We both cleaned the garage and then by the time it was three pm the guys rang the doorbell. Andy opened it and let the guys in. Jinxx greeted us and introduced Jake and Christian, “Call him CC for short” he said. I nodded. “I’m Andy and this is Ashley” Andy said, pointing at me. I just blushed.
We drunk something and then all went to the garage. We set up our stuff and played a few songs we all knew. After the second song my ribs hurt like hell. “Andy” I whispered. “Can you get me a painkiller?” I asked with tears in my eyes. I didn’t want to cry. I didn’t want to seem like a weak person in front of the people I just met.
Andy nodded and went off to get me a painkiller. “What’s he going to do?” CC asked. “He’s going to get me a painkiller” I said, my voice barely a whisper. “Are you okay?” He asked shocked. “I’m fine” I said. “What’s wrong then?” CC asked and sat down next to me on the couch which was standing in the garage. The garage was pretty big.
“My ribs hurt” I said, tears pricking behind my eyes. “What happened then?” Jake asked. “Nothing…” I said. CC and Jake were two years older than me. I didn’t want to cry. “Hey” CC said softly and placed his warm hand on my shoulder "you can tell us everything, you know that, right?” he asked. I nodded and then Andy came back with a painkiller. I took the painkiller but when I swallowed it I couldn’t take it anymore and started crying.
“Ashley baby” Andy whispered and softly lay me down on the couch. “Shh… it will be okay baby” he said as he held my hand. “I-It hurts” I whispered. Jake, CC and Jinxx just stood there, watching me cry. “N-Now I’m supposed to tell them Andy, aren’t I?” I asked. “You don’t have to” Andy whispered. “C-can you tell them?” I asked. Andy nodded and they all sat down. I was still crying.
“Shall I just show them?” Andy asked. I nodded.
Andy carefully pulled up my shirt, revealing the bruises on my back and ribs. “Oh my god” CC whispered. “Who did this?” Jinxx asked shocked. I just lay there crying. ‘M-my dad” I chocked out. Andy was still holding my hand. “Oh Ashley” CC whispered and softly stroked my hair. I bit my lip, trying to stop crying.
When the pain started to dull a bit I sat up again. “S-sorry” I whispered. “Never mind buddy” Jake said and gave me a warm smile. I swallowed hard and gave him a weak smile back.
“Did you guys already write a song?” Jinxx asked. Andy nodded. “Yeah, well actually Ashley here wrote a song” He said and went upstairs to get my notebook. He came back with it and handed it to Jinxx. “These lyrics are pretty good Ash” Jinxx smiled. “Thank you” I smiled back. “Can you sing them?” they asked me. I shook my head “but Andy can” I said and took my guitar. Andy nodded and I started playing.
Andy sung the song. “Wow, that was pretty awesome” CC said. I just blushed shyly. Jake and Jinxx made a few riffs in the guitar playing and then we played it all together. CC didn’t play yet. “Can you play something?” Jake asked him. CC thought for a second and then nodded “Yup if you play, I’ll start too” he said smiling. We started playing and Andy started singing. Then CC started drumming.
My jaw dropped at the moment he started drumming. He was a hell of a drummer! He was so good!
“Wow!” Andy screamed enthusiastically. CC just smiled proudly. “You’re so good!” he said. “Thank you” CC blushed. I just stood there, smiling like a fool. “And by the looks Ashley liked it too” Jake grinned looking at me. I blushed and nodded. Jinxx looked at the time. “Dude it’s already six pm” he said. “Fuck Jake, we’ve got to go” he said. Jake’s eyes widened and he nodded. “Sorry guys but our grandma’s birthday is today and she’s turning 90 so we have to go” Jake said as he and Jinxx packed their stuff. We all nodded.
We bid Jake and Jinxx goodbye and then went upstairs to Andy’s room. “Awesome room” CC said smiling at the posters of KISS and Mötley Crüe. “Thanks” Andy said smiling.
We all sat down on the bed.
“Ashleh Fucking Purdeh!” I heard my dad suddenly scream. I looked out of the window and there stood my dad. Tears directly sprung into my eyes. “Andy” I gasped. “H-help” I said. Andy wrapped his arms around me tightly. “Comeh down you mothafucker or I’ll kill yew!” I heard him yell. He was drunk again. I started crying. Sometimes gasping for air. CC stroked my hair softly.
Andy’s dad came upstairs. “Ashley, you’re safe here” Andy’s dad said and softly squeezed my hand. “I-I have to go” I said. “Shall I go with you?” Andy’s dad asked. “I-I don’t want you to get hurt” I said. When I wanted to open the door of Andy’s bedroom my dad stormed in. “You fucking idiot!” he screamed to Andy. Andy cringed as he looked at my dad. My dad walked over to him and raised his fist. I sprung in front of Andy and my dad hit me instead of Andy. “Ashleh!” he screamed. “Have you behn crying againh?” he screamed, “Worthless whore!” he screamed. “P-please don’t hurt them” I said. “Why not?” my dad slurred.
“B-because I love them” I said. “You bitch!” he screamed. “S-sorry” I said. “You should have neva been born!” he said and kicked my in the stomach. Then he left again. I just cracked through my legs and crashed down on the floor. Everyone was quiet. Andy’s mum hurried upstairs. “Is everything oka- oh my god Ashley” she said and hurried over to me. CC just sat there with big eyes. And Andy was silently crying. I tried to get myself up and face Andy who was sitting on the bed. “A-Andy” I said, my voice barely a whisper. “I-I’m so sorry” I sobbed “please don’t hate me” I cried.
“Ashley… don’t ever think that I’ll hate you” Andy said, swallowing hard. “I love you Ashley and no one will change that” he said and took my hand. I tasted blood. Then I came to the conclusion that my hand was bleeding like hell. Andy started panicking. “mom, mom he needs stitches” Andy said crying again. “I’ll take him to the hospital” Andy’s mum said. “I’m going with you” Andy said. CC just sat there silently. “And CC’s also coming” Andy said, grabbing CC’s hand. CC nodded. I had the feeling CC didn’t really realize what just happened yet.
Andy’s dad helped me to get downstairs and then we all hurried to the car. Andy’s dad drove, and Andy’s mum sat at the passengers seat. Andy, CC and I sat at the backseats. I sat in the middle. I was cold so I snuggled up against Andy a bit. Andy wrapped his arm around me and softly stroked my hair.
“A-are you okay?” I asked CC who was looking outside. He nodded “I’m fine Ashley” he said softly and gave me a warm smile, “thanks for asking” he said. I nodded.
Then it hit me. If I needed stitches, I had to show my arms. Including my cuts and scars. And only Andy knew about those. But no one was supposed to know. They weren’t allowed to know this.
I started panicking. “Shh…” Andy whispered as he continued to stroke my hair. But I couldn’t calm down. I started hyperventilating. “Mom mom” Andy said. Andy’s mum turned around “what’s it sweetie?” she asked. “Ashley is hyperventilating” Andy said scared. “Ashley Ashley” Andy’s mum said. “Ashley breathe in slowly” “ and then out… and in… and out….” I repeated a few times what she said and calmed down some. “Ashley what’s wrong?” Andy’s mum asked softly. “I-I my- nothing” I said. Andy looked at me with a worried look on his face.
“What’s it sweetie?” he whispered softly and kissed my forehead. “My-my arms” I whispered scared, but so softly that the others couldn’t hear it. “it will be okay baby” Andy whispered. “They-they’ll hate me” I whispered crying. “They won’t Ashy, believe me” he whispered and held me tighter.
CC just placed his hand on my leg and softly caressed it with his thumb. It was such a small of an action but it calmed me down a lot. I decided to show him already.
“CC” I whispered. He looked up at me. I showed my arm. Tears sprung in his eyes “Ashley” he whispered and held my hand “not you buddy” he said and swallowed hard. “I-I’m sorry” I whispered. CC hesitated for a second and then showed his wrists. Full of scars, too.
I gasped and started crying. “They’re old, I’m okay now. And you will be too one day” CC said and held my hand. I swallowed and nodded.
The car stopped and we walked the hospital in.
Time to face my fate.
A/N:
Finally a ‘long’ chapter again (:
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I really appreciate the votes you give me, but some comments would be nice too, then you can maybe tell me what you think of it :) that would be nice :)
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*I also wrote an Andley one shot today, shall I post it?