JENNIE
There is not the right time for anything. You always think about that right moment to do something, to tell someone I love you, or the right moment to be in love. No. There is not such a thing. But in my case maybe it was.. Was it the right time to tell Jisoo about my past? I guess not. It just came out naturally while we were talking. Was it the right moment to tell her I liked girls while she was already right next to me? Yes. I wanted to for a long time now and I just couldn't keep it inside.. Since it was the day of revelations..
Did I plan for Jisoo to help me undress? Yes and no. The truth is that I couldn't do it myself. Even when she let me be all by myself inside the bathroom I had some problems. So I needed her help especially with things that had to with clothes. And I kind wanted for her to touch me.. Sue me.. And I felt safe all these days having her around me.. It just felt right.. So when we laid on my bed next to each other I couldn't help but say another thing about myself that I really didn't know how she would react.. Maybe that was my last night here.. But I tried either way..
"Oh and something I forgot to tell you and you should know... I like girls."
I didn't hear anything. There was silence inside the room. There was no light to see her face and she didn't even move from where she was laying. Now my heart was beating way too fast and if I wasn't in my condition I would stand up and leave. Was I scared with what Suho did? Yes. Was I scared about Jisoo's reaction? More than I was with Suho..
"Jisoo, say something." I felt her moving and I thought that she was standing up to leave but no. She just changed sides and now she was looking at me. I knew because I could feel her breath on my skin.
"You have to sleep because tomorrow we are waking up early."
"Jisoo, that's all you have to say? I just told you I liked girls and you are saying that I have to sleep because we have a morning wake up?"
"What do you want me to say Jennie?"
"I don't know. I expect you to freak out, yell, slam the door, tell me to leave your house as soon as possible, sleep at your room. I don't know.. I expect everything except the part when you tell me that we have to get up early tomorrow."
"Jennie, I don't have a problem with you liking girls. It's just that.. I don't think I can take any more today with all your personal information.. I know that I wanted to know things about you but in a day I learned more than a week.. It's.. just go back to bed. It's already late."
"Are you saying that you are going to sleep right next to me while you know that I like girls?"
"Yes, that's my plan."
"So you are not having a problem with me being gay, a lesbian, a dyke, a muffin musher, a.."
"Jen, I am tired.. Go back to bed please. We have a big day tomorrow."
"Okay "
That's all I could say. Okay. She didn't have a problem with me being gay. I really didn't expect that. Jisoo, the uptight upper east rich girl didn't have a problem.. Interesting.. very..
"Jennie, turn off your mind please. I am trying to sleep." I felt her fingers on my lips "And don't even try to say anything else. Goodnight Jen." I just nodded.. Interesting.. very interesting..
The morning came and found me laying on my back, with my leg prompt up to the pillows and Jisoo's hand on my abs.. Hmm.. It felt so good.. It was warm.. I liked.. I opened my eyes and she was still sleeping.. I don't know how but during the night probably she came closer to me and now her hand was on my abs and her leg close to mine.. I could even smell her shampoo.. Nice.. I didn't wake her up..
I still found it so strange for us being together like this.. As friends of course because I don't think Jisoo was like me. Not even in a million years.. She was straight, having a boyfriend and everything. She didn't have a problem with me being gay but that didn't mean anything.. I felt her starting to wake up and she stretched.. She was stretching and she was moaning.. I don't know if it was a good thing having the girl I liked right next to me, not able to touch her, especially when the last time I had sex was when I was 21.. Too long..
"Goodmorning."
"Goodmorning to you too."
"Did you sleep well?"
"I did. It's still uneasy sleeping like that."
"It will be okay. You are going to take the cast off in a week."
"Can't wait."
"I am going to make some coffee and you can go at the bathroom. Let me help you."
It was like the last night never existed. It was like I never told her about me. It was another morning with me, Jisoo, and Ella. She did help me getting up and then I went to the bathroom by myself. I meant it when I said that I wanted to try.. Jisoo wouldn't be around me every day.. When I washed my face and brushed my teeth I found my way back to her kitchen.. It smelled amazing.. Jisoo was making breakfast..
"Mmm.. It smells wonderful.. What are you making?"
"Pancakes. Since Ella love them."
"Ah.. I see.. And I thought you were making them for me."
"It's for Ella and you.. You are like a little child."
"Because we have an age difference Jisoo, that doesn't mean that I am like a child to you." I said with all my serious face but I was kidding. I realised that Jisoo didn't know because of the look she had when I was looking at her..
"I am sorry.. I didn't mean it like that Jennie.. I know that you-"
"Stop.. I was kidding.. You had to see your face though." I chuckled.
"You are something else. Sit down and eat."
"Aggressive. I like." I also think that I was flirting with her but since she didn't say anything I continued.. Jennie Kim forgot how to be flirty.. Nah.. Those things you can't forget.. It's like when you learn how to ride a bicycle..
"Are they good?"
"Hmm.. Perfect.."
"Good. I am going to the bathroom and I'm going to wake up Ella. Okay?"
"Aha.." I couldn't talk.. All I was making was sounds.. Those pancakes were really good..
I was still with my shorts and my very short top when Jisoo was all freshly and dressed.. She was wearing the Dolce & Cabana suit I loved on her.. She looked so sexy..
"Go get ready Jennie.. We have to leave in half an hour."
"Ehm.. Jisoo.. I need your help to do that but if you are not feeling at ease I can try and do it myself.."
"I am going to help you. Get inside the room. I am going to put Ella's breakfast on her plate and I'll be there."
And I still didn't know why she was accepting me like that. So easy. If it was anyone else they would freak out. Probably I would be on the street. But she was still here, helping me, looking at me just the same.. Jisoo is a mystery.. A big big mystery..
When I got inside my room I tried to take off my shorts but I couldn't take off my top. So for that I was waiting for Jisoo.. I had bought some loose jeans so now I could wear long pants and not only dresses because it was really chilly out there.. So I would wear my jeans and a sweater..
"Are you decent?" she asked.. Well.. I was.. Kinda..
"Not really but you can come in."
I was with my panties and my top with no bra underneath.. I don't know if Jisoo would like to see me like that..
"Jisoo, ehm.. I am naked under my top.. So can you help me with me putting my bra on?" I heard her inhale and exhale but she did help me.. I was wondering if I was too pushy on her.. I didn't want to make her feel uncomfortable as much as I liked her hands on me.. So I didn't show her my boobs or anything.. I had my back on her and I just let her help me..
"Okay.. You are ready to go.. Do you want me to help you with your make up? I know how you love it."
"If you want to. I already feel like shit for asking you all these."
"It's okay. Come here."
When we got inside the bathroom I could see her beautiful eyes looking on mine. She was so careful with me.. She was putting the eyeliner and then my mascara and every time I could feel her palm touching my face.. I wanted so much to kiss her.. Her lips were so.. and for a moment I caught her looking at me the same way.. When I did she just stopped and we stayed like that.. Looking at each other in completely silence when Ella brought us back..
"Mommy, Jisoo.. I have to go to school you know.. Come on."
"I.. guess.. we have to go.. Tell me what you think." she said and pointed to my make up.. It was really nice.. She did a great job..
"Perfect." like you..
Although my morning was really good and Jisoo was perfect, when we were outside the police station I was scared. Today I would press charges against Suho and Jisoo would ask restrain order for all of us.. It was a good thing that she was a good lawyer and I really trusted her..
"Are you ready?"
"Not really."
"I am here. Okay? Don't forget that. You have to tell them everything that happened. Don't keep anything and answer whatever they are going to ask you. Alright?" I took a big breath and said "Okay.."
The moment I exited the car I felt Jisoo's hand on mine. It was all I needed.. And it was like she knew that I needed the touch..
Although my wild days I never been to a police station before.. It felt awkward and strange.. Jisoo knew some people here.. I guess being a lawyer it can give you connections.. It was a good thing that her connection was a woman..
"Jisoo, hello. How are you?" the lady said and shaked Jisoo's hand.
"I am okay. Busy. You know."
"Tell me about it."
"Detective, this is Jennie Kim."
"Nice to meet you Ms. Kim."
"You too."
"She wants to press charges. She have been hit to death."
"Okay Ms. Kim, take a sit".
Detective Kang was anything but a cop.. She didn't look like one.. She was sweet and I told her about everything that happened with all the details. It was the first time Jisoo was listening to all this and she looked so angry and so hurt.
"Jisoo, I want you to give me the tape and all the papers you have from the hospital. Ms. Kim I am going to ask for restrain order today. Whatever we have from Suho, I am going to call you right away. Okay? You have nothing to fear. Jisoo is the best lawyer and Suho will get what he deserves."
"Thank you Detective for all your help."
"Yes, thank you. Call me when you have any news about the case."
"You know it's not going to be easy but we have all the proofs we need. Ms. Kim, there is a big chance for you to go to court."
"I know detective. I am going to fight him." Jisoo touched my hand again and said something that made me like her even more..
"We are going to fight him Jennie. We as like you and me." I couldn't help but look at her.. And I wanted so much to kiss her.. So so much..
We left the police station and we got home.. I know it wasn't our home but Jisoo made us feel like it was ours too.. It was already the second week living with her.. We didn't talk all the way back and I guess we didn't need to since Jisoo's hand wasn't leaving mine.. Sometimes words are not needed..
"Hello Ms Jisoo, Ms Jennie."
"Hello John."
"Let me help you with the elevator"
"Thanks."
We got inside Jisoo's apartment and the first thing I did was to sit on the couch.. The day was hard.. Having to go back to that day was painful and I could see that Jisoo felt uneasy too.. If anything she looked like she wanted to kick his damn ass..
"Do you want some water?"
"Yes please."
She handed me the glass of water and sat right next to me.. The first minutes we didn't say anything although I could feel that she wanted to say something.. I didn't pressure her though.. Today wasn't easy for both of us..
"I can't believe the bastard. I can't believe what he did to you."
"It's in the past. I am happy he didn't touch you."
"But he hurt you because of me. How that makes me feel? He was my boyfriend and it wasn't your fault. You just were in the middle. I.."
"Stop.. I know what you are doing and it's not your fault. It's Suho's fault and now with your help we are going to put him in jail. Okay?" I said and touched her face.
I could feel the tears from earlier and I didn't want to see her cry.. I did something I didn't expect to do.. I kissed her tears away. And she let me.. She turned her face to look at me and it was the same look she had this morning inside the bathroom.. It was the same look as mine.. I looked at her.. Our lips inches apart.. I didn't want to push myself to her but something inside me was telling me that this was the right moment.. I kissed her beautiful lips.. It was a beautiful kiss that lasted only a couple of seconds but yet it was a kiss.. I kissed Jisoo and she let me.. When I looked at her for one more time I expected her to slap me but all she said was..
"This is why I don't have a problem with you being gay."