i haven’t seen or heard from jasper in two days, and i should be worried but i don’t want to become that over-protective… girlfriend? were we a couple? i asked him a few days ago if we were going to become like those couples, and his response wasn’t a yes or no.
i sigh and hang my head, catching a glimpse of a hardback book underneath my bed. i grab it and it’s the journal. i touch the ripped flaps and scratches and my eyes flicker back and forth. i open it like it’s the most valuable thing on the earth, and i flip to a random page.
entry thirty-eight.
date: 8/26
i can’t do this without you anymore.
please, come home.
i was so dependent on you, and i still am. should i be concerned for myself on how much i love you? what would happen if you really did have to go somewhere for a while? would i still be longing for you? would i still be waiting for you?
i bite my nail and sigh once again, meeting frustration.
maybe i just need some sleep.