Jennie's POV
"Dad, i dont think i can.."
"Oh sweetie you have to.. you can do it!"
"ARRGHHH!!!!!"
"Jen..Jennie..Jennie yaa.." feel someone shake my body lightly make me come back to my senses.
I quickly peel of his hand from my shoulder and awkwardly staring on my feet.
my innerself still shaking..
my childhood era is not that good.. i was raised with luxury.. its not like im not feeling glad.. but still.. i think i was isolated in a big mansion since i was small.. no friends..no adventures thing..
until one day.. when i was 7 years old.. i ride motorbike with my dad.. that was my first ever experiencing an adventure thing.. i love to ride bike with him.. and i always kept asking him to speed up. he speed up the bike..i felt something weird with that bike but being a kid i didnt know whats going on until my father accidentally hit the barrier.. make me being thrown away a few meters from there..
i found myself...break my own wall in front of a guy that i barely know..
Y/N's POV
"We are here.." i said as i removed my helmet.
i felt she already climb off from my back..
i dont hesitate to help her take off her helmet..
and i was welcome with pale face of her..
Should i fix her hair?
what if she kicked me?
I lift my hand.. fixing her hair..combing her hair with my hand..
she spacing out.. not even say a word...
seeing how the wind blowing through her hair.. is the best scene that i ever watch closely..
Hey what happened to you Y/N? i mentally slapped myself cause smiling like an idiot just now.
"Hey jen.. how was my ride just now?"
Still..she spacing out.. not even say anything..
Okay to be honest i dont like her arguing with me.. but i think i prefer her talk back to me..
Its not good... This is not Jennie Kim that i knew..
I move closer to her.. placing both of my hands on her shoulders..
shaking her lightly..
"Jen..Jennie..Jennie yaa.."
Then she looked at me.. blinking her eyes repeatedly...
peeling of my hand from her shoulder .. lowered down her head..
I knew we have class this morning.. but.. handling the girl in front of me right now is the priority..
I saw her fidgeting her fingers..
i think its better if i just stay with her without even force her to speak..
after a few second.. i heard her sobbing..
who knows.. a tough girl.. that always look cold..just like all the people said.. could break her tough wall right now.. its not like me dissing her..but... why Jennie?
I dont know what supposed i do..
I dont even know why my chest tighten when i saw her like this.. It was painful to see her like this...
All I could do was embrace her and let the torrent of her tears to soak through my shirt...
I could feel her clench her fists, not knowing whether to be mad or to give up hope all together...
I could hear her silently screaming...suffocating with each breath she took holding onto her pride...
I didnt even care the students kept looking at us right now..
My focus is on this precious girl right now..
I ran my fingers through her hair, time and time again, in an attempt to calm the silent war within her mind...
"Its okay.. Just let it out.." I whispered at her as soft as i could..
I fight with myself..making sure that my beast didnt come out at the wrong moment..
I was being trained since i was small to control myself.. thats make me managed to become Alpha..
"Y/N.. I'm scared.."
With that she tighten the hug around my waist.. and i could feel her tiny body relax on my embrace.
Jennie's POV
Y/N and I end up skipped all the classes for today.
I kept on saying sorry to him repeatedly cause im burdening him and drag him to my matter.
But he just revealing her cute bunny smile at me saying its fine.
Wait.. am i calling him cute?
Now i found myself sitting on the grass...facing the lake..with him beside me..
i dont know why.. somehow i feel i save whenever im with him..
especially when he wrapped his hand around me.. i feel like i have no worries to think about...
and today.. i really learn.. what is 'calm' mean.. by.. watching the beautiful scenery.. feeling the air.. feeling the wind blowing.. thats what make me calm a bit right now..
Traumatized.. yes i could feel it..
whenever i try something new.. it would end up to be a tragedy..
I sneaked out from house to play in the forest... and i almost being eaten by a dog..
I loved speed...so i asked my father to accelerate the bike.. and i end up involved in accident..
i tried to learn how to ride a motorbike last time.. but i end up broke my hand...
I tried to walk alone to the nearest store.. and i almost being molest by strangers..
"Are you feeling better right now?" He asked me as he turn his head look at me..
I looked at him..facing him.. his face .. i could feel full of concern.
but..
i dont believe in anyone who try to act like they care bout me.. but the truth is not..
"I'm okay.." i said as i turn my attention back to the lake..
"Dont pretend you are okay.. i know you are broken.."
"broken? what are you talking about?" i raised my eyebrow and look at him back.
"Your eyes Jennie.. it explain everything.." He tilt his head... and continue again. "It fulls of lonely, empty, scared."
"Wow.. amazing Mister Jeon.." I fake laugh and clapping my hand.. cause yeah i felt offended.
"Listen to me Jeon Y/N.. dont act like you care.. but the truth is not.. "
"What if i said i really care?" He snorted back.
"Y/N.. you know.. there is no anyone beside me when i tried to face the trauma that haunting me.. i kept handling it by myself. even tho my parents.. My dad nor my mother..they are not beside me when i really need them to calm me down to overcome my scariness." i choke on my saliva as tried to swallow down the bitterness inside my throat.
He just looked at me with that concern look..
"And yeah.. i tried to open my heart to accept someone to come into my life.. but.." "but..the love is messed up.. i was toying by him..he put the drugs on my drink.. he almost rapped me." i cant even say it straight cause.. everytime i remember that scene..i just wanna kill myself..
He kept on looking at me.. i know its cue for me to let it out everything.
"Thank god Lalisa was too fast.. she saved me from that jerk."
I wipe my tears with the back of my hand..
"And now.. my focus is just to study..i dont believe in people's love.. my parents cant give it to me.. so i cant even complain why i didnt experience that.."
"Jennie ya.." The way he calling me.. i feel like it make my mind blowing..
I slowly looked at him.. without even respond him..
his hand touch my hand..
running her thumb on my back of hand.. somehow it make me calm..
"can i ask you something Jen?"
"What is it?"
"You say love is messed up right?"
I nodded..
"You say that it don't work last time right?"
i nodded again...
He tuck my hair behind my ear.. surprisingly i didnt budge any inch..
"So if love is nothing more..Than just a waste of your time..."
"Waste it on me Jennie Kim.."