Though it was only few people and 15 minutes I'm going to rants. I'll come straight out and say what started this, I don't like Kaito, Kaede, Saimota, or Saimatsu. That's what I told a certain discord chat. If they're reading this I'm sure they know what I'm talking about. Everyone there started to freak out telling me "how could I not like Kaito" and "Saimatsu is pure" y'know stuff like that. They wanted to know why I didn't like Kaito so I told them my reason only to be met with someone who started arguing, making me frustrated. I don't blame them for reacting the way they did, to the i just called their wifu trash. I defended myself only to get a kick threat, not directly because a third party person said "if this keeps up I'll kick someone" which, lets be honest, would've probably been me. We made an effort to stop the argument there and we carried on with different subjects. Thinking that the after emotions would just go away later. But they didn't. This happened yesterday. I haven't really been feeling well since. I was really really stressed that day and that argument made me 100x worse. So much so that it effected me from enjoying the day with my Dad and siblings. I just shut myself off and stayed on my phone the whole time. I thought it would make me feel better like it usually does but it didn't work. I guess my bottle was to full. But if I keep it down it'll go away. And earlier today I made a joke saying that "social anxiety is a turn on" but I offended the same person who argued with me the day before. I told them I meant that I like easily embarrassed socially awkward characters in fiction. Which is true, I like Danderes. But I'm the end I just apologized for offending them and ran off to another chat and pretended nothing happened. Another thing is this photo
One chat I showed it to said that it was a great photo 10/10 but the other chat hated it. It was a bit jarring for me, but nothing I didn't expect. I just needed to get used to not expressing my opinions with people who didn't agree with them. If they're reading I'm sure that know who they are. If anyone from the chat I'm talking about is here well than I'm sorry. That's all. It's out of my character to be sad or argue, I'm the "good friend" I'm the shoulder that m friends lean on, they air their grievances to me. But I don't have anyone like that. All my friends don't like ye only thing I like, Anime, expect my cousin, but she doesn't like Danganronpa, no one I know likes DR. I don't know if alyssa is reading this, knowing her it's a no. I don't like dealing with serious things. I listen but I have no one to listen, no one to share interests with. Where as some people can pretend to be a different person because nobody knows their face, I can be the real me cuz nobody can see my face. I can just have fun and become Kokichi__Oma, and I've met people on here who I genuinely consider friends. I've said all I wanted to say so I'll end here.
That you everyone, for reading this, for caring. I've heard other people on this platform vent a little about their life and it makes me grateful to live in a place where my parents love me. I want to make others happy, so I can't burden people with my trivial issues. So thank you everyone this made me feel better. To be honest I cried a little. Thank you for reading I appreciate you all.
And if you need to vent,
You can come to me