Question 1:
"Can you describe to me how you are feeling right now?"
"Pain."
pain
/pān/
noun
physical suffering or discomfort caused by illness or injury.
"I'm tired of going through the same damn thing over and over it's like nobody is listening!''
Question 2:
"When you see him with other women how do you react?"
"Jealousy."
jeal·ous·y
/ˈjeləsē/
noun
jealousy; plural noun: jealousies
the state or feeling of being jealous.
"You always want to give those bitches what you and I worked hard for!''
Question 3:
"When feeling rebellious or feeling the urge needing to get back what do you feel?"
"Like a rebel."
reb·el
noun
/ˈrebəl/
a person who rises in opposition or armed resistance against an established government or ruler.
"Wanna keep thinking shit a game with me I'll show you what you been wanting!"
"Mrs.Blaine I'm not understanding why you're asking me all this"
"Then maybe you're not understanding that everything that is caused around you does not deserve a reaction...we as human have to make smart choices nowadays. Yes we have our trials and tribulations ,but that does not mean to cause an uproar every time"
"Monica Noelle you're a very beautiful and intelligent young woman . At this point of time you're playing fire with fire, and it is not looking good for you..".
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Summer 2016-Miami,Florida ~Hampton Inn~
Monica Pov
"Ugh! Shayla could you please hurry up? You know I wanna go to the Hyde pool party over at south beach" I exclaimed to my best-friend who is taking a long time to get dress
"Okay now Monica you do not have to be so extra sweetheart....time is beauty. And who knows my lil sugar daddy could be there waiting for me to rub his stomach or something." She says with a shoulder shrug while putting her lip gloss on
"Also you can find a man or something and get out of this depressed ass stage over Dallas."Shayla says while popping her lips and closing her lipgloss
"Umm first off heifer I'm not in a depressed ass stage...and secondly I left him alone. I'm doing what's best for my mental health I went through hell with that boy" I say as I grabbed two towels and the keys
"Oh trust me baby I know. Ohh how I remember blasting Jasmine Sulivan "I'll bust the windows out your car" and you scary bitch you never busted windows out of the car"
"Everytime we were close you had an excuse"Shayla says with a now upset face
"Shayla now is not the time I really want to go out and enjoy myself and not worry about the past" I say while rolling my eyes
"Mhm whatever we'll talk later impatient ass" she says while grabbing her few items and we left out the room
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Hyde Pool Party @ South Beach
One dance by Drake
Baby, I like your style
Grips on your waist
Front way, back way
You know that I don't play
Streets not safe
But I never run away
Even when I'm away
Oti, oti, there's never much love when we go OT
I pray to make it back in one piece
I pray, I pray
"Girl you were hype about this lil shit that we had to pay $20 dollars each for bitch ew...I'll rather be at Miami beach you know the fraternities and sororities be down there ready to hit they line when "Wipe me down" start to play" Shayla say with a disgusted face
"It's not even that bad Shay look right over there" I pointed to the people popping bottles and letting champagne go everywhere and making the others go crazy
"As you can clearly see because you pointed...where in the blue light hell do you see any of our people?"
"Why do you have to be a damn optimist about everything Shay?" I asked with a now discouraged look on my face
"I'm not being an optimist Mo you can clearly see that this is really not our type of party look right there bitch done took her bikini off and showing pink titties...AYE STOP SHOWING YOUR PINK TITTIES!"Shayla yells out grabbing a few people attention
"Stop it Shay...okay how about this we can go to Miami beach you picky hoe" I say finally giving into the mini tantrum she was having
"Thank you ma'am now let's go get our money back"
"Umm about that it's non-refundable"
"MONICAAAAAAA" She yells my name grabbing the attention of others again
"Sorry I'll pay you back I promise"
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Miami Beach-In South Florida
Wipe me down By Boosie
'Cause I'm on (wipe me down)
'Cause I'm on (wipe me down)
'Cause I'm on (wipe me down)
'Cause I'm on (wipe me down)
'Cause I'm on (wipe me down)
"Ohh yes baby this right here...I can get down with this!"Shay says excitedly while putting her hands on her hip
"And here's the gag...it's free we didn't have to pay $20 dollars at all ahh"
"I see you're not gonna let this $20 dollars thing die down. Huh?"I asked with my hands now crossed over my chest with a raised eyebrow
"I'll take the no for 200."she says while shrugging and walking off to party with random guys
I laughed and looked around to get a comfortable feeling of my surroundings
As you looked you can see the Deltas and AKAs strolling following along with Zetas and Sigma Gamma Rho
When looking in another direction the Q-Dogs are showing out as usual and Kappa Alpha Psi not too far behind them
As I was still observing I noticed a chocolate man. His height is roughly between 6'1 or 6'2. He had a bright smile when smiling. He had on some cargo shorts with no shirt and had his bare feet in the sand.
I didn't notice how hard I was staring until he was half way from where I was standing
My body was saying to run or even walk away. But my feet were saying stay and see where this may go.Then again I recently got out of a bad relationship and I don't want to rush into anything else
"Hi beautiful you come here often?" He asked with a cocky smile showing his dimple in his left cheek and making me chuckle
"Well handsome this is actually my second time here. And I can say I'm enjoying myself." I say with a slight smile
"What I don't believe that. A beautiful woman like yourself should be out more and showing off that pretty face of yours." He says as he compliments me. Making my chubby cheeks rise
"Well Mr..."
"I'm sorry Malcom."he says while extending his hand
"Monica but everyone calls me Mo"I say as I accepted his hand gestured while smiling
"So Monica I'm guessing you're not from around here with it only being your second time here."he says while putting his hand in his pocket
"Well yes Malcom you're right I'm not. I'm originally from Midtown Manhattan. But I moved to Atlanta when I turned 18 with my best friend Shay." I say while shrugging
"Eighteen?....that's pretty young. May I ask why so young?"
"Well let's just say toxicity is very strong in my family and plus I was told if I left I better not come back or call for nothing. But let's just say God has different ways of continuing to bless me." I say with a half smile
"Damn I'm sorry to hear that."
"No don't be. I don't expect you to feel sorry for a stranger. Plus everything happens for a reason."
"But still no teenager who just entered the Adult world should be placed into the Adult world without as of much knowledge."
"It may seem like "I didn't have as much knowledge" but trust me when you go through so much you tend to grow up fast."
"Damn lil mama I didn't mean to offend you on what I said it's just tha-"
"No you didn't offend me at all. It was nice meeting you Malcom" I say with a quick smile and walked off to find Shay
About time I found her she with a Q-Dog barking at him with a red cup in her hand
"Come on Shay baby I think we had enough partying for today" I says as I grabbed her hand and giggled
"Oh Mo come on I'm just getting started boo"
"Well although it may seem you have just started you need to finish you kinda wilding"
"Booooo you're no fun....let's hit up that first party we went too"
"Now I know you drunk because you forgot we had to pay $20 dollars to get in"
"Boooo you're still no fun" she says I laughed at her and carefully grabbed her so she wouldn't trip on nothing
As we were walking back to the car I heard someone calling my name making both Shay and I head turn
"Monica wait up I wanted to apologize again and give you my number."He says as his little jog went to a halt
"As I said before no need to apologize I promise I didn't feel any way of what you said. Trust me I've heard it before." I say while trying to help a drunk Shay in the car
"Well can I give you my number or can I get yours?"
"Girl get that n-number before I doooo."Shay says drunkly and smiling from ear to ear making both Malcom and I laugh at her
"Give me your phone." I instructed to him and he immediately pulled it out
"Here. Call me anytime" I told him as I gave back his phone
"So does that mean we good right?" He asked with a smile
"Yes Malcom we're good I promise no hard feelings" I say as I got into the car and cranked up and was getting ready to pull off
But before I got to far I waved bye to Malcom and continue to drive out of the parking lot
"Who was that man Ms.Celie?"Shayla asked while doing a slight hiccup
"Well Ms.Sofia he is a guy I met while we were at the beach" I says as I continued to drive
"Mhmm I gotta throw up."she says while slumping to the window
"Shay no!" I exclaimed as I was pulling over and she threw up all over my car
"Damnnn Shay!" I say yelling while getting upset
"Sorry."she says while opening the door and throwing up more
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Back at the hotel ~Hampton Inn~
"Sorry for throwing up in your car MoMo you know I didn't mean it. I love you so so muchhh. You're my bitch...bitch."she says while crying over the toilet and I held her hair
"Alright too short I think it's time to get you cleaned up for bed." I says as I helped her up into the bath I ran for her while she was puking
As I was helping her I heard my phone ding
Ding
When I looked over I saw it was an unknown number that texted me.After helping Shay into the bath I checked my phone
305-298-0758:Hey Beautiful!
Monica❤️: Hey Handsome? Malcom right?
305-298-0758: Of course. You weren't expecting it to be someone else lol
I laughed at his message and saved him in my phone
Monica❤️: Lol no! I honestly forgot I put my number in your phone. How has your night been so far?
Malcom👍🏽: Good now that I'm talking to you
Monica❤️:Aww you're too sweet
Malcom👍🏽: yeah I'm a little smooth guy or whatever lol
Monica❤️: Definitely!
Malcom👍🏽: I know you're tired of me apologizing but I really wanna apologize again
Monica❤️: Malcom I promise it's okay. I'm not stressing it. The only thing I'm stressing is getting puke out of my car
Malcom👍🏽: Are you okay?! Do you need me to get something!?
Monica❤️: No no you're fine it wasn't me that puked
Malcom👍🏽: let me guess "Girl get that n-number before I dooo"?
Monica❤️: indeed it was her lol. But is it okay if I text you tomorrow I'm kinda in mom mode lol
Malcom👍🏽: Of course. I'll call you tomorrow beautiful if that's okay with you
Monica❤️: That will work handsome.Goodnight
Malcom👍🏽:Goodnight
"Mooo to the I to theeee" I heard Shay singing out
"I'm coming crazy!"I say as I got off the bed and went to check on her
That night I helped Shay out and got her prepared for bed while I did my nightly routine. I didn't put on my night clothes just yet . I put on some comfortable shorts and a short white fitted shirt with my sneakers.I decided I wanted to take a walk on the Miami boardwalk
As I was leaving I grabbed a key card and left out
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After a good 10 or 15 minute walk I decided to go the little bar to get to see if they had any water or anything just to quench my thirst.
As I was about to get my drink I heard a familiar voice and giggle. When I looked over it was my sister with my ex-boyfriend that I recently broke up with not even 3 months ago. With rage I stormed over to them
"Really this what the fuck we're doing now!" I asked while throwing my drink on them
"Damn Monica what the hell is wrong with you!"Dallas asked as he stood up quick
"What's wrong with me?! What's wrong with you?! You're literally sitting up here with my sister and acting like nothing is wrong. And where's the loyalty with you ?!" I semi-yelled to my sister Jelissa and Dallas
"Mo it's not even like that" Dallas says with his hands rubbing over his face
"It's not like that Dallas?! When you just proposed to me yesterday!"Jelissa my sister says as my heart broke
"You told me you weren't ready to fully commit. Then you turn around 3 months later to getting ready to commit to a marriage?! And on top of that to my sister? You know what I'm glad I saw my worth and realize I was not the one for you. I'm glad God opened my eyes to show me the true colors of you two."
"And you. You were there when I was going through my breakup with him. You even told me to leave him alone because you could see I was not myself anymore. Just for you to turn around and to be getting ready to marry him. Just like your damn mother and father. Useless and disgusting!" I say as I walked off with tears coming down my face
I'll be damn if I continue to keep crying. I've cried enough.That was a way of God showing me a bigger sign I missed or even tried to ignore
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The next day~leaving day~
"So you mean to tell me this motherfucker is in a Miami with that trifling bitch right now!"
"Yes Shay I done told you the story like 7 or 8 times already."
"Okay and? Everytime I think about it I get pissed off. Now it has me thinking was she fucking with him y'all whole relationship. I'm sorry Mo this has to be said."
"Stop giving people the okay to do you wrong. You're still human boo. Stop trying to walk around with a smile on your face when deep down you're hurt! Monica every since I've known you...you have been the same. You put others before yourself. You will make sure your worst enemy is good before you are and that's not okay.Your heart is so big you will allow pretty much anything to slide. Baby they're times you have to fight!"she says while grabbing my hands
"I can't fight anymore Shay"I say with tears now coming from my eyes
"I've heard soldiers and warriors say the same thing and they have fought to see another day. There is no such thing as can't. You're a strong beautiful and smart woman with a big head .You don't have all that head on your shoulders for nothing" she says while making me laugh
That's one thing about Shay. She knows how to make someone laugh in a serious situation.
"Babes there is no need to cry. You have a special gift and a big heart. A lot of people take that for granted. You're not a toy. Don't let just anyone play with you until you're not worth playing with anymore. I Don't want you end up how Andy did woody."she says as we both laughed
"I love you Shay you're such an amazing friend. I love you boo."
"I love you more girly."she says as we hugged
"Okay now stop crying this is our last day and you know I'm ready to turn up. Woop woooppp!"she says while getting up excitedly
"Well after we finish getting done packing."she says while getting the rest of her things and I wasn't too far behind her
Until I got a call from Malcom
"Hello" I answered on the first ring
"Hey beautiful I was wondering if we could hang out today. I could show you around Miami and we can go out to eat later. My treat." He says with a slight chuckle
"Aww I would really love that Malcom but today is my last day in Miami. I leave like in like 3 hours."I say with discouragement in my voice
"Awww man really?! Well can I at least take you out for breakfast and we hit up the outlet to shop at different stores?"he asked me
"Yeah boo we would love that a lot. What place got good breakfast?"A nosey Shay says into the phone making both Malcom and I laugh
"I'm so sorry about her she is the definition of no filter and being nosey."I say as we laughed more
"No no it's fine. Tell her we can all meet at Sasha's Chicken and Waffles. Is that okay with you two?"he asked
"Of course boo we will be there shortly!"Shay yells making us both laugh at her again
"Well I'll see you in a few sir."I say with a smile as if he can see me
"Alright then. See you later beautiful."he says as I heard the line go dead
"Girrlllll you better get with Mr.Tall Glass of
Chocolate milk before I do!" Shay says as I chuckled
"Continue getting ready crazy so we can go and not have him waiting."
"Mhmm you right because I don't want that piece of chocolate to melt."
"Bye Shay continue packing and getting ready."I say as I threw the pillow at her head making us both laugh
Well at least while I'm here I'm gonna make my last day the best day
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Sasha's Chicken and Waffles~10:02 AM
I'll be good by Rene and Angela
I'll be good, good, good, good
I'll be good, good, good, good
Flash, we meet
Passin' in the streets
Words unspoken
Silence unbroken, hey
As Shay and I walked inside we could hear the ding acknowledging others we have enter
"Hi how many for your table?"A mid height brownskin girl with a beautiful smile asked us
"Hi we're actually here to me-
"Monica over here!"I heard Malcom call out
"Him."I pointed and we laughed
Shay and I made our way over to the table Malcom was sitting and also he was accompanied by a friend of his
"Hey Monica!"Malcom says as he gets up and hugs me
"Hey Malcom! This is my best friend also like my
sister S-"
"Shay?!" The random guys says as he now stood up
"Jermaine?!"she replied back with and he nodded with a smile
"Oh my god!! How have you been?!"Shay says as she hugged him
"I've been good mamas been making it day by day. And you wow! Still look amazing as usual. How are you!"he asked her with his arms crossed across his chest
"Ohhh! Just single ,ready to mingle .and be somebody's jingle."She says with a slight smirk making us all laugh
After the laughter died down we sat down at the boof and it was a little awkward silence to follow afterwards
"Oh I'm sorry! Monica this is Jermaine. You probably do not remember him but he stayed in our neighborhood back in Manhattan."she says as memories start to come back to me
"Oh wait! I know not! Little peanut? Glasses,with braces and the Bobby Brown slight cut fade?"I asked and he chuckled and nodding confirming everything I just said
"Yep the one and only. Mo how have you been?! I promise I didn't recognize you. I always saw you with Dallas.How is he "he asked and I saw Shay put her hand over her face
"Did I say something wrong?"he asked when he noticed my facial expression change
"Umm Dallas and I broke up 3 months ago."I say with a slight shrug
"Oh shit Monica I promise I didn't know! If I did I wouldn't have asked."he says with a little discomfort on his face
"No it's okay. It's been years since we last saw each other so I wouldn't expect you to know."I say and he nodded
About time I was about to start conversation with Malcom the same girl from earlier came to our table with menus
"Hello everyone my name is Des I'll be your server today. Can I start off with drinks for everyone"she says as she placed down our napkins with the utensils wrapped inside.
Afterwards she took out her notepad with a pen to write down our drinks
"Water"
"Water with lemon"
"Make that two water with lemons"
"Sweet tea please"Malcom says
" I should have known you were gonna be different from everyone Uncle Malcom ."Des says making us chuckle
"Whatever Des. Auntie Angie makes the best sweet tea down here in Miami."he says and she laughed
"Mhmm whatever. Do you all know what you want or do you want more time"she asked
"We're ready" we all say in unison
Des wrote down what we all had wanted
"Okay I'll be back shortly with your drinks. And your food should be out in about 20 or 25 minutes."she says while taking our menus and walking off
By that time Shay and Jermaine went into their own conversation
"So I'm guessing this is your family's restaurant?"I asked Malcom and he nodded
"Absolutely! I had to let you taste some good food before you left."he says with his hands up laughing
"Is Sasha your aunt or cousin?"I asked him and shook his head no
"Sasha is my twin. She is older than me by 3 minutes. Destiny also Des is her daughter."he says and I nodded
"Oh wow! That's amazing to own a successful business. And a restaurant at that."
"You're right about that. Things weren't easy getting this place up and running but to see how far she has came.Makes me so proud of her."he says while smiling and looking around
"As you should be. I don't know her and I'm proud of her. It makes me happy to see our people winning and being so successful!" I say with a smile
"I can agree with you on that. So Monica what do you for a living?"he asked. Just as I was about to answer Des came with our drinks
"Okay here's a water with lemon. And another one.
A regular water and a sweet tea. You all food should be out shortly!"she says with a smile and walking off
"She's such a sweetheart. But to answer your question. I'm a Registered Nurse down at Northside Hospital. And on the side I have my own clothing line called "Noelle's Secret Touches" I say and he looked at me impressed
"Wow! I'm impressed. You out here doing the damn thing! Girl you need a pat on the back and round of applause "he says while clapping and I patted myself on the back and taking a sip of my water
"Thank I really appreciate that! What about you handsome?"I asked him and he took a sip of his tea making me chuckle
"I am an attorney at Mckoy's Law and Order ."he says and my eyes buck and also catching Shay out of her conversation with Jermaine
"Wait did you say Mckoy's Law and Order!?" I asked him with a shocked impression on my face and leaving Shay in shock as well
"Wait is something wrong!"he asked now worried
"If you don't mind me asking. Is the owner named Larry McKoy?"I asked him
"Um yeah he recently ran for district attorney here and won."Malcom says making me sigh
"What's wrong Monica?"he asked rubbing my hand
"Larry McKoy is my father Malcom." I say leaving him in a silence
There's goes the best last day I was gonna have here
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So yess everyone I'm re-writing! It's time I do. I was young when I first wrote my number one rider. And I am maturing as I get older and when I look back at this book it's very immature.There are a lot of mistakes everywhere and it is does not make no sense at all. So I figured that hopefully as I get older new ideas that comes to my mind can help me put into starting over again. I want to say thank you to everyone who has been giving constructive criticism and pointing out where I was wrong or even letting me know when the book made sense or even when it didn't lol . I really appreciate it also I will be re-doing the cover as well because my characters are changing so will not be August and Miracle as it was before it'll be different characters as we go along and I will get into that later on in the book but thank you again for supporting me and I hope you all enjoy the rewrite love y'all