I'm really sorry for posting this late, but I've had some case of writhers block. School is tapping up as well, so I wont be able to update as much as I've done before.
I also didn't reread this chapter, (because I'm lazy), so it will probably be more grammar misstakes than usual.
I'm also gonna have a song to this chapter; "In my head" by Madcon. (Not my music of choice, to be honest...) You will understand why when you read, and it's honestly no point in listening to it while you're reading, because it doesn't really fit.
Chapter 13
Conner's POV:
Telling Val about what had happened was easy.
I had gone on a run after she left. Well, I had tried to kill a couple of pack members first, but that wasn't important. No one was lethally harmed, after all, and I had gotten out of the pack house before I did something I would regret.
The hunters had attacked me half an hour later. I had walked straight into a trap without sensing any danger, giving the hunters an advantage they didn't need.
Don't get me wrong. I'm an Alpha, (well, a poor excuse of an alpha,) and that makes me stronger than the average wolf. I could take one hunter with ease, and probably manage two with some effort. But I had been attacked by three, and even I couldn't win against those odds.
I remember ripping the head of a girl, and I was pretty sure I had injured the second seriously. I couldn't be sure, though, since I had been chained up with silver and injected with wolfsbane.
Waking up chained to a chair is enough to give anyone panic, and I was no exception. Perhaps I would have reacted different if my wolf had been with me, but he had been blocked off from the wolfsbane. The guy was extremely annoying, but I had realized that I really needed him in situations like that.
I didn't dwell on the tormenting the hunter had put me through, when I told Val the story. I didn't wanna upset her. I was feeling pretty well, considering the situation, but the fact that my body healed didn't mean that I was okay. The hunter had told me some pretty disturbing things, and I had a hard time thinking about it.
No, telling Valentina the story wasn't hard. Telling her how I felt was much worse.
Watching Valentina battle the hunter was one of the hardest things I had ever done. I almost couldn't take it. My heart skipped a beat every time the hunter was close to hitting her, and my mouth went dry.
I had never seen anyone fight like this. It was almost like she knew what the hunter was gonna do before he did it. I couldn't understand how my mate had gotten her skills. Last time I saw her battle she did rather horrible, and she was a lot weaker than me. I didn't complain though, I really wanted Val to win this thing. And she did.
Watching her kill the hunter would certainly have made my wolf proud if he was here. The fact that our mate would kill for us would have made him happier than anything else in the world. He absolutely... Wait a minute. My wolf wasn't here, and the mate bond was temporary gone. But if the pull was gone, why was I still feeling this way? The realization hit me like a hurricane. I was madly in love with Valentina, and not only because of the mate bond.
I still remembered what Val had told me about having a choice, and for the first time I realized that I did. I had chosen to love Val with all of my heart, a choice I certainly never would regret. She was my soul mate, after all. I guess there's a reason for why fate put us together, no matter how different we were. We were meant to be together.
I suddenly realized that Val was standing right in front of me. Well, she wasn't exactly standing. More like bending. I thought she was going to kiss me. Well, until she buried her fangs in my neck, at least.
The pain wasn't as bad as the silver, but it still burned like hell. It was like all my power got drained from my body. Yet, a small part of me enjoyed it. If it had happened another time, it might have filled me with pleasure.
I suddenly realized that it was getting hard to breathe, and I almost didn't have any energy left. It was like Val was draining me of life force, not only blood. I guess blood is a part of your life force, but I had never felt like this before, even though I had lost a lot of blood throughout my life.
Valentina suddenly pulled away, and my energy stopped vanishing. Her breath was heavy, and I noticed hunger and longing in her eyes. Strange, I had never expected her to look at me that way. A pity this really wasn't the time.
She finally cut the silver chains around my wrists, and I couldn't help but to sigh in relief. My skin was badly burned, and the silver had been draining me of powers. Some of my strength returned, and my body started to heal the burns. Now I just had to do my best to ignore the pain. Easier said than done.
"Are you okay?" Val suddenly asked, obviously worried. I couldn't really blame her. I probably looked horrible. Oh god, after everything that had happened, I was worried about how I looked? And I thought Will cared too much for his appearance... Obviously I was much worse.
"I'm fine," I lied, and tried to flash her a smile. I was pretty sure I failed miserably, but I couldn't do anything about it. It still hurt as hell, and I was starting to get a mean headache. Yet, telling Val about my pain wouldn't help, so I decided to pretend like I was already healing.
"I'm so sorry Conner!" Valentina suddenly said, which took me of guard. Why would she apologizing to me? It took me a moment to realize that she probably was feeling bad for, you know, biting me. "I didn't mean it, I swear! I just couldn't..."
"I forgive you, Val," I interrupted, before she could say anything else. Given the chance she would have written a whole book with apologizes. "You couldn't control yourself. I get it. You have no idea how much I get it! Every time we're in a room together, I just want to lay you down on the floor, and complete the mating! I try to control it, but I end up yelling at you instead!"
I stopped when I realized what I had just said. I waited for her to scold me or turn away, but she didn't. I would have expected her to run away when she realized how much I longed for her, but she almost seemed to have bad conscience. Not good. I didn't want her to feel bad on my behalf.
"Hey, I said it was okay, didn't I?" I repeated and gave her a smile. I had a feeling it was more successful than the last one, but I couldn't be sure. I took a deep breath, before I continued. "I'm more interested in if you could forgive me!" I said.
She didn't answer for a moment, which almost made my heart stop. I wasn't sure I could take it if she refused. I needed her to forgive me, even though I probably didn't deserve it.
"Of course I will forgive you" she said, like it was the most natural thing in the world. I sighed in relief, and started to stand up, so I could kiss her. Unfortunately my legs didn't feel like cooperating, and I couldn't hide the pain from my expression. Valentina took a step backwards, and I just had to hide my disappointment. I really wanted to kiss her, but I just wasn't in the right condition.
There was a coach in the corner of the room, which Valentina helped me reach. Well, I'm not sure the hard stone pillows I was lying on could count as a coach, but there weren't any good alternatives. For a while I listened to Valentina's soft voice while she called the pack, but I fell asleep before she had finished the call.
My whole body still hurt when I woke up, to my own disappointment. I could hear the sound of an engine, which probably meant I was in a car. I still felt warm and comfortable, though, which was kind of insane. Cars weren't on my top ten list over good places to take a nap, after all.
I slowly opened my eyes, and looked straight up in Valentina's face. Her beautiful hazelnut eyes gazed down at me, and made my heart beat faster.
"Where are we?" I asked. Well, I tried, at least. My voice was so hoarse that my words were impossible to understand. God, I really needed some water, but she probably wouldn't understand that either. I would have to turn my head to look at the person who drove the car as well, and I couldn't exactly mind link the whole pack because I was thirsty.
"God, I really hate the fact that you can't hear me!" I thought, extremely annoyed. I really wanted her to be able to use the mind link, not only for practical use, but because we would've been able to talk to each other in the mind.
I could feel her emotions, though, which told me that the wolfsbane was out of my system. Right now, for an example, she felt confusion, terror and fear.
Wait, what? I noticed that Val had stiffened, like she just had heard something terrifying. Heard something. The thought was almost too good to be true. Was it possible...
"Can you hear me, Val?" I asked, again using the mind link. My wolf was actually keeping his distance, which probably meant I was doing the right thing.
"Conner, is that you?" she asked, instead of answering my question. Well, I guess she answered my question with replying, but that's not the point.
"Yeah, it's me."
"What's happening?" she asked. She really didn't sound as happy as I had imagined her to be. Her voice was scared, and I could feel her tension. Well, I honestly shouldn't be that surprised, considering the fact that she had never used a mind link before.
"We're using the mind link, Val. I told you about the mind link, didn't I?" I honestly didn't have the energy to explain it again, so I just hoped that she remembered what the mind link was. The short conversation was draining me of powers.
"Yeah, you did. It's pretty cool, to be honest," she said. "Pretty creepy as well," she added, after a moment's hesitation.
"Well, I'm stuck in your head, so you better get used to it!"
Valentina seemed to consider something for a moment, before she flashed me a smile, and started to sing. (Her voice was horrible, by the way, so I guess nobody is perfect.)
"You're in my head! Wish I knew how to get you out!" she sang. I actually recognized the song, (despite her lack of skill), and couldn't help but grin at her.
"You're a terrible singer, you know!"
"But you still love me?" she asked. It took her a moment to realize what she had just said, and I could feel her doubt and fear. Fear of an answer.
"Yeah," I confessed. "I still love you!"
She smiled, and the look in her eyes melted my heart. God, she was so adorable. And she was mine. That was probably the best part.
"I think I might love you too," she said, which caused my heart to do a happy dance. It was amazing. She loved me. My mate actually loved me, despise everything I had done to her.
"You know, this moment would be perfect, if I could only have some water," I said.
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Do you want me to have songs to the chapters? I wont bother if you don't want it, but I'll do it if you like it. It will probably be songs who fit, though.
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