If you feel empty, you're not alone. It feels like there's a void inside of you and no matter what you do, you can't fill it. Happiness is temporary. It comes in bursts and leaves you feeling empty again. No success lasts. It sometimes feels like this feeling will never leave you. That you'll never feel fulfilled or content. No words can justify the misery and abyss that comes with this agonizing feeling.
I felt this way too. I wondered "WHY?" It's such a distinct feeling. It's not like sadness where you know what's making you sad. It's different. You don't know what's causing the void. I was keeping up with my prayers, so, I didn't understand. I thought praying and remembering Allah was suppose to bring me peace. I thought about the times when I felt so content regardless of what was going on in my life.
Through this reflection and a podcast, I finally recoginzed the cause. Actually, scratch that. I finally accepted the cause because I knew what it was all along deep inside of me. I had been praying half-heartedly. I was praying but not establishing my prayers. Rushing through them and letting life distract me. I was remembering Allah but not connecting with him. My Emaan/faith wasn't as strong as it was when I used to pray whole-heartedly. The void in my heart was growing.
There was only one way to fill it, through the remembrance of Allah and by establishing my prayers. Whole-heartedly.
This is easier said than done. I still struggle with it but I've told myself to start by praying one Salah with my full concentration. I hope one day I'll be able to achieve the same fulfillment and peace I felt few years ago;ameen.
If you've also had a similar experience to mine, I want to tell you not to feel ashamed of it. Faith/Emaan is something that fluctuates. Sometimes, you'll feel like it's high and you're doing great. Other times, it's low and you're left with this hollow feeling. You pray because you have to but not because you want to. It feels awful to even admit this to yourself. But, it's okay. The most important thing is that you're trying to find this feeling and connection with Allah back. That you crave it back. Keep striving! Start with praying one prayer in the day or week with full concentration and no distraction. You can do it!
🌕May Allah give us the ability to truly remember him and establish our prayers. Ameen. 🌕
Also, I've added the link to the podcast I listened to.
🤲"Verily, in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find peace."🤲 13:28