enough - 8/31/19
i've had enough
seriously
i've had enough
the pain of living
the dysphoria
the feeling of wanting
that's latched onto my heart
i just want it to go away
please
make it stop
i just want to live
to love
to be who i once was
i wish my body would change
i wish my feelings would change
i wish a lot of things would change
but all those changes
they're impossible
figuratively
and literally
i can't change my life without help
and who would want to help me?
not you
not them
no one wants to help me
too bad
sucks for me
i guess i'll just live in pain
with the dysphoria
with the wanting
latched onto my heart
because
no matter how much i'm hurting
i can't let go
because of the pain
that i'd leave
behind