I woke up with Kiel next to me still sleeping,
It was around 9am now,and I couldn't fall back asleep,so I grabbed some clothes and head to the bathroom to wash up.
After I finished i dried my hair and put it in a low ponytail,my hair was long enough to do that now,I didn't bother with makeup i didn't even bother to wear any shoes
I wore an old long sleeved black dress,with a dark purple cardigan over it,i made sure to pick the thickest stockings because fuck Ivan's stupid rules.
I walked downstairs and opened the sliding glass door to the garden,i didn't even bother to go out in fact i just opened the door to feel the cold breeze,
No one was around I couldn't even see any maids,it was boring here,
"Ma'am" I heard Eric call me so turned around to see him slowly approaching,
"Do you need something?" He asked
"No thank you Eric" i answered,
"Master assigned me to become your personal guard,so i hope you're not bothered with me being around from now on" he announced,
"What do you need to guard me from? I mean I'm glad that you listened to me and beat Kiel up when you saw him dragging me into the bathroom yesterday,but just in case you didn't hear,Your precious Master has dumped me,and I'm unwillingly dating Kiel now." I explained
"So you can stop trying to protect me from Kiel,let him assign you to someone else because there is nothing left for me to be protected against"
"I cannot Ma'am" he replied
"Whatever just leave me alone" I replied again and turned away, "you may leave"
"Call me if you need help with anything Ma'am" he said and i heard his footsteps slowly become lighter and eventually disappearing,
Until i heard him come back again,
"Eric can you just leave me-!" I turned around to scold him this time but it wasn't him,
It was Ivan slowly coming into the living room trying to walk again after laying for a week.
I didn't want to be in the same room as him any longer,so I turned away without saying a word and tried to leave but i heard something dropping,
I looked again to see the small statue that was on the table shattered on the ground,
I was going to ignore it and go back to walking away but i heard Ivan groaning,I sighed and looked to check what was wrong this time,
He was leaning on the table as if he cannot get up and walk again,
I walked back to him and grabbed his arm putting it around me on my shoulders and let him lean on me,I slowly walked him to the couches and let him rest on one of them,
All while we both remained silent.
"Why are you alone?" I asked him,
"Shouldn't that ugly nurse stay with you?"
"I was thirsty so i came downstairs" he replied,
"Of course you were. Ill go call Eric to help you upstairs" i said leaving him walking to where Eric went but he stopped me,
"He's coming don't call him" he said with a groan,
"Okay then I'll go back to my room" i said back and switched my direction but he stopped me again,
"Can-Can you pass me the remote control?" He asked,is he making excuses for fucks sake??
I walked to the TV and took the remote control to give it to him.
"Did you have-..Did you sleep With Kiel?"
He asked in a serious tone
"Because you shouldn't have any intercourses for two weeks" he quickly added
"And who are you to ask? My boyfriend?" I mocked,
"You didn't give a shit about me back at the hospital,now you're suddenly interested in my health?"
"You told me not to involve myself in shit that doesn't involve me,so do that as well Master.
He is my boyfriend now,of course after you sold me for free like five days ago. stay out of my business,I'll fuck whoever i fucking desire" I yelled in anger
"I thought it was mine" he yelled back without hesitation
"It's not anymore!" I yelled back throwing the remote control next to him on the couch,
"You kicked me out of your life without even giving me a proper explanation why,so i'm sure you can find plenty of other virgins you can add to your stupid collection,you already lost me" i paused "Stay" I pointed at him in anger
"Out of my life Ivan,You have no right to interfere anymore." I watched the colors drain from his face.
"You've done enough damage"
I stormed away,yes it's been five days and I'm keeping count,Kiel sleeps in my room and Ivan ignores me all day,i tried to talk to him multiple times but he kept shutting me out,and i simply gave up.
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"You called me Ma'am?" Eric finally arrived to the garden where I called him to,
"Yes i did,please take a seat" I pointed at the empty chair in front of me on the other side of the table signaling him to take a seat.
He pulled the chair out and sat on it clearing his throat,I raised the shawl over my shoulders so that i don't get bothered by cold wind.
"Do you need to talk about something Ma'am?" He asked,
"Yes actually,too many things" i spoke
"First of all,"
"What happened to Nancy?" I asked stirring the hot cup of tea that Sophia got me,even though I don't like tea i craved it for once.
"The pistol was loaded full,with exactly ten bullets,You shot seven bullets four of which missed while the remaining three shot her," he started to explain with details,
"She got shot in the shoulder,which didn't do much damage,and in her neck which went through her carotid artery,"
"The carotid artery which carries blood to the brain was completely blocked by the bullet,
I'm not completely sure because I'm not the one responsible for these type of things in the house,but she might have died of a stroke because of the blood clotting that interrupted the blood flow to the brain,but at the same time the third bullet went through her jaw breaking it,"
"She died within three minutes,if she wasn't going to die from her fatal wounds she would've died from blood loss"
"Oh..." I finally said unable to believe that i was responsible for such cruel death.
"What did you do later? The police? The ambulance?"
"We were able to stop the police from coming,
And we had to burn her body,we were able to cover up just fine but the scene was the bloodiest it could be,so the place smelled of strong hydrogen peroxide and bleach,it was unbearable to stand here for more than a minute" he answered explaining more
"The only problem left is that we're unable to make a convincing cover up plan,and her parents will start questioning her sudden disappearance and that's something we're afraid of"
"Can't you just tell them that she attacked us?" I suggested,
"They'll demand proof,and we can't provide proof because she destroyed the security cameras and her parents would press charges and request investigation,and if it happens police would be involved and if police finds out about Ivan,he'll lose everything" he sighed explaining further
"It is really complicated Ma'am-," as he was about to explain more his phone started buzzing,
"Please excuse me,it's Master" he excused himself and got up taking the call a little bit further away from me,but i was still able to hear.
"Yes,Shes here," i heard Eric reply,
"Are you sure Master? I don't think it's going to work," he answered turning back to see if i was listening so I pretended to be distracted by my tea cup,
"I'll take her" he turned away from me and continued to talk,he hang up and put the phone back in his pocket,
"Ma'am,Master is calling you," he said approaching me,
"So? I'm not going" I replied with a chuckle
"It's an order" he exclaimed
"Fuck his orders" I cursed back
"I'm sorry for this Ma'am,but i have to execute my orders" he grabbed my wrist and pulled me out of my chair,
"Hey! You take orders from me too!" I said trying to stop him from dragging me,
"His orders are more superior" he replied still dragging me,
"Eric stop!" I started to pull my arm to stop him,
"Stop it!"
He stopped and turned to face me in frustration,
"I'm sorry for this Ma'am" he put his hands on my waist and pulled me closer to him,
With all his strength he picked me up and carried me over his shoulder,
"are you for real?!?" I hit his back with my fists and kicked with my legs,
"What is this disrespect?!"
"You left me no choice ma'am" he put his arm around my thighs so that I'd stop kicking,
I feared that my dress was a little short,but
He carried me without a problem,ether he was super strong or i was super light.
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He opened the door to Ivan's office and walked in trying to gently put me down on the red sofa in the middle of the room but ended up throwing me on it,I bounced back and sat up groaning because of the impact.
I saw Ivan standing in the middle of the room with a few papers in his hand,I thought that he couldn't stand straight?
"What the hell do you want now?!" I yelled at Ivan who was just staring at me,
He slammed some papers on the glass coffee table and put a pen as well,
"Sign these and you can go" he ordered sitting on the sofa in front of mine,
"First of all what the fuck am i signing?" I asked confused,
"You'll find out later,now sign it" he answered
"No! I won't sign shit Ivan" I leaned back crossing my arms and putting a leg over the other,
"Irene,please" He asked again use a word i rarely hear him use, "please"
But even so I didn't give in and i shook my head no rejecting his plead.
"I regret not making you sign it earlier,but you leave me no choice" he said signaling Eric something,he nodded and came to me wrapping his arms around me so that I don't try to fight him off and separating my thumb from the other fingers,
He pressed it on a sheet of ink and brought the papers closer making me unwilling sign whatever the hell i just signed,
He was so close to me that i felt his hot breath on my neck,
He let go of me and picked the papers up,
"Go to the lawyer and give him these papers" Ivan ordered and Eric rushed out closing the door after him,
"So,now that i signed whatever the hell that was,Excuse me" i got up and turned around to walk to the door but he grabbed my wrist and stopped me,
"Before you go" he spoke with his head low facing the wooden floor,
"Answer my question"
"What question?" I asked confused,
"Did you have sex with Kiel?" He asked,
"he's my boyfriend,if i should be talking to anyone about intimacy,it would be him" i pulled my wrist from his grip,
"You broke up with me,so act like it"
"Just answer my fucking question Irene!" He yelled but was still in his seat,I wanted to see under his shell,why was he doing this? I wanted to see his jealousy,his burning anger I wanted to know wether he really cares.
"Yes" i lied,obviously I didn't have sex with Kiel,I'm not that desperate to be fucking someone a day after my break up,
"Yes and I enjoyed it,you have your answer now can i leave?" I walked to the door and wrapped my fingers on the door knob but Ivan quickly turned me around and pinned me against the door,Isn't he supposed to be stumbling right now? Was him falling over downstairs just a plan to make me answer a stupid question?
"Liar.." he whispered
"You can't let anyone aside from me touch you"
He moved his hand from my thighs to under my dress but I stopped his hand,
"My body isn't yours,and I don't need your permission to touch anyone I desire to touch"
I slapped his hand away,
"I might have not had sex with Kiel,but we sleep on the same bed every night,something is bound to happen," I smirked,
"How dare you?"
He talked back wrapping his hands around my neck,
"Kiel told me that you only needed a child to become more superior,you only care about women,money,luxurious parties,you never cared about me,you kidnapped me merely to satisfy your lust" I continued despite the fact that i felt his hands tighten with each word that left my mouth,
"You broke up with me because you couldn't bother to take care of a sick woman right?
You took everything from me including my own body,had i left with Nancy,you wouldn't have hesitated to think twice before adding me to the furnace along side all the other dead bodies you throw in there" i felt the oxygen slowly leave my body to never be able to go in again,he was so angry and pissed,the veins in his neck were all popping and he was fuming,
"Shut up Before i kill you right now Irene!" He shouted,
"Maybe Kiel was right and i never loved you,maybe having sex with you more than once made me believe that i somehow had feelings for you so that I don't feel bad about sacrificing my body every night,our child wasn't an outcome of love,it was just a lie by a guilty mother and a player father,you're just trash Ivan,you're trash" I continued trying to dig the truth out of him,i tried to know what he was hiding,and i could only get to it through his temper
"IRENE" he took out his gun out and pointed it at my forehead,
"Do it you coward! Kill me right now! End my fucking suffering! at lease now it will all be over for good!" i yelled back,
"Do it end my endless pain" i cried,
His hand was shaking,he tried to pull the trigger but couldn't,he just couldn't
His grip on the gun loosened and he grabbed my hand and put the gun in it,he wrapped his hand around mine and turned the gun around pointing it at his forehead,my eyes widened in surprise,
"so Shoot me Irene," he cried
"You said that i should end your suffering,and all your suffering is caused by me"
I couldn't kill him even if i wanted to,he wasn't only the man that i loved but the son of a mafia boss,
I pulled my hand from his and threw the gun on the ground,
"Are you dumb?!" I yelled at him,he was crying
In pain,
"My problem is not you,my problem is how you deal with problems," i caressed his cheeks and made him face me,
"I love you dumbass"
"Just tell me Ivan" i cried
"Why are you torturing me like this?! I love you but you are suffering alone,just tell me"
"I missed you" he wrapped his arms around me and cried into my shoulder,
"I missed you so much"
"It's been two weeks,two weeks since i woke up and I couldn't touch you or love you on any of them" he cried,
"Why did you break up with me Ivan?" I cried as well,
"We just can't be together anymore" he said causing me to pause,
"Not yet"
"What the hell are you talking about" i pushed him away,
"You aren't going to make up with me?!"
"Irene please don't speculate,you don't know why I'm doing this" he approached me again but i pushed him away again,
"Don't touch me Ivan,Don't come near me,I don't want to see you..not anymore" I turned around but he grabbed me again,
I ignored him and opened the door to leave the room,
"You really don't love me?"I yelled
"Answer me you asshole!" I cried hitting him,
"Irene," he still didn't answer
"Do you love me?!" I hit him more
"Go rest in your room" he said
"I do think we should take some time apart too" i said before slamming the door shut after I exited the room,
Once i was out in the hallway and stormed away from the door covering my mouth tightly so that no one hears my sobbing,
"Tsk tsk tsk" I turned around to see Kiel approaching me,
"Why is my baby crying?"
"Let me be Kiel," I replied wiping my tears away,
He grabbed my wrist and pulled me closer to him,he caressed my cheek with his other hand kissed me,I gently backed away but he kissed me again,
"How about i ease your pain a little huh?" He whispered,
"Let me make you forget about everything for a while,what do you say?"
"I-I don't know" I timidly replied,
"Ivan had already told you that he doesn't care wether you touch anyone or not,you're all mine" he kissed my neck,
Fuck, it's so tempting,
"He was getting comfortable with the nurse earlier,He's already over you so might as well you just move on as well,hm?" He smirked unbuttoning my dress's buttons,
"Come on let's just forget about the world for a couple of minutes,pain,guilt,love,break ups,problems,i can ease you from everything"
I tear left my eye,he clenched on my jaw and kissed me again,
"I told you that I'll make you all mine,and i will" he swept me off my feet and carried me bridal style to my room,I held on him tightly and buried my face in his neck,
"Kiel.." I whispered in his ears,
"Hm?" He hummed,
"Please,let's leave this place together" i cried,
"I can't handle this anymore"
"I'll take you to heaven,I'll make you feel every emotion you couldn't feel with him" he whispered back after closing the door behind him,
"It's only me and you now"