A/N Ok. This is it. The Epilogue. Ready for this roller coaster?
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"It's not the same..." Alice sighed, looking around the Great Hall. She was sat with the Marauders and Lily for lunch. School had started a month ago but it didn't feel right, not without Jamie. Alice looked over at Lily who was laughing with James. They would make a cute couple... And then to Sirius who was smirking and talking to some girls. She looked at him disappointed, he had broken up with Jamie before she left.
Remus looked over at Alice who was giving Sirius a death glare. He shook her shoulder,
"Don't even try. We all have." Alice looked at him and sighed. "It's just not right-" "I know." He grabbed her hand and pulled her closer to him,
"Try not to worry." He wrapped an arm around her waist and kissed the top of her head.
*
"Hey, Siri." A giggly voice awoke Sirius the morning before graduation. He groaned and went to open his eyes but the light was too bright, it hurt his head,
"Yeah?" He asked grumpily, sitting up and putting his head in his hands.
"Good morning!" She sung, kissing his cheek.
"Oh, Melina. It's you." He said tiredly. He opened his eyes and got sight of the green eyed brunette, her hair disheveled and her shirt hanging off her shoulder. She ran a hand down his chest, and he jumped. Her hands were ice cold. Wait...
"Where's my shirt?" He asked running a hand through his already messy hair. Melina cocked her head,
"You don't remember?" Sirius shook his head, but as soon as he did he let out a loud groan, holding his head again.
"No." He said strained. Melina pouted stupidly,
"You threw it out the window."
Sirius jumped up and ran towards the opened window, his breathing heavy,
"No... No." He hissed when the sun burned his eyes. He stepped away from the window and patted his pants....
"Where are my pants?" He asked incredulously, turning back to Melina who was kneeling on the ground, looking concerned.
"You really were out of it, weren't you?" She asked hurt. "Of course I was. I was drunk for Merlin's sakes!" He said angrily almost yelling. She fell back onto her bum, taken aback. Sirius faced back towards the window and ran his hands over his face,
"Where are my damned pants, Marie?" She gasped and stood angrily, grabbing her things from the ground of wherever they were,
"That's it. Thanks for the night, Sirius." She said rudely, turning on her heel and walking out the door. Sirius lied back on the cool ground, his head bouncing against his wand. He grabbed it and laid back fully once more, twirling it in his hand.
"Accio blue plaid shirt and blue jeans." He said lazily, pointing his wand upwards with a swish. Within milliseconds, the two choice clothes flew at him from the window, absolutely soaked. He let out a loud, long groan and threw the clothes off of him, summoning new clothes. He changed and looked around the room. Ah, of course. He took her to the room of requirements. Not that she'd remember where it was, they were both drunk when they stumbled here. Sirius looked in disgust at the remnants of what had happened last night and turned his back on the 'mess'. With a deep breath, Sirius grabbed the still soaking clothes and left the room, walking down the hall. He smoothed his hair out, knowing it was a complete mess. He felt satisfied, obviously, but he was disgusted with himself. He couldn't even call her by the right name.
"Mr. Black!" He cursed himself mentally, McGonagall's shrill voice cut through the sweet, comfortable silence he was walking in. He turned around slowly and squinted at her,
"Yeah, Minnie?" McGonagall huffed, "I'm your professor. Tomorrow is your last day and I would rather appreciate it if you would respect me as so." She said briskly, giving the hung-over seventh year a stern look. Sirius sighed,
"Yes ma'am. Sorry. Yes, Professor?" She had a satisfied look on her face,
"I assume you were at the party in the Gryffindor common room last night?" Sirius smirked and leaned against the brick wall,
"Obviously. I started it." McGonagall gave him a disapproving look,
"Well then you were the one who brought alcohol, correct?"
"That is something I did not do. Sorry, Minnie." She glared hard at him, "Get back to your common room, Mister Black." Sirius just shrugged and gave McGonagall a charming smile, "Bye, Professor Minnie." He turned around and headed for the moving staircases, not before hearing her mutter,
"I'm going to miss that..."
*
Everything was going right for Remus. He had finally come out about his 'furry little problem' with Alice and Lily and to his surprise- they accepted him. He couldn't feel more loved. He believed he had Amber to thank. She gave him courage to be able to tell them about his problem. He owed her everything.
He couldn't believe that he was graduating tomorrow. Tomorrow. It was extremely hard to believe since he didn't know if he could get a job since the Wizarding community didn't exactly welcome werewolves. His mum and dad would tell him not to worry, that he could get a job if he found the right people. And hopefully.... They were right.
"Bloody Hell, you look...." Remus glanced over at James who was staring at Sirius with a raised eyebrow. Sirius' shirt was half buttoned, his pants were hanging way too low and his hair was a mess. Not to mention the way he walked, it just screamed what had happened last night with Melina. "It was ok, I guess." Sirius shrugged, going to the bathroom to most likely take a shower.
"Melina? It had to be more than, 'Just ok'." Remus asked with his eyebrows raised in Sirius' direction. Sirius just groaned and held his head,
"I'll talk about if after I've had a shower, alright?" He said testily.
"Is it your time of the month, Mate?" James asked jokingly. Sirius just smirked at him,
"Don't mind the blood." He sang before shutting the door of the bathroom. James' playful smile dropped and he looked over at Remus with worry, waiting for the shower to start. Once it did, he began,
"She was the fifth one this month." James said with a grimace. Remus nodded and tapped his chin with his finger,
"Do you think it's because of Jamie?" James nodded,
"It has to be. He knew he couldn't be faithful so..." "Goodbye, Jamie." Remus finished for him with a sigh. James nodded slowly.
"Isn't there a muggle group meeting that talks about their addictions? Should we sign him up for that?" James asked Remus seriously. Remus shook his head,
"No. He wouldn't go but if he did- he'd probably shag every woman in that class." "You're right."
"Maybe we should talk to him about it?"
"Remus, mate, he'd change the subject. We can't do it."
"Unless..."
A smirk grew on James' face and he rubbed his hands together evilly,
"Lily."
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"You want me to do what?" Lily asked James with wide eyes.
"Please, Lily?" Said boy begged, wrapping her into his arms. Lily huffed,
"That won't work, James."
"Lil, please. Tomorrow is graduation. Sirius can't keep going like he is-"
"Maybe he should learn from his mistakes, James-"
"That's the stupidest idea ever."
"Remus, can you help me?" James pleaded, looking over at said man. Remus just smiled and shook his head, going back to reading his book. James groaned and let go of her,
"He won't learn from this, Lil. He needs help. Won't you be a good girlfriend and help me out?" Lily's mouth twitched into a smile,
"Fine. I'll try."
"Thank you, thank you, thank you!" James picked her up and spun her around before flowering her with kisses, much to Remus' dismay.
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"Are you ready?" Tell asked Amber, standing next to her. The whole 7th year was standing outside the grand hall, waiting for their cue to go in. Amber smoothed her dress down once more. It was a long cream dress with black lace covering the bottom part, the chest was just plain black. Of course, Amber had three inch heels on, adding to her already 5"6 height.
"I think so." Amber said, butterflies erupting in her stomach. Tell smiled wearily at her, though she looked gorgeous in her own long pale pink dress covered in roses made with lace.
"This is it. Grad. I'm so nervous-what if I fall while walking to my seat-"
"Don't worry, Tell. It'll all be fine." The nervous girl still shook and turned towards Horrace, who she was walking out with. Amber, on the other hand, looked over at her boyfriend, Ryan. His charming good looks and amazing personality reminded her so much of Sirius it was scary.
"Hey." She said with a sweet smile, wrapping her arms around his neck. "Hey." He smirked, placing both hands on her hips.
"Is the plan set for after everything?" Amber asked leaning closer to him.
"Of course, Jay. We can move out into the country side." He teased, kissing her gently. And yet, it didn't quite feel right. Her heart yearned for a certain curly black haired, grey eyed, British boy.
"No PDA, Miss Potter and Mr. Blake." Ryan just rolled his eyes at Mrs. Keegan and kissed Amber once more before looping his arm through hers, ready to walk out in front of the whole school.
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Sirius shook his head quickly at Lily, James, Remus, Alice, and Peter. What they were suggesting was insane.
"I'm not going to crash her Graduation, nor am I going to 'Profess my love' to her." Said Sirius incredulously. James groaned,
"Padfoot, mate, you gotta try. Aunt Judy told me she's got herself a boyfriend."
"So?" asked Sirius as he held his head, a migraine attacking him,
"So," said Lily heatedly, "so, you need to win her back."
"Their aunt said that he has black hair, grey eyes-" Remus started up,
"Should I care about these things? Look-"
"No, Sirius, you listen," Alice cut off Sirius angrily, "she misses you. You've shagged how many girls this month?"
"5." Peter supplied enthusiastically,
"Five girls! Thanks Peter-" Alice patted his shoulder before turning back to Sirius, "this is not right. You-Know-Who has given up. Dumbledore himself told us that."
"She doesn't miss me, nor do I miss her. I'll see you all later, I need a nap." groaned Sirius before he trudged up the boy's steps and into his dorm room.
"Stupid... I don't miss her." Sirius mumbled to himself before shutting the door and laying on his bed. After a couple of moments he let out a strangled yell,
"Merlin's beard. Of course I miss her. I...I f**king love her." said Sirius, punching the bedpost.
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"You join us here today to watch these fine young adults graduate..." Amber ignored the Headmistress as she droned on. She glanced behind her, trying so see if any of her family had come. Aunt Judith, Uncle Griffon, Joey, and her mum and dad were all she saw. Of course... Tomorrow was Hogwarts' last day.
"Are you alright?" Tell asked nudging her slightly. Amber smiled over at her friend, nodding,
"Of course. Don't worry." Tell still looked her over before facing the Headmaster who was now talking.
She had received a letter from Dumbledore explaining how The Dark Lord had given up. Though extremely hard to believe, it was Dumbledore. He basically knows everything. With one more glance behind her, her heart falling as her eyes roamed the crowd, she focused back towards the owners of the school.
"-so it doesn't matter if you've been here for all seven years, or just one year," the Headmistress's eyes caught Amber's and she gave her a kind smile,
"you have forever been welcome here at Boarfair."
Amber smiled slightly as the crowd clapped, as well as the group of seventh years.
"We will now call up each one of the graduates by alphabetical order. Please refrain from running up to them as they exit the stage, pictures can be taken afterwards." And so, the names began to be called. Starting with, "Gage Aaron." After a while of names being called out and clapping and yells, it was finally time for Amber. She readied herself, stepping up the steps. This was it...
"Jamie-Amber Potter." It was deafening as she walked up and shook the hands of all the Headmasters and Headmistresses.
She turned and smiled at her family to find a certain group of friends sitting with them. Amber gasped and hurried off the stage, causing the whole room to crack up. She hurried down the steps and to the group of them, hugging them each separately and tightly. Until she saw him emerge from behind Griffon.
"Hello." He said with a slight smirk. Amber looked at him breathlessly... He looked really good.
"Hi." She squeaked out before attacking him into a hug. Sirius hugged her back tightly, breathing in her scent.
"If all students can return to their seats so the last of the young adults can graduate...?" Amber and Sirius sprung apart.
"I'll see you lot after?" She asked hopefully. Lily sighed,
"We have to get back to school. We convinced Dumbledore-" "It's ok. Go finish packing." Said Amber, her smile dropping off her face.
"I'll write you, Amb." said Alice, giving her one last hug before Amber left them, going back to her seat next to Tell.
"That guy you were hugging-"
"He's my ex-boyfriend, Tell." answered Amber quietly, playing with her fingers. Tell patted her hand,
"You have Ryan now."
Though Amber wished she was right, her heart was beating fast since the interaction with Sirius. She couldn't make up her mind...
"Yeah. I do." Said Amber distractedly, numbly paying attention to the rest of the ceremony.
*
"And this- this would be the living room here," he pulled on Ambers arm, dragging her into a spacious room with a wide window. Amber rolled her eyes at him and stopped him,
"This is expensive, Ry." Ryan heaved a sigh and grabbed onto her forearms,
"Jamie, baby... This is what's best for us. To move into a house together-"
"We're just nineteen. We graduated two years ago-"
"Exactly. Two years ago. We've been dating for three years I think this would be a smart idea." said Ryan defiantly, tucking a piece of hair behind her ear.
"I'm going back to England." There was a long, ringing silence as Ryan studied her face as if looking for a sign of humour. But, alas, he couldn't find a trace of it. Only seriousness.
"Is this because of that Sirius guy? Who the hell wants a name that stupid-"
"Shut. Up." said Amber in a low voice.
"We can talk about this later. Bring me home, please?" She continued. Ryan huffed and did as she asked.
"Do you want-" began Ryan but Amber cut him off by slamming his car door closed and entering her house, locking the door.
"Everything alright, Jay?" Asked Joey as he walked down the steps, his Star Wars™ action figures in his hands still. Amber kicked off her shoes and gave her nine-year old cousin a nice big hug,
"Yeah. I'm good, Joe. I just need to talk to your mom. Where is she?"
Joey looked deep in thought before he snapped,
"Yeah, mommy is in the backyard."
"Thanks, Joey. You can go play again." And off Joey went, acting out parts from 'A New Hope™' with his toys.
Amber stuffed her hands into her pockets and walked through the kitchen to the backyard, finding her Aunt tending something that looked suspiciously like a mandrake...
"Aunt Judy?" She asked, leaning on the deck railing. Judith turned around and covered the suspicious plant,
"Yes, Jay?"
"I'm thinking about going back to England..." Amber began slowly.
Judith bit her lip,
"Where would you go?" said the nervous aunt. Amber shrugged and heaved a heavy sigh,
"I could move in with mum and dad...?" Judith froze for a moment, and cursed,
"I knew... Amber, go inside. Go sit down... I need talk to you."
Amber looked her over before doing as she was told, walking back into the house. She sat on the couch and tucked her legs under her bum, waiting for her aunt to enter the house. When she did, she had a grave look on her face and Amber didn't know what to think.
"I...I got a letter from James and Sirius. James and Lily are getting married, she's pregnant-" Amber gasped and squealed, "Oh my Merlin! This is great!" She said happily. Judith smiled sadly at her,
"Yeah... It's good. But, James is moved out, Sirius bought his own apartment... God, Jamie... I don't know how to tell you..." Amber gave her a suspicious look,
"What's going on?" said Amber alarmed.
"Your parents they...they passed away a week ago." said Judith softly.
*
It was two years after the funeral, James and Lily had a baby named Harry (Amber really liked that), Alice and Remus were unknown, all Amber knew is that they were living somewhere north of Godric's Hollow. Then there was Sirius, living on his own. Amber didn't see him after the funeral, after that night. The night she's been wanting to forget.
"-like I said, one day I will buy you a gorgeous ring and we'll get married." said Ryan, smiling down at her. Amber nodded and squeezed his hand,
"Yeah. That sounds great..."
There was a sudden cry from upstairs and Amber shot up,
"I'll be back." she said quickly before running up the stairs.
"Don't wear yourself out!" shouted Ryan with a slight laugh. Amber just rolled her eyes and walked into the room of her twins.
"You two were sleeping... Echo, was it you?" She asked with a smile, picking up her one year old. The baby boy stopped crying and pulled on her hair, he always liked her hair.
"You're fine, see?" sighed Amber before she placed him back in his crib. She turned to the other crib where her daughter, Carina, was sat with a pout. Amber picked her up and immediately Carina began to smile. Like her brother, she pulled on her hair while giggling.
"We should go see James and Lily... Do you want to see Uncle James, Auntie Lily, and Harry?" asked Amber as she kissed Carina's forehead. She placed her in her crib before she went downstairs,
"I'm going over to James'." Amber told Ryan. He was busy watching TV to really notice. She had to get there by Floo, only four fireplaces were attached to James and Lily's. They were under house arrest, basically, since the Dark Lord was after Harry.
Amber went back up and put each baby into a carrying basket and walked back downstairs and to the fireplace, flooing over to James' house.
"Good afternoon, Potters!" She shouted as she arrived. She placed the carriers on the couch and Lily walked in the room, carrying Harry.
"Amber! It's so good to see you- oh my gosh they've grown!" Lily gushed, hurrying over to the twins who were reaching out, wanting out of the carriers. "You saw them two weeks ago, Lil." Amber reminded as she took them out and placed them on the ground, Lily doing the same with Harry.
"My dear sister, how are you this fine day?" James asked as he walked won the stairs. Amber was about to answer back until she saw an oh-so familiar mop of black hair. Her words got caught in her throat and she quickly stooped down and picked up Echo.
"I'm fine, Jamsie. How are you?" She asked as she held Echo in her hip, not daring to look up.
"I'm simply marvellous." said James poshly, sitting down on the couch. Sirius followed not long after,
"Hey, Amb." Amber glanced up at him. He has a kind of-sort of smile on his face.
"Hello, Sirius." She said sweetly before placing Echo on the ground, tending to a crying Carina.
"I haven't seen these two yet. What're their names?" asked Sirius, kneeling down next to Echo. James snorted,
"She gave that one the worst name ever." Lily slapped his shoulder,
"It's a very cute name."
"What's his name?" Sirius asked amused.
"His name is Echo. This one here, she's Carina." answered Amber, shooting James a glare.
"See, Padfoot? It's-" James began.
"It's a nice name," Sirius cut over him, staring at Amber, "and the girl's name is Carina? Like the constellation?" Amber cleared her throat and kissed her baby girl's forehead, placing her on the floor also. She sat down next to her and nodded,
"Yes."
Sirius looked Amber over,
"They both have lovely names, Amber. I'm assuming you picked them out? A stupid man like Andy-"
"He's not stupid, Sirius..." said Amber coldly, catching Sirius' eye.
"We'll be in the kitchen." James announced, grabbing Harry and pulling Lily into the kitchen.
Amber sighed and rubbed her temples,
"You've figured it out, yeah?" She said quietly, placing Echo in her lap. Sirius held Carina close to him, giving her a smile,
"Yeah. What's their full names?" Sirius asked, gently stroking Carina's soft black curls.
"She's Carina-Marie Euphemia Lynx Potter... And he's Echo Fleamont Orion Potter." Sirius smirked at her,
"I see you and the Canadian aren't married? I mean, he's angry about Echo's middle name, isn't he?"
Amber gave him a hard look, "We aren't married, no. And yes, he's very angry."
"Perfect. They're my children, after all." Sirius said smugly.
*
Halloween of the same year came quickly. Amber was staying home with the kids, Ryan was off at a bar with his mates. Echo and Carina were pouty ever since they had last seen Sirius. They liked him, much to Ryan's dismay. Amber had finally gotten the two to sleep when there was a knock at the front door. She walked down the stairs and looked through the peephole. A pale Sirius stood outside, looking extremely distraught. She opened the door immediately, allowing him access.
"They're dead, Amb. Lily, James. They're dead." Amber stared at him in shock. She closed and locked the door,
"No..." She whispered, looking at Sirius. He shook his head and tears began to stream down his face,
"I know... Harry, Hagrid took him. Dumbledore is taking him somewhere- I don't know-" Amber wrapped her arms around his neck,
"Oh my God..." She began to cry and Sirius wrapped his arms around her before pulling away after a few minutes,
"It was Peter. I'm going to kill him." He said darkly, walking towards the door.
"Don't go, please!" Amber pleaded, grabbing his arm. Instead of talking, he spun around and kissed her, cupping her cheeks in his hands. He pulled back,
"I need to do this, Amber. I love you."
"I-I love you too, Sirius. So, so much." She whispered before watching him walk out the door for the last time.
A/N AH. This is the end of the book. The last ever chapter of Thinking Siriusly.
It seems sort of rushed, I know. I'm sorry. I just really wanted to get this done for you guys. Argh, the feels...
So, sequel, yes or no? I've been thinking about it but I'd like your honest answers.
So,
YES
OR
NO?
Thank you guys once more. You are all amazing and I'm glad to have wrote this book. It started out as something fun and now... It's done. :(
I'll see y'all later...
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