fasten ur seatbelts (i always say stuff like this but it never goes that deep 💀)
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It was quiet. Everyone was silent as they ate their breakfast, this time Yoongi had cooked. Cutleries making awkward, shrill sounds against the plate as they ate their eggs. Seokjin was the first one to leave the table, saying he's going to brush his teeth. Namjoon just sighed. God he hated this, he should've never brought last night up to Jin.
He didn't know how long he was staring at the door Jin had left trough, but when he averted his gaze to the table again, the members were staring at him.
"Something happened." Taehyung states immediately. Namjoon just sighs again before resting his forehead on the dinner table and nodding. He laughed humorlessly. And everyone was worried, worried because they only saw Namjoon so stressed out and deep in thoughts in their trainee days. It couln't have anything to do with them as a group, because Namjoon is really open about struggles they face as a group, things like disbanding used to be a common subject. Jimin held his hand tentatively, small fingers caressing his rather big palm.
"You don't have to tell us, Namjoonie hyung." He said, voice soft yet thick with emotion, sympathy and love. Namjoon nodded again in response before sighing again. After a few seconds Namjoon spoke up, his voice almost mocking in a way. The words came out muffled against the table and soft.
"He- he likes me." He actually laughed this time, though there wasn't any trace of humor or happiness on his face. He repeated it again, murmuring it to himself. He shook his head in disbelief.
"Oh, well that isn't really bad, right? Just tell him you don't like him." Taehyung said. The table fell silent, and everybody was holding their breaths (IT AUTOCORRECTED TO BREASTS I CANT BREATHHSDJ). Namjoon almost looked ashamed when he shook his head again. It wasn't that easy.
"It's not that easy, Taehyung." Hoseok scolded him lightly. It took Taehyung a while to understand what his hyung meant with that. When the quarter fell, his eyes widened a bit and he made an almost weird noise.
They wouldn't be as close as brothers if they all didn't know what he was struggling with. It wasn't the first time they had talked about each others habits or problems.
For example, they also had a serious talk with each other when they walked in on Jimin masturbating on the living room couch.
He had explained with red flaming cheeks that he liked the idea of someone walking in on him, and he had nodded quickly when they said he couldn't do this anymore while they lived together. So now every Friday night he locks himself up in his room and comes back two hours later with flushed cheeks, and no one speaks about it.
Or when Jungkook woke up every night to call his mom and cry on the phone. Taehyung had found him sobbing on the bathroom floor and asked what was wrong. His heart broke when Jungkook said he didn't feel loved by anyone, and just wanted to go home. Taehyung had sat down beside him and took him in his arms until he slept. Ever since then, they slept in the same bed, and Taehyung made sure to praise the maknae every time he could.
So yeah, you could say their bond with each other was unbreakable. And just like this time they knew what was up. The spaced out gazes on his face, deep sighs and frown on his forehead combined with flushed cheeks and stuttering whenever he spoke to Jin could only mean one thing. He was struggling, and this time it wasn't with kinks or depression, but with his own sexuality.
Everyone snapped out of their gazes when Yoongi suddenly stood up, his chair scraping against the floor. With an unreadable expression on his face he said. "Namjoon and I will have a talk."
He walked upstairs beckoning for Namjoon to come with him. Namjoon sighed again before nodding and following him. He walked upstairs with his shoulders and head hanging low. They made it to Yoongi's room and the older pulled him down to sit on his bed with him. Yoongi didn't look at Namjoon, staring into nothing.
"Do you like him?" He asked the younger, voice monotone. Namjoon shrugged and looked at Yoongi. "I don't know."
Yoongi just stared at him. "Yeah you do."
Namjoon looked at him rather shocked before looking down and softly nodding his head.
"Yeah I do. I like him, hyung." He responded, eyes welling up with tears. A single tear rolled down his face.
"Then why are you crying?" Yoongi asked, wiping his tears.
"Because I don't know what to do, hyung."
"Tell him you like him, Namjoon." And that almost sounded like an order, but the softness of Yoongi's voice made it seem like it was the easiest thing to do.
"But what about the band? The company won't accept this, our fans will hate us because of me and i-" Yoongi cut him off, smacking the back of his head slightly.
"Don't worry about that right now, fool. That's something to worry about in the future. Right now, YOUR future is waiting for you in his room. And if you don't say anything to him, you'll regret it forever. "
Namjoon was quiet for a while, and they sat next to each other in silence. But then he stood up and left the room, determined look on his face. Yoongi smiled to himself. He walked downstairs to the living room again, where the rest was sitting with expectant looks on their faces.
"Well!?" Jimin asked, with almost the same enthusiasm as a 6 year old. Yoongi just grinned.
"He fuckin finally knows. Motherfucker's been gay for years." He said, dopey smile on his face. And everyone hollered, laughed, and clapped, happy as ever for their leader.
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Jin was reading a book, sitting on his bed when someone knocked on his door. He put his book down beside him and stood up, stretching his back. He opened the door and let out a breath when he saw the person he was trying to avoid in front of him. He took a step back to let him in. Namjoon stepped forward, closing the door behind him and suddenly their chests were almost touching. Jin wanted to look down, anything to avoid the gaze in Namjoon's eyes, but the rapper didn't let him, cupping his jaw. He opened his mouth to say something.
"Seokjin, I like you. I really fucking like you." He breathed out, closing his eyes after he said the words. He could feel Seokjin nod against his palm. Namjoon opened his eyes again, scared to see the expression on his face. But when he saw Seokjin's face, all he felt was relief. He looked happy, a big smile on his face and his face a bit red, blushing. And Namjoon would be lying if he said Seokjin wasn't the most attractive person on earth. Overwhelmed with the situation he blurted out.
"Can I kiss you?" Seokjin got redder all over his face, and Namjoon could feel the heat radiating off of his face too. He started rambling. "I-I mean only if you want to, like, like, nO pressure at all-"
Seokjin threw his head back laughing. He looked back at Namjoon, stepping closer and giggling. "Shut up, you loser."
And just like that they were kissing.
And holy fuck Seokjin kisses as good as he looks.
Namjoon inhaled sharply through his nose the moment their lips met, eyes fluttering shut. At first, it felt like his first kiss all over again; shocked, nervous as fuck and trying to remember if he brushed his teeth or not. But then Seokjin put his hands around his neck and pulled him in even closer and, fuck, he was going to be the death of him.
His own lips moved against Seokjin's perfectly, and he wondered if this is how good every kiss was supposed to be. He almost felt weak in his knees. His hands gripped Seokjin's hips, bringing him in closer until their chests were touching. He heard Jin gasp into their kiss, moving his lips even more frantically against the other's. Namjoon smiled into the kiss, so fucking happy he could explode.
Eventually they had to pull back, because well they had to breathe. Both panting a little, they smiled at each other.
Seokjin actually let out a laugh, because this whole situation was almost unbelievable.
And holy fuck, Namjoon kisses as good as he raps.
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rewrote this chapter 9 times because i wanted it to be perfect.
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