i never slept.
i spent hours thinking.
thinking about school.
thinking about life.
thinking about music.
thinking about ruel.
ruel.
just a random guy i met on accident.
we could've still been complete strangers if i never left for my walk.
or if he never drove down that road.
what was he doing at 2am driving around?
guess ill never know.
not like i'll see him ever again.
it was 10am, sunday.
two more sunday's, and i'll be going to school...
oh i am not prepared.
i need so much stuff for school.
like why do i have to buy everything?
why can't the school provide pencils and pens and crap.
i roll my eyes and walk down stairs.
i grab list off my fridge of all the things i will need for school.
then i walk out the door, headed for the shops.
it's been a while since i had last went shopping.
i guess it's just social interaction that scares me.
it takes me roughly 25 minutes to walk to the shops.
when i arrive, i take out the list to check what i need.
taking note of everything, i walk in ready to shop.
the shops are huge.
and very crowded.
i take a deep breath and walk inside the building.
i look around and try to find some shop that would have the things i need.
i spot a sign pointing to where kmart is and follow the directions.
kmart will surely have the things i need.
i arrive and walk in being greeted by a security guard that i kindly- awkwardly, smile at.
okay stay focused... we need to get everything and then head out, there's no need to get distracted-
wow, ruel is here, he was taking a photo with some girls that looked way too excited to see him.
i hope he doesn't notice me.
i sigh and creep away so he won't see me.
i go towards the stationary section looking for some decent pens that won't break the first time i use them.
it takes a while but i have everything i need, i go to the checkouts and immediately turn away because ruel is there.
haha, ruel, sorry bud, but please leave.
i guess if i was anyone else, i'd talk to him, but i'm not. and i hate talking to people and i don't want to befriend this guy.
i made a promise to myself to not trust anyone or be friends with anyone.
i can't let him see me.
i walk down a random aisle towards the books.
i watch him, like the creep i am, until he leaves.
but he's just standing there, looking stupid.
i can't wait here for ever.
apparently it's meant to rain soon and i have to walk home and i really don't want to walk in the rain.
so i make up my mind.
i'm just going to go for it.
i walk towards the self checkout and don't look at him.
i finish paying and quickly try to get out without him seeing me but nope, too late. he's spotted me and started walking over to me with a big smile on his face.
"y/n!" he says "good to see you!"
i smile a little, "ruel... hey...yeah."
"whatcha doing here?"
i lift up my bags, "shopping."
he laughs, "you're really funny, you know that?"
no?
"haha." i say wishing i could be home already. "it's good to see you ruel but i really gotta go."
a sad look appears on his face then quickly vanishes, "oh, okay, well cya around."
"yep."
i walk out of the shops and all the way home without stopping once.
i dump the bags on the bench and lye on the couch and think about ruel again.
what's with him?
why would he want to talk to me?
i fall asleep dreaming of that stupid boy.
a/n:
yes i know this chapter sucks.
don't need to say anything else.
it just sucks.
:)