as the night deepens
I wandered and watch
the stars scatter
I wonder if you see them too
the stars that light up
for this cold and cruel world
they feel so close
tell me
do you feel it too
as the morning rises
they'll become the sun's best friend
as the night falls
suddenly they're the moon's best friend
they stood and stay
and somehow they remind me
so much about you
- To my dearest bookworm -
***
The airport was pretty crowded at that time that made Changbin had times where he should squeeze his way through.
When he got out of the crowd after being squeezed by several strangers. he accidentally bumped his chest into someone in front of him that made the person lost their balance.
Changbin quickly made a move to catch the person, preventing them from falling. Changbin held their waist with one hand and their hand with the other. He held his breath as he accidentally got his face too close with the other. The other opened their eyes slowly which were greeted by Changbin's worrying ones. Changbin got mesmerized by the other's eyes until he forgot how to breathe.
The girl cleared her throat that made Changbin helped her standing up straight again. She couldn't look at Changbin in the eyes as she looked everywhere around her.
That made Changbin took the chance to observe the other's presence. His eyes traced down from her shocked eyes to her cute boop-able nose until her pinkish lips. She was wearing a white floral shirt with a black skirt and white Converse. She had her baby blue sling bag with her that made her look even more pretty and cute.
"Uhm, thanks?" she said, more like she asked.
Changbin threw an awkward laugh before replying, "Your welcome, I guess. Sorry for bumping you, I wasn't looking where I was going," he said before giving the girl a bow.
"Oh, no. It's fine, really. The airport's a bit crowded anyway," she said, sounded quite taken aback.
Changbin threw her a smile and nodded, "Are you okay? Did it hurt somewhere?" he asked as he scanned the girl in front of him from head to toe.
She checked herself by looking down before shaking her head, "I'm okay. Just a bit surprised," she said that made Changbin nodded and sighed in relief.
There was a bit of silence as guilt filled in Changbin's heart after bumping the girl and surprised her. While he was thinking of a topic to shoo the awkwardness away, an idea came up in his mind to make it up to her.
"Well, as an apology, why don't I treat you a coffee next time? I'm Changbin. Seo Changbin," Changbin said as he held out his hand.
The girl gave him a warm smile before shaking Changbin's hand, "I'm Song y/n," she told him as they made contact with each other's eyes. "And the coffee will be great. Here's my business card. Mine's the first number," she said as she took out a business card from her bag and handed it to Changbin.
Changbin smiled at the card without knowing what the card will bring him to.
***
Changbin rolled himself on his bed as he looked at the business card. After the dinner he had with his family, he made a few minutes talking with his cousins and uncle before going towards his room. He got reminded by the business card he kept in his hoodie pocket and took it out before rolling on his bed.
Y/n confirmed that she's the girl who Felix always talked about every time they met up. He was about to fall for her that time but he shook it away as he pretended to be happy for finally meeting the girl who got into his and the other boys' curiosity.
He rolled his body like a teenager in confusion while kicking his legs in the air. He thought about what will happen if he contacts her and what will happen if he doesn't.
One, if he ends up contacting y/n, the worst scenario that could ever happen is him being friend-zoned by Y/n. He fully understood that both Felix and Y/n were liking each other.
Two, if he ends up not contacting y/n, they will be awkward when they do meet someday which will certainly happen. He will also fail to keep his image as a gentleman who keeps his promises. He will definitely disappoint her.
Changbin sat up straight on his bed as he grabbed his phone before started typing down some words and pushed the send button. He threw his phone away before grabbing his pillow and covering his face with it trying to cover his squeals to be heard by his parents.
His phone buzzed all over his bed, telling him that he just received a message. Changbin quickly grabbed his phone again before unlocking it. He entered the messaging app and smiled widely from ear to ear. He typed down a few words to reply before sending it again.
***
Changbin dragged his feet into Iontais as the bell on top of it rang, "Y/n," he called as he stepped in the shop.
Y/n peeked her head from one of the shelves to see Changbin with his suit, "Hey! What's up?"
Changbin walked towards the counter as he climbed on one of the chairs. He put his arm on the table before laying his head on top of it as a heavy sigh left his lips. He closed his eyes while feeling the headache he was having.
Y/n realized that Changbin didn't give her question a respond so she turned her body around to see Changbin in that state. She furrowed her eyebrows as worry started to get into her.
"Changbin?" she called as she put the books she carried on a shelf before walking towards her best friend.
Y/n got behind the counter and bent down a bit to give Changbin a check. She traced Changbin's look from his tired eyes which were covered by some strands to his little nose and pinkish lips. She took a seat beside him as she watched him breathing softly.
"I'm in stress right now. I need to go somewhere peace and quiet and got reminded of your book store," he mumbled as he tried to fall asleep. "I hope I'm not bothering you,"
Y/n chuckled as she stroked his black hair softly, "You're not a bother at all. Mind to share what's happening at the office?" she asked as she kept stroking Changbin's hair.
Changbin felt butterflies messing around his stomach as he felt y/n's hand made contact with his head. Changbin let out a sigh to calm himself down as he began telling y/n how his office was in chaos. From how they lost a file for an important meeting tomorrow, to how some of his workers being lazy on a hectic week. Last but not least how one of his clients were being rude at every meeting and threatened to give bad reviews.
Y/n let out a chuckle as she saw Changbin pouted while ranting how his chaos day was. To Changbin himself, just by listening y/n's laugh was already enough to wipe out all the stress in him. Y/n kept stroking Changbin's soft hair.
Changbin didn't say it but he really likes the way y/n softly stroke his hair, it made him feel relaxed as if nothing that day ever happened. If only she could do it every single day, it will be a lot easier for him to get through his day.
"And now I got a headache after all that happened," he whined that made y/n let out another chuckle.
"You're doing great, Changbin. After all, you manage to find the way out, right?" Changbin nodded as a response, "You should know that you're a great leader of a great company. You shouldn't let anything make you think that you're not because that's not true. Look at how far you've gone, there's still a long way ahead so you better keep your head's up if you don't wanna crash," y/n said that made Changbin giggled and smiled, he felt warm as he listened to her encouraging words.
"Thanks, y/n. Do you think I can still do it?" he asked that made y/n nodded without a doubt.
"I believe in you. But seriously, you're actually a full package for girls. You got that breathtaking visual, perfect personality, and also a guaranteeing job. I'm still wondering why you haven't hooked up with someone yet," said y/n that made Changbin felt a mix of emotions.
She first indirectly admired Changbin's visual that made butterflies flew around, exploring his stomach. Then she wondered why he hasn't got a girlfriend yet while the girl that Changbin has had eyes on is y/n herself.
"I don't mind if you're not in my arms. As long as you're happy, I can also be happy. Cause by letting you go, I learned that love isn't always about having each other,"
***
Flexing
Why is it so hard to get her brother's heart?
I really want to be with her so bad :(
ChristopherBang
You'll get it, buddy!
Chicken lover
Do your best kid, all it needs is a bit of effort.
Seung_minnie
I am a hundred percent sure that you'll end up with her.
InnieWinnie
Fighting!!
Minknows
You need to try a little bit harder!
JiSquirrel
Effort is what it needs!
Hyunjeans
What did I miss?
Binsual
Don't hurt her|
Don't hur|
Don|
You can do it lix!
***
"I- uhm-," y/n started as she looked at Changbin.
"What is it?" he asked as his eyes focused on the book she recommends him.
"How do you manage to.. you know, cover up your feelings?" she asked.
It was the day after the confession. Just like Changbin said, they won't be awkward after that night and go through the day like usual. They acted as if nothing happened while in y/n's mind, she got tons of unanswered questions.
"You don't need to answer if you don't feel like it," said y/n as she didn't get a reply.
"It wasn't that I don't feel like it, you can ask me everything that you want to know. It's that I don't actually know how to answer. Well, I always think about you being happy with Felix and vice versa. You both desperately wanted to be with each other and I know that Felix has been working hard on making it come true. Seeing him struggle so much like that made me think that you will be better off with him. Plus, Felix met you first, so yeah, next question" he said that made you giggled.
"For how long have you had this type of feelings?" y/n asked pretending her pen as a microphone.
Changbin giggled before looking up the ceiling as he tried to remember, "People say that love at first sight exists but, I actually fell for you after a few minutes of our first encounter," he answered proudly, didn't quite know what he was proud about.
"So that's when you already know that Felix and I are... yeah or before?"
"Before," he said that made y/n nodded.
Y/n asked a few more questions before turning the conversation into some random-questionable-topics.
"It's alright, it's all gonna be alright. As long as you're happy, I will be too. So please keep that smile on your face. I don't need to have you and call you mine to say that I love you. All I need to do is to let you go and keep my feelings to myself. You don't need to worry about me. I'll find someone sooner or later to replace you in my heart. But that doesn't mean I'll forget the feelings you once gave me. Once again, love isn't always about having each other,"
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kiha
22:16
03/03/2019
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