I kinda feel like crying.
So this girl I have a crush on, I've written about her before, she's always in my head. And it's not always the best. It just makes me feel very insecure. Anytime I am doing literally anything, I could be doing laundry or laying in bed watching YouTube or reading or doing homework or trying on dresses, I'm always thinking about her and what she would think about me if she was there in that moment. I'm always so worried about what she thinks of me. But the weirdest thing is, when I'm actually with her, I don't think about it at all. But now that I'm saying that I'm wondering what she thinks of me. I feel like I'm about to explode from anxiety and insecurity and self-hatred. UUUGGGHH
Someone help.