Chapter: 38 "I will Love you, Unconditionally"
Dalia's POV
Nagising ako sa labas ng school namin kung nasaan yung malawak na damuhan...
Umuulan ng donut's....
Lahat ng kaya kong saluhin sinasalo ko and right after sinasaksak ko sa bibig ko....
Heaven... I--ito na ba yung sinasabi nilang heaven?.....
Pero teka?? Bakit umaakyat ulit sa langit yung mga Donut? Napatingin ako sa hawak kong donut, bigla nalang tong hinatak ng langit na animo'y binawi saakin yung Gracia!!:(
Biglang dumilim yung kaninang mkulay na kalangitan... Hanggang sa yung mga cotton candy kanina sa daan naging..... GULAY??? AYOKO NG GULAY!!!! Wag!! LUMAYO KAYO SAAKIN!!
Gusto ko yang isigaw pero hindi ko maibuka ang mga labi ko... Lumalapit sila...ayan na!!! Unti-unti na silang umaabot sa kinatatayuan ko...
Hindi ako makagalaw!!! Hindi ko maihakbang yung mga paa ko!!
"TULONG!"
Pero sa isip ko lang kayang sabihin..
Konting-konti nalang...aayan na!!!
Ayan na-- TEKA??? bakit kamukha ni Sir.Sardival yung repolyo??!??
"WAAAHHHH"
"Ms.Cantelleja!!" WAAAH HINAHABOL AKO NUNG REPOLYONG KAMUKHA NI SIR.Sardivaal!!
"Ms.Cantelleja!!!" Bigla akong napadilat...Oh my!😭
"How dare you sleep during my class? Huh?" Bumungad lang naman saakin ay ang mainit na ulo ng Teacher ko sa Economics na si Mr.Sardival. At ang nag tatawanan kong Classmates. Nako kailangan kong mag hanap ng excuse dito kung di malamang ibagsak ako nito this quarter!😲
"A--ano po kasi...May allergies po ako tapos uminom ako ng gamot! Nako tama Sir. believe me I have allergies!😇"
Nagbulungan yung mga kaklase ko. Malamang alam nila kung anong klaseng style ang ginagamit ko ngayon dito. As if they didn't did this? Imposible!😏
"Fine! Just go to the Clinic and continue your sleep there! You're interrupting my class by sleep talking and shouting my Name!" Nanlaki yung mata ko..teka nag s--sleep talk ako? Y--you mean...
*face palm* I'm so dead!-_-
Bago ako umalis tinanong ko sa seatmate ko kung ano yung sinasabi ko habang natutulog ako.
"Sabi mo kanina Waaah!!!! Sir.Sardival!!! Panot ka!!! Panot ka!! Lumayo ka saakin tapos nag papapadyak ka at winawasiwas mo yung kamay mo..."
I just closed my eyes, stand up, and walk towards the door with full of embarrassment on my Face. Di ko akalaing sasabihin ko rin to in real life, akala ko sa wattpad ko lang to nababasa pero...
"OH LUPA!!! KAININ MO NA AKO PLS!!!"
Steafler's POV
*Chillin Place*
"Hoy Shin! Ano meron? Bat ba parang bothered na bothered ka kanina pa?"
Simula kasi nung nag vacant kame nakatulala lang sya tapos malalim yung iniisip. Well its unusual for Shin to act like this.
Bago sya sumagot tinignan nya muna si Emp na nag lalaro sa iPad nya at naka patong yung mga hita sa center table na lagpas lagpas naman dahil ang hahaba ng mga hita nya.
"Kasi si Ziri, ewan pero nararamdaman kong hindi sya okay. I want to help her! As her big bro I really should help her! But when I'm asking her lagi lang nya akong binibigyan ng ngiti. And I know that smile was a fake one." Bulong nya saakin.
"Hayaan mo na muna sya Shin! Hindi kasi naging maganda yung pag uusap nila ni Emp kahapon kaya siguro ganun!" I thought I will make him calm but he just looked at me.
"No bro, osige nga. Kung dahil doon nga ang dahilan ng pagiging down ni Ziri ngayon. Please explain to me those Marks! Yung mga bakat ng kamay sa pisngi nya! Did emp did that to her?" Pasigaw na pabulong nyang sabi.
Bakat ng kamay? A slap? No! That's imposible! Emp will never do that to Ziri! Teka sino nga ba ang posible gumawa ng isang sampal?
"Isang babae lang ang may kayang gumawa nun malamang--"
"Exactly! Thats why I'm so bothered! I won't let anyone or Okay lets be specific, I won't let any girl Harm Ziri! I'm sure this is all because of Zick. Alam naman nating Zick's every girl's Prince sa School na'to. And now that he already found his Princess. Those withches will enter in to the plot and ruin that Princess's life"
"Pero dahil sa mukhang nasaktan na nga nila si Ziri. All we need to do is to find out who's that bitch!"
"Don't worry Guys! Blue Got this!" Sabat naman ni JM na nasa gilid lang namin.
"Anong meron? Bakit si blue na ang bahala?" Halos mapatalon kaming tatlo ng biglang mag salita si Emp. Binaba nya yung iPad nya sa Center table at lumapit saamin with his arms crossed.
"Ano? Magsalita kayo! Ano ba yung pinag uusapan nyo at kailangan nyo pang mag bulungan? Why don't you share it to me?"
Nagtinginin kameng tatlo. Tinignan ko sila na sinasabing 'mag isip kayo ng ibang dahilan'. Pero dahil bobo tong dalawang to di makaintindi ng sign's ako parin ang nag isip.
"A--ah kasi diba ano malapit na yung Birthday ni Kenji. Ayun iniisip namin saan mag cecelebrate!--"
Biglang bumukas yung pinto at iniluwa nun si blue na nag mamadaling pumunta dun sa DJ set namin. Sinaksak nya yung Chord na nag c-connect sa lahat ng speakers dito sa loob ng Chillin' place at may nag play na Voice record.
"Geez Serina you're so good! Biro mo? Napaniwala mo lang naman sya at napaikot na Mahal ni Karen si Zick! Haha! That girl's a stupid Slut!"
"Ano ka ba Molly? Wag ka ngang masyadong ma-amaze jan! It's nothing compared sa totoong plans ko! Buti nga at ipinadukot ko lang sya at pinuruhan ng sampal at masasakit na salita na alam kong tatagos talaga sakanya! To tell you honestly that's really not my plan! Mas grabe pa jan! Pero don't worry! Back up nalang natin yung plan B!" *laugh*
"Imagine! Making her believe that she's only Zick's Past time or more like dummy! Hahaha ang sakit nun! Umasa ka tapos bibiguin ka ng katotohanan? Hahaha! I'm crying for her! You're so genius Serina!"
Then the Voice record ended there. Walang kahit isa saamin ang gumagalaw after hearing those. Malamang iisa kame ng nararamdaman.
"Nag assign ako ng taong mag mamanman Kay serina. And That's what i found out. Those girls didn't know how to control their voices in the comfort room" blue giggled and drink a Soda in can.
"I want that Fucking bitch right now in front of me.....NOW!!!"
At dahil utos yung ng aming leader. Wala na kaming sinayang na oras. Kinakabahan ako sa pwedeng magawa ni Zick.
Pag galit sya talagang galit sya! At pwede nyang makalimutan na babae yung nasa harap nya!
Ziri's POV
Nandito ako ngayon sa open field, dun sa part na dulo na at marami ng puno. This is the place where I really found relaxing. After all those facts that I heard? Damn, I almost want to die. Malapit na eh..muntik na akong mahulog dun sa mapanganib na bangin nayun! Should I thank Serina for this?
That slap. Isang literal na sampal saakin na nabubuhay nanaman pala ako sa isang malaking kasinungalingan. Why? Hindi ko ba talaga deserve makahanap ng isang taong mag mamahal saakin? Why it has to be always this hard?
Tinanggal ko na yung dalawang earphone ko at mas pinili nalang na tignan ang green field at namnamin ang katahimikan. Wala pang tatlong minuto...nagsiunahan ng pumatak sa lupa ang mga luha ko. Geez Ziri! Are you this weak? This is so lame! Why am I even crying for a boy who doesn't even care about my feelings? AAH! I have to act normal to everyone! Kung ito ang gusto nya ang paglaruan ang feelings ko...FINE! I will also play the game too! Di lang sya ang marunong mag laro!
But I know it will never gonna be as easy as i was thinking! Dahil itong luhang to? Traydor at pumapatak sa oras na di ko inaasahan. Wag lang sa harap nya please? Wag lang sa harap nya!😔
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Dahil sa kakaiyak nakatulog ako at di namalayang hapon na pala. Uwian na namin! Geez! Nag cutting lang ako kanina para mag Emote ng ganun? How weak am I?😑
Nasa tapat na ako ng Classroom nila Dalia at itetext na sana sya ng biglang may humila saakin to no where!
"Zick!?! Teka, saan tayo pupunta?" I asked but he didn't even bother to look at me. He just continue walking with his gigantic steps with him that makes me running while he's just walking.
"Zick teka saan ba tayo pupunta?!? Zick!! Si Dalia kasi nag hihinta--"
"CAN YOU JUST SHUT UP?!?" Huminto sya sa paglalakad at sumigaw sa harap ko na nag patigil sa mundo ng mga tao sa paligid namin.
Hindi ako nakagalaw sa kinatatayuan ko. I was shocked! Yung mga mata nya iba, basta! Parang bumalik sa dating Zick yung nasa harap ko ngayon! That Zick Sebastian that I hated before.
Nagpatuloy lang sya sa pag hila saakin, wala pang dalawang minuto nakarating na kaagad kame sa Parking lot. Kaladkad ata yung tamang term. Pag ako lang kasi ang nag lalakad nito mga 5 minutes ko tong nilalakad. Di ko namalayang nasa harap na pala kame ng isang red na Ferrari. Binuksan nya yung pinto ng shotgun seat.
"Get in" he said right after he opened the door.
"Zick kasi si dalia nag hihinta--"
"I said get in" tinitigan nya ako, tinitigan Ko din sya. Sinubukan konh labanan ang titig nya..Pero mali ang akala ko...feeling ko sa bawat sigundo ng ganun kalapit ang mga mata namin lumalambot yung tuhod ko. And so he win.
Wala akong nagawa kung di sundin sya. Pagod nalang siguro ako at wala na pang lakas makipagtalo sakanya. Pagkaupo ko umikot na sya sa harap ng sasakyan nya at sumakay na sa drivers seat.
He was just blank. He leaned his head on the steering wheel then Release a big sigh.. At Bigla nyang inangat ang ulo nya.
"Ziri...." He held my hands "I--I'm sorry." Then he kissed my hands behind my palm.
That time..I didn't felt that butterflies they're describing. But the whole Zoo instead.
"I'm sorry for being such a jerk! I didn't mean to shout at you erlier! Sorry for being such a pain in the ass" then the next thing?
He kissed my forhead...
I was totally dumbfounded.
"Sana wag kang maniwala sa mga sinasabi ng ibang tao, baby...trust me please? will you trust me?"
Even my mind can't think a word to say. Bigla nalang nag kusa ang leeg at ulo ko at bigla nalang itong tumango..WTF?!?!?
But hell wait...did he just call me...
Baby?
Hindi ko namalayang nasa labas na pala kame ng school. Hindi ko alam. He said trust him. I saw sincerity in his eyes. My mind is telling me "Don't believe him" but my Heart's beating and shouting just for him.
Buong byahe hindi ako nag sasalita. Ewan ko. Natatakot ako na kapag kinausap ko sya tuluyan na talaga akong mahulog. Ang gulu-gulo nya kahit kelan! Lagi nya nalang pinapasakit yung ulo ko! Kanina lang galit na galit sya na kala mo hndi nya ako kilala sa mga tingin nya. Tapos ngayon naman para syang maamong tuta kung nag lambing. Eh basta! Hindi ako mag papadala sa mga actions neither words nya! Mahuhulog lang ako sa bangin na yun! At alam kong walang may kayang sumagip saakin pag-nagkataon..
"We're here!:)" Bigla akong bumalik sa realidad. Nasa isang studio kame! Teka! Alam ko tong studio na to ah!?
"Zick! What are we doing here?"
"Wala munang tanong okay?" Then he gave me that rare smile that not everyone is allowed to take glimpse.
As he said hindi na nga muna ako nagtanong. But honestly i know this Studio! It's a Dancing studio! A place that carries thousands of memories to me. But don't worry. It's just now part of the past. And for me, isa lang ang buhay ng tao. At dapat tayong lahat mabuhay sa kasalukuyan.
Pumasok kame sa loob nung Studio na yun ng magkahawak ang kamay. Gusto ko man pumalag dahil bigla nalang nya hinawakan ang kamay ko right after pagkababa ko kanina hindi pwede kasi bawal nga muna ako mag tanong. Hay Zick Sebastian!! Kung alam mo lang!! Mas lalo mo akong pinapahirapan! You're not helping! Kalahati nalang ng paa ko yung naka sayad sa lupa Zick..and the other 50% naka silip na sa isang malalim na bangin. Konting tulak nalang...mahuhulog na ako.
"Pamilyar ka ba dito?" I almost jump sa gulat.
"Uh? Yeah. I use to do workshop here before when i was 3rd year." Tama kayo ng basa. Nag wo-workshop kame ni Dalia dito before.
Again he gave me a smile as a response. Ano bang problema nito? Nauulol na ba to at ngiti sya ng ngiti ngayon?
"Sir, Sebastian everything's settled. Pina-Cancel ko na po yung workshop ngayon hapon!:)" pina-cancel ang alin?!?
"Okay! Salamat!" Then nilagpasan nya yung babae na nag accommodate saamin kanina. Yes he said thank you but why when it comes to him it looks so rude? I don't know. Maybe the girl earlier who's making pa-cute to him obviously expected a lot more than thank you from him.
This place is still the same. Walang pinag bago. Nung maalala ko na yung hall way na malapit sa pinaka malaking Dance rehersal Studio dito sa building na'to huminto na ako sa paglalakad. I can't take this anymore! Why did he cancelled the workshop? Ano nanaman ba ang trip nya? I can't keep my mouth shut this time.
"Zick ano ba talaga gagawin natin dito?" I tried to pull my hands from him but i failed cause his Grip was too stronger than mine. He just continue walking with me. Hay nako, Si Zick nga pala 'to. Ang batang maipilit ang gusto. Teka bata pa ba 'to? 6 flat na ata ang height nito eh. And take note. Naka build na ang body nya ah! He's not payatot. Oh I know na the reason. I almost forgot he's a basketball player.
"We're here" sabi nya kasabay ng pag bagsak nya ng bag nya sa lapag at pag balik ko sa realidad. Lagi nalang akong lutang pag kasama sya. I don't know. I just can't act normal when I'm with him.
"Zick for the 3rd time, what are we doing here in this studio? Siguro naman pwede na akong mag tanong ngayon?"
"Can you please put your bag first on the floor?" I did what he said.
"Tapos?" I ask after i put my bag on the floor.
"Tapos na" UGH!! Naasar na talaga ako sakanya.
"Joke eto na" He looked in to my eyes like he's trying to hypnotize me. "Ziri, I want you to dance" my eyes instantly got rounded. WHAT? He want's me to what??
"Wha--" mag tatanong palang ulit ako pero bigla nalang nag on yung music...that music..why it has to be that music?!?
"Sige na Ziri, can you dance for me? Please?" Then he gave me the nag lalambing look. Oh Zick don't use my weakness over me please!!! Is that even legal?
"Zick, I'm so sorry I really can't. I'm not in the moo--"
"Dance, Ziri" pag putol nya sa sasabihin ko pero yung mukha nya ngayon parang nag uutos na. No way. Mas lalong ayoko.
"I'm sorry, baby? Can you dance for me please?"
As the song keeps on playing i stared at him while he's giving me that smile, and found myself smiling in return. And later on I just found myself dancing through the rythm of the song..
Now Playing: Katy Perry- Unconditionally
I'm facing the wall mirror right now watching myself doing a lyrical dance.
"Oh no, did I get too close oh?
Oh, did I almost see what's really on the inside?
All your insecurities
All the dirty laundry
Never made me blink one time"
I just follow what my body ask me to move, ni wala akong practice practice. I just dance as if I'm free to do every step I want, just following the rythm and dancing through every lyrics of the song.
"Unconditional, unconditionally
I will love you unconditionally
There is no fear now
Let go and just be free
I will love you unconditionally"
While I'm Dancing I'm just staring at my own reflection. Right directly in to my eyes. I didn't even know what I'm doing, its like Im possesed by the song and It's making me move without my permission. It feels so good! All the pain...it's slowly fading.
"Come just as you are to me
Don't need apologies
Know that you are unworthy
I'll take your bad days with your good
Walk through this storm I would
I'd do it all because I love you, I love you"
Dahil sa pag sayaw, unti-unti..unti-unti kong nakakalimutan lahat ng problema ko. The reason why I love dancing, it's leading me to another dimenssion who only composes Me, Myself, and I.
"Unconditional, unconditionally
I will love you unconditionally
There is no fear now
Let go and just be free
I will love you unconditionally"
Dancing I can say is really my Passion. Kung may isang bagay na alam kong siguradong makakapagpa-gaang ng loob ko. Ito yun. Ang pag sasayaw. Malayang malaya ako pag ginagawa ko 'to. Ang bagay na gusto ko.
"So open up your heart and just let it begin
Open up your heart, and just let it begin
Open up your heart, and just let it begin
Open up your heart
Acceptance is the key to be
To be truly free
Will you do the same for me?"
All my worries are slowly faiding. I can feel it. My chest...it's slowly getting lighter now. Di katulad ng kanina. Parang my nakadagan na kung anong mabigat na bagay doon at nahihirapan akong makahinga...
"Unconditional, unconditionally
I will love you unconditionally
And there is no fear now
Let go and just be free
'Cause I will love you unconditionally"
I just continue dancing...and close my eyes while moving. Right after I closed it, an image of a boy Flashes infront of me. He was smiling...oh that smile. It's worth all the Diamonds in this universe. But no, scratch that..cos' it's priceless for me.
"Unconditional, unconditionally
I will love you unconditionally
And there is no fear now"
Yung lalaking yun na nagpabago saakin, yung lalaking yun na nag pabago sa ikot ng mundo ko...handa ko na nga ba syang mahalin? Handa na nga ba akong tumaya?
"Let go and just be free
'Cause I will love you unconditionally
'Cause I will love you unconditionally "
But letting myself fall is like a Suicide to me. And I know that from the very beginning. Half of my feet's on its way down that edge. I still have the chance to control it. But will I choose to kill myself? Will I be the one who's going to put the trigger on my head? And Zick's the one who's gonna pull it....
"I will love you
I will love you
I will love you unconditionally"
The song stop and I open my eyes. Oh, I almost forgot Zick's Presence. I was shocked because he suddenly clap his hands as if he was so proud of what I did.
"Hindi ko alam na ganun ka kagaling, I expect less from you. Dalia was right. You're really good" naramdaman ko naman bigla yung pag-init ng mga Pisngi ko.
Minsan nya lang akong puriin pero once he did para akong tinatanggalan ng oxygen sa katawan. Nahihirapan akong huminga sa sobrang saya. He was amazed. Meaning di pa pala nawawala saaking yung Fashion ko sa pag sasayaw. Thanks to him.
I pick my bag from the floor "So Tama nanaman pala ako? Si Dalia nanaman ang may tpakana nito?" We both giggled.
"Thank you! Thank you so much Zick! You didn't know how you lifted up my mood. It helped a lot! Thank you!" Then i hughed him. He hugged me too. We were like that for almost 10 minutes. Sobrang gaan na talaga ng pakiramdam ko. Lahat ng Dark Aura nalabas ko na kanina. He really knows how to cheer me up no matter what.
I said I won't jump. Pero nahanap ko nalang ang sarili kong nahuhulog na. I just Suicide. Ako na mismo yung tumalon. How can I not fall for him when He was my weakness.....at the same time my Happiness? I'd rather be weak than unhappy...
I know I'm stupid enough to put the gun on me. But I don't have the power to pull the trigger. Zick has it.
"Love is giving them the power to destroy you ; but trusting them not to"
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Sorry long No-update. Busy eh hehe love you guys.☺️
-Ribbony🎀