready?
- only if we cuddle, he said laughing
We were cuddling and watching After. At the middle of the movie, Payton was playing with my hair, I looked up at him and he was staring at me.
- What? I asked him
- You are so damn beautiful
- I love you, Payt
- I love you too, y/n
- But I don't deserve you... I said whispering, thinking he wouldn't hear
- y/n, stop saying things like that, if anything, I am the one who doesn't deserve you
- you are amazing, you are sweet, kind and you are just perfect, everyone loves you
- yeah, but I only love you y/n
I grabbed his face and started kissing him, he was playing with my hair and if I could choose to feel something for my whole life, I would choose to feel his kisses. Those kisses I can't stop thinking about, those kisses I kept dreaming about for years, those kisses I would never have thought I would feel. I'd give my life for him (me too sis, me too). We continued on watching the movie and then we went to get ready, my look:
*pretend the beanie is Billie s merch*
And I wore the oversized shirt with some high thigh boots, kind of an Billie and Ariana inspired outfit. I got a black bomber jacket and I looked at Payton who was dressed in:
- Matching with my baabe, I say as I went to hug him
- You look stunning
- You look handsome, I said when he grabbed my hand, kissed it and said:
- Shall we go, m'lady?
- Yessir
- Asap Rocky? Is that you? Payton said laughing
I grabbed his hand and intertwined our fingers, he smiled at me and we walked to his car. The whole time while he was driving, Payton had his hand on my thigh, grabbing and playing with it. Kind of a turn on but I brushed off the thoughts. We got to the concert and he bought the tickets as close to the stage so we were in the first lane, I was soooo excited. PAYTON IS THE BEST BOYFRIEND YOU COULD ASK FOR AND HE IS MINE. There were a lot of girls behind us and they were whispering things like: he's so hot, what is that ugly bitch doing with him, eww she's so ugly, I would smash him, he's famous and he's just gonna play her.
I let go of Payton's hand and turned around:
- I came here to have fun with my boyfriend so can you shut it? He is mine. I don't care what you think about him or about me, I won't let you talk about him while I'm around.
I grabbed Payton's hand and he grabbed my waist and kissed me.
- That was hot ngl, Payton said while kissing my forehead
- I love you so so much
- I love you more
Billie got on the stage and I started going crazy and screaming and oh my lord, fan girl moment. She was so frickin beautiful like wow. She started singing and I was singing every little word with her, she looked and smiled at me a lot of times. Payton looked happy too, every time Billie looked at me, he was holding me tighter and he was kissing my head. I feel actually complete, I love him with all my heart, he is a keeper and the best thing that has ever happened to me.
Billie announced a surprise she has for us and Ariana Grande came on the stage. At that moment I started tearing up, Payton told me he has a surprise for me and right after that Billie and Ariana came to me and took my hand to get me on the stage with them. They told me that they have talked to Payton and he told them that I can sing so I'm gonna sing with them on the stage.
Billie and Ariana have a song together and we all jammed on it (I really want this to be true), it felt like we've known each other for so long. After that, it was just us being happy and Payton who was the one that made me feel the most loved girl in the world. I asked Billie if we could sing No time to die together and of course she said yes.
We were a pair
But I saw you there
Too much to bear
You were my life
But life is far away from fair
Was I stupid to love you?
Was I reckless to help?
Was it obvious to everybody else
That I'd fallen for a lie?
You were never on my side
Fool me once, fool me twice
Are you death or paradise?
Now you'll never see me cry
There's just no time to die
Payton looked like he was thinking about something, a mintale maybe? Anyways, after the song finished I asked Ariana if we can sing Boyfriend together and we were like:
I'm a motherfuckin' train wreck
I don't wanna be too much
But I don't wanna miss your touch
And you don't seem to give a fuck
I don't wanna keep you waiting
But I do just what I have to do
And I might not be the one for you
But you ain't about to have no boo, 'cause
I know we be so complicated
But we be so smitten, it's crazy
I can't have what I want, but neither can you
You ain't my boyfriend (boyfriend)
And I ain't your girlfriend (girlfriend)
But you don't want me to see nobody else
And I don't want you to see nobody
Payton came on the stage and got a really pretty ring out:
- I promise to exchange this one for an engagement ring one day so, y/n promise to be my girlfriend and future wife one day? Payton said kinda nervous
- Omg! Yes I promise I said excited
Payton cupped my face and kissed me. Everyone cheered and Billie and Ari were awwing at us. We sang seven rings and Billie and Payton were being crackheads in the back and it was really funny. We thanked our public and went into the backstage. Me and the girls exchanged numbers and promised to keep contact. When we got home, we ordered some McDonald's and watched some Netflix.
- Payton, this was the best date ever, I'm friends with my idols because of you and I get to call you mine by all means.
- I meant everything I said to you y/n, I love you
- I love you too, Payt, I said and cuddledu up with him
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I'll try to update more often now that I have to stay home, I love you all and please stay home and take care of yourself. ❤️