david's pov
loving her was the best decision i've ever made
she was the sunshine during my rainy days and always replaced my frown with a smile
she was the icing on the cake and as sweet as the sugar baked into it
she is my everything
she's always on my mind and i think about her every second of every day
you see, loving her was easy
but losing h-losing her was the worst thing that has ever happened to me
it felt as if the world turned black and white
all the color seemed to vanish and nothing had meaning anymore
broken mirrors and shattered picture frames
every single book on that stupid bookcase, that i made for her a while back, was thrown onto the floor and scattered
the alcohol cart, which i keep for my friends, was almost completely drained of liquid as i tried to drown my sorrows in it
our-my room was a complete mess with clothes and shoes thrown everywhere
the bed unmade and the bathroom unkempt
to someone else, i was living unhealthy
to me, i felt nothing
i didn't notice the mess
when i tripped over something, i just kept walking
when i stepped on a shard of glass, i took it out and threw it back onto the ground
when i laid in bed, trying to get just an ounce of sleep for the first time in three days, my eyes just wouldn't close
my mind was too busy running
it was rewinding the memories we made together
it was thinking and overthinking about what happened and if i could've prevented it from happening or-
and then, for the first time since i found out about her death, i closed my eyes and fell asleep
i held the pillow next to me and cuddled into it, as if it were her
as if she were still with me right now
if she was, i would tell her this
"i would go through all this pain again, if it meant that i got to love you, just as i did"