nahmir-
excuse any mistakes
i walked off the stage letting jay preform
"you ok"? my mom asked
i shook my head yes forcing myself onto the couch
since alycia was to bougie to go to alabama i brought alabama to L.A
manny passed me a water bottle laughing
i was tired asf
hungry asf
horny asf
and most of all
stressed out asf
i just want to lay down
i sighed looking down at leah sleep in my moms arms
i haven't really haven't kinda told her that she really isn't my daughter buttttttt.
"aye bring me a cool towel".
manny threw it at me sitting down
i placed it on my forehead closing my eyes
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"nahmirrrr your not doing it right". victoria whined
i laughed continuing to do her eyebrows
"where is the arch"? she asked
"the hell is that"?
we both laughed as i grabbed a wipe
"here".
"wha- why"?
"just whipe it off".
"nahmir".
"tori".
she huffed whipping all the makeup off
"now you look beautiful".
"so i didn't look beautiful with makeup on".
"i think you look your best without it".
she blushed looking in the mirror
i wrapped my arms around her waist smiling
"i'm never letting you go tori".
she turned around wrapping her arms around my neck
"forever".
we passionately kiss
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i woke up to the sound of leah crying
"nicholas "! my mom yelled
i jumped up looking around
"huh"?!
"does she have a bottle"?
i looked in the bag still half sleep
"i don't see anything".
her cry became louder
"boy how the hell you supposed to take care of a baby without the most needed thing a baby could want"?
times like this i wished victoria was here to help me
leah cried reaching out for me
i picked her up bouncing her up and down
"shhh".
she laid her head on my shoulder as my shirt became wet
"nahmir you have to close the show with rubbing off the paint". my manager said coming in
"what about leah, she won't let me put her down".
"your gonna have to take her up there then".
i really didn't feel like it but this is what i had to do for the sake of leah
10:18 pm
candice walked inside as i closed the door
"where is she"? she asked nonchalantly
"upstairs sleep".
she turned her head then looked back at me
"nahmir listen..."
"look i don't want to hear whatever the fuck apology you got".
"anyways, i was going to say even tho your biologically not leah's i need people to know that cam isn't the father".
"ok, don't tell them".
"but what if cam ends up getting out of jail n shit".
"that sound like a candice problem".
she rolled her eyes heavily sighing
"i'm serious like leah thinks that your her dad and i'm really hoping to keep it that way".
"i'm cool with that, but your not getting any of my money".
"i don't need your you or your money".
manny walked downstairs looking between the two of us
"he's cute". candice said biting her lip
"that's a case".
she laughed handing me leah's bottles
"i'll be here tomorrow to get her and maybe to get the friend over there to".
i looked at her in disgust closing the door
"so where's the girl"? manny asked
"which one, he got to damn many". my mom said coming upstairs
cordae laughed along looking up from his phone
"i don't have a girl".
"you did until you fucked it up". manny said
"please don't remind me". i slid my hands down my face sighing
"just like yo damn daddy". my mom mumbled
i got up irritated running upstairs
i saw leah sleep in between a fort of pillows
i removed like like all them placing her in my chest
besides victoria she's the only girl who brings me happiness
i went to instagram seeing glizzy and nature boo'd up
mbfn i complained in my head
i don't know what to do at this point
it's like either way ima have to move on but i don't want to move on
like i still picture my entire like with victoria
we were supposed to get married have kids, have more kids after that
grow old together.
now i really get it, i am the one to blame honestly
why did i do what i did? i thought looking at the tv