Jisoo's pov:
I'm enduring my chestpain while dancing biting my lower lip,
Trying hard not to whimper
"Waaahhh Paris I'm dead!" Lisa said after rehearsing Ddu du ddu du three times
"Yah! You're still alive!" i said
Thankfully the pain's gone.
"Pffft" Lisa said
"Rehearse Forever young again!" Paris command
We all whined
As if we have a choice
Taehyung's pov:
"I still wander,wander,wander beautiful story," i sang
"Whoa! Nice song Taehyungie!" Jimin praised
"Gomawo hyung! I composed it this morning," i said
"Whatta talent!" J-hope said
"Ne ready for tonight's awards?" Jin asked
"Ne!"
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Jisoo's pov:
"Welcome to the 2019 Seoul Music Awards!" the MC said.
"Woohhhh," the thousands of crowd cheered
Lights flashing everywhere
Lightsticks,banners,balloons,
whatever is that...
Momoland performed first with their hit Boom boom and baam
The slightly curly hair girl member looks so familiar.
"Kim Jisoo! Orenmanida!"Seulgi said as she rush towards me she's a red velvet member anyways
Seulgi hugs me
"Oh Jisoo sorry if I haven't hang out with you recently because I'm so busy with our RBB but atleast I saw you here! Bogoshipo!" She said and kiss my cheek.
I scratch my head..
"She's one of your close friends," Lisa whispered on my ear...
I can't remember that I'm close with Seulgi,
This damn amnesia is really annoying!
"I miss you too," i said
"Aww so chuweet!" Seulgi said
"Pikasooyah!"i heard Nayeon's voice
" Bunny girl!"i said and we hugged each other
Waaahh she makes me so happy!
"Huh look who's here!" Seulgi said rolling her eyes
"Seulgi get lost!" Nayeon said
"Gidalim you said that Seulgi's lost?
Why is she here?
Isn't she the real Seulgi?" i asked
"Hahahaha slow" Seulgi laughed
"Don't you dare to call Jisoo slow!" Nayeon yelled
"Gurraedo she is!"Seulgi said
" Yah I'm not slow! I can even walk faster than my co members!"i pouted
"Hahahahaha," Seulgi and Lisa now laughed together.
Eh?
Why are they laughing?
"Hilarious right?" Lisa asked
"Right!" Seulgi said
"Cut it!" Jennie warned
"Oh our cuty nini!" Seulgi said nervously while
Jennie rolled her eyes
Hmmm Seulgi's also scared of Nini?
Ikon performed next,then Mamamoo performing their song Starry night(one of author's fave songs),(G)I-DLE performed Latata(also author's fave),Gfriend too.
"Now caling Red Velvet!"the MC said
" Jalga girls! Wendy Unnie!"Seulgi said
"Oh my god! He's a really bad boy!"
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AOA performed next performing bingle bangle,then Txt,Exo,Big bang,wanna one, Exid,
And many others
A slide show appeared on the stage indicating that Twice is next.
"Let's dance the night away!...
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Dul junge hanaman golla yes or yes!"
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Got7 and Seventeen performed next
And many others
Until it's finally our turn
As we sing and dance my eyes dropped to the blue green haired guy,
I mean my gaze dropped not my eyes
Kim Taehyung
He is talking happily with Park Jimin
Then he laughed when J-hope told him something.
Then he suddenly looks at me so I avoided his gaze
We just keep on performing and I missed some of the steps because of Taehyung's cold look
But I just cover up my mistakes with my fake smiles
Our performance finished and I notice Kim Taehyung frowning while looking at me
I just smiled glumly at him as we exited the stage
I sighed
Why am I so distracted by him?
Winner,Pentagon and Apink performed next until it's finally BTS
They first performed the Idol,
I noticed a familiar guy as they performed
Flour guy!
He's a Bts' member too!
They next performed the Fake love
And V didn't even look or smile on me the thing I'm expecting
I sighed
"He's really mad at me,"i mumbled
Feeling my achy heart...
I really wanna cry but I hold it back
I'm not vulnerable
Does...having conflicts with a close friend really hurts?
Nayeon said letting go a friend doesn't hurt so much
But why am I so much hurt?
This is so stupid
"Jisooyah what have you done with our performance?
We've rehearse but you still can't perfect it,think about Sajangnim!
Ugh you're really foolish!
You're such an idiot!" Lisa scolds
Really?
Why is she so mean to me?
She's always like this!
Does she really loathe me so much?
I sobbed unable to hide my hate to her anymore...
She's always like this
She always laughs me,hates me
"Lisayah do you really hate me so much?" i whispered
Lisa gasped covering her lips
"Gosh what did I just said? mian-"
"Look what have you done Lisa!" Jennie madly yelled and hugged me
"Jisooyah it's alright,don't mind her okay I'm here," Jennie muttered in my ear rubbing my back
Looking so worried
"Maybe Shi-ra's right...you girls just want trouble for me,you are just faking things with me aren't you?
You don't really care
You all counterfeits," i cried harder
"No! That's not true?
We care about you okay?"
Rosé said this time
"You know that it's not good to hurt her!" Jennie yelled at Lisa again
"Enough Jennie," Rosé said rubbing Jennie's back
Lisa looks so guilty and ashamed
The other kpop groups are looking us
Muttering things that aren't so clear
Chattering indistinctively.
Nayeon suddenly arrived
"What's the fuss here?" she asked
"Ask Lisa,"Rosé said glaring Lisa
" Lisa?"Nayeon look at Lisa
"Fine it's my fault,Jisooyah mianhae,
I'm very sorry, I didn't mean it okay?" Lisa said looking at me
I just avoid her gaze
"Don't say that you don't mean it,it's alright to be honest at times,if you girls find it hard to be with me because I'm like this,
I mean I'm a burden
I'm always the one who brings up troubles
Then I can resign from blackpink you girls just find a new visual okay?
The one who isn't as foolish as me,"
I said crackedly standing from my seat
"Where are you going?" Nayeon asked worriedly
"I'm gonna tell sajangnim," i said stomping my way out there
My yeodongsaengs all stopped
me
"No don't do that!" Lisa said
"You're important to us," Rosé said
"Look Jisoo,Lisa's sorry and we're sorry,you're like our sister,we love you Jisoo," Jennie said sincerely and they all hugged me
"Love me?" i asked
What does love means again?
It's extreme caring right?
"Ne,"they said
Love me,they love me,
I somehow feel lighter upon hearing that.
Nayeon coughed
"Okay I'm gotta go,I'm out of place here," she said and left
"Jihyo yah! I wanna hug you too!" we heard Nayeon even said
"Yuck!" Jihyo said
"I'm in to that Nayeon!" Sana girlishly said and I guess she hugged Nayeon
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"And now for the fandom school award....wanna one!" The MC said
and wanna one climb up to stage,do some speech and get down.
I didn't notice that it's already awarding time
"Discovery of the year awards goes to Yang Dall!" The MC said
again
"Wooohhhh!"the crowd cheered
" Hallyu special award goes to?"
"Us!" Jennie said
"Exo!"
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"Judges special awards goes to?"
"That's me!"Lisa daid
" ADOY!"
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"Let's go to the band awards!
Band award is for?"
"Us!" Rosé expected
"Crying Nut!"
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"Dance performance award,
This is the kpop group with the best choreography!"
"That's surely blackpink," Jennie said
"Gfriend!"
*Wooohhhhh*
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"Hip-hop RandB awards goes to?"
"Drunken tiger!"
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"Best Album awards goes too?"
The crowd cheered and I can't understand it anymore...
But I hope it's us
"BTS!"
"Wooohhhh oppa!" My co members cheered
Acting like fangirls
Bts made their speech and I'm expecting for V's attention but they just went down the stage without even his single stare
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"Ballad awards goes to?"
"Lim ChangJung!"
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"Now for rookie awards!"
"Stray kids!" a girl yelled
"Stray kids and IZ*ONE!"
"Wooohhh,"
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"Now for bonsang awards!
The winners are BTS-"
"Yaaahhh oppa!" The crowd cheered
"-EXO,Ikon,twice,wanna one,red velvet,seventeen,nu'est w,monsta x,
Mamamoo,momoland,andNCT 127!"
"And blackpink!" Lisa said
"We're hopeless," Jennie sighs
"Don't lose hope there's still Daesang and Best song awards!"Rosé said
" For the Best song award..."
"Us!"i muttered
" iKon!"
"And finally for the most precious awards...."
Our heartbeats rages in excitement
I hope it's us I really hope
"The daesang awards goes to..."
We hugged each other
I really hope it's us
"BTS!" the MC finally said
"Wooooohhhh!" The crowd cheered
"Ouch unnie!" They all said
We haven't get a single award
Bts have their speech
"This is for you Armys!" J-hope said
"Can I have an additional extra performance?" V asked
"Ne sure!"
"Let's get outta her unnie," Jennie said pulling me away
"Yeah, what're you waiting for?"The two asked.
"We're losers," they even said
"Ani I don't wanna go...I wanna see him perform," i said
Looking up to Taehyung
"Her happiness," Jennie said
"Fine!" The two girls forcefully agreed
Taehyung strummed the guitar
Putting the stand mic close to his lips
"This song is for a girl that is very special to me,I just compose it this morning,"
Murmurs are everywhere now that he said that...
I sighed
As if it was me
Taehyung look at me,well our table is close to the stage so I clearly know that he's looking at me...
"Kim Jis-"he muttered on the mic
But he cut it with his cough
The crowds laughed
" Is he tryna call me?"i muttered
"Just clearing my throat," V said and smiled
He strummed the guitar still looking at me
"Kyaaah Jisoo! Look his looking at you," Jennie said almost squealing
"Ssshhh cut it" Lisa warned
"Hmm why is the situation getting opposite?"Jennie asked
I don't mind them I just look at V
"Kkoccdeuri gadeukhan georue oneuldo geudaereul boneyo, nae ane damgyeojilkkayo?"
(I see you today in a street full of flowers,will it be in me?)
V sang and his voice is so deep and husky but it's very beautiful
I suddenly remembered
Ganghwado Island,the first time I saw him in a flowery forest
"Saebyeok dari jinan gongwone jigeum nae gamheongeul damayo
I noraen geudael hyanghaeyo,"
(I'm putting my feelings in the park after the early morning moon
This song is headed for you)
I can imagine us walking together under the moonlight,
We will look at the stars
"Oppa! I'm so happy!"
I'll said that
"Bamhaneul darege bichwojin pileumul sorireul deureoyo,"
(I hear the sound of film from the moon at night)
V sadly smiled at me
Why?
Is there something wrong?
I wanna go up there in the stage and ask him,
But I'll just surely fuss things
"I still wander,wander,beautiful story,
Still wander,wander,best part,
I still wander,wander next story...
I want to make you mine,"
He want to make me his?
But I'm already his...
His friend right?
(Babo)
A long strumming happened and he's just looking at me intensely the whole time
"Geu chalnaui siganui geu moseubeul nahchin nar maeumi aswiwohae,"
(That you missed that moment of time I feel sorry for my heart)
What moment does he means?
Yesterday?
Did he felt sorry for what he did?
Taehyung is looking at me intensely
And I'm feeling like I'm gonna melt
"Huhoega dwae dasi geu chalnaga issgireul,"
(I regret it,I hope I have that chance again)
What chance?
"Dalbit jogak hanahana moa jomyeongeul mandeul teni,"
(I'll collect a piece of moonlight and make a light)
How?
Jinja?
"Eojewa gateun moseubeuro nae ape wajuseyo,"
(Come in front of me like what you did yesterday)
I smiled,he wants me to come to him?
Taehyung smiled to me also and I feel like the time in South Korea stopped just by his cute smile and only the two of us are aware of what's happening around
What's this feeling Taehyung oppa?
"I still wander wander beautiful story
Still wander wander best part
I still wander wander next story
I want to make you mine,"
I feel my heartbeat rages as he sang that phrase again
' I want to make you mine'
"I'm yours oppa," i muttered
"Mwo?" Rosé asked and my yeodongsaengs started to tease which I just ignored.
"Ah Ah Ah Ah Ah Ah Ah~"
"I still wander wander beautiful story
Still wander wander best part
I still wander wander next story
I want to make you mine,"
My heartbeat increases and I'm trying to facilitate my breath because I feel something inside my chest moving as if it was melting.
"Bajaguk namgigi tteonagasimyeon jega geu angil jikigeyo
(If you leave your footprints, I'll keep you warm)
Heugbaek sok e namgilgeyo
(I'll leave it black and white)
My hourglass glowed purple and tried to stop the melting causing me to feel extreme pain
" Ugh,"i whimpered
"Kim Jisoo! you alright?"Lisa asked
"She's not!" Rosé said
"I think I'm fainting," i said as my senses are letting go
"Hold on Jisooyah,girls help me here," Jennie said.
"I can't take it,"
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Hold on
Kim Jisoo
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